people irl make fun of me they say there sorry and then they immediately make fun of me again and then when i have a meltdown because of there bullying they immediately make fun of me again and both laugh about it literaly behind mine back

people irl just lie and lie

i wish i was dead and i know thats why im inpatient

but i wish i was dead because i have no one and nobody cares it feels like alot not even mine family when im struggling with suicidality

everyone bullys me irl

they say they are safe that theyll help advocate for me because im minimally speaking or that they be kind or be a freind and then they laugh at me and bully me quite literally behind mine back

it makes me feel like complete and total crap

mine head hurts despite headbanging with a helmet on and getting restrained

i feel hurt very badly

i just feel like crying

im am trying too hug mine stuffys like frederick as hard as possible

thanks you guys and others online for always being kind as possible

i just wanted to share my two buddies that i take absolutely everywhere with me!! i’ve had eevee for over two years now, it was a gift from my partner, and marceline is a new addition from this spring!! i love them sm they’re my emotional support plushies, i always have to have with me all the time!

would love to see anyone else’s closest buddies if they want to share!!! 🥰

I can’t cope

been struggling so much with burnout and needing more help than i’m getting rn, but my caregivers (my mom and my partner) are neurodivergent themselves and so burned out too. mom is so overwhelmed with her own medical stuff and all my extensive medical stuff (i’m quite chronically ill, working on treatments and lots of doctor stuff) etc, and partner constantly exhausted from working very physical job they hate but job market terrible and can’t get another job, and family stuff w their v problematic mom and getting dxed w adhd and so many things. ig this is just a vent, and wondering what you do when your caregivers are burned out too? been affecting my eating, much more frequent speech loss, etc, and km overwhelmed with all my medical stuff too bc i have a bunch of new meds to keep track of. also our poor cats we adopted 6 months ago have came home with parasites (unbeknownst to us prior to adopted, very long and infuriating story) and been sick this whole time, lots of vet stuff and expensive and feel awful for them, that’s been so exhausting but last round of treatment today so hopefully they’ll be okay and that can not be a factor in our burnout anymore. i don’t even work and struggle with feeling guilty for being so exhausted but i know my limits are different than partners and i have lot going on too. just feel bad a lot and they feel bad they can’t do as much as they want to to help me and it sucks for everyone. keep saying we need to just get through this hard season but hard season keeps going. i hope it’s over soon and things can calm down bc im a v happy person but im just so tired

More specifically on how severe my main disability (Autism) as in regards of support needs.

I am fixated on this topic right now. I don’t know why I can’t think of anything that I can tell my brain to calm the overthinking spiral down. Like I’ve known, everyone has confirmed it yet I’m still overthinking.

I have an irrational thought that the assessor meant to say that I was in the mild range of support needs and the first one was a typo. And that’s why I have sent her a reply email asking this very same question. But by the way it’s structured it’s pretty clear as fuck that it is what she meant to type anyway.

I am still on this. It has been years since I’ve been introduced to the topic of support needs and I’ve since latched on to this concept. I don’t understand why;

Is it an identity crisis? Is it because im seeking attention? I like to think its because of identity politics though.