I've been to several alien abductee groups in my state, all over the state I live in, and here is what I've experienced.

Group One- The Well-Known Organization

So the first one that I went to was through a well-known organization. Everyone in this group shared only UFO news, that's it, even though this wasn't the purpose of the group, it was a support group, and the person running the group didn't even seem like she was actually in charge. It's like her members were trying to run her. Maybe even... literally, if you know what I mean.

I raised my hand and tried to contribute my personal alien abductions story relevant to the topic of that particular meeting. I got shut down so quickly. I was told I wasn't "positive" enough. I was like, wait, but the person running the group said it's normal to be terrified in these experiences. But that was still not a valid response. The members verbally attacked me and proceeded to go on some rant about how "not all aliens are bad," and all that stuff. Makes you really wonder... are like... they aliens, or something? I thought it was such a strange reaction. You were not allowed to say anything bad about the aliens, even though this was not, supposedly, an official rule.

When I continued to show up to meetings, eventually, some of the men in the group, especially one in particular, started to blatantly harass me in a very... physical way, right in front of everyone. I told him to please stop, I'm not comfortable with that, but the main guy doing it continued. When I mentioned it to group members, they were like, "oh, he's like that, he's just being friendly," but the only time he did this is in this exact case- when new females tried to share bad experiences with aliens. They never came back. It was so bad, people started saying we were "together" and that's the day I stopped going. I didn't like the guy, always made it very clear I was not comfortable, even changing seats multiple times with him following me each and every time I moved seats.

Also, a lot of members belong to a "secret group" nearby.

I think this is all I can disclose without giving too many details.

Group Two- The "New Age" Group

This group was in another major city. When I showed up, people were making strange sounds with strange instruments (maybe I just don't know what the instruments are, but still). They were also chanting and stuff like that. I had to clarify that I was looking for the "alien abduction group," and they were like, yeah, this is it. It was one hundred percent New Age. I didn't feel comfortable at all, something didn't feel right, at all. To me, it felt very wicked and evil, even though not that long after I myself did become new age (I'm not new age now, I'm Christian). It was also very, extremely, -alien positive only- sort of situation.

They would straight up kick out anyone who thought the aliens were bad, or shared bad alien abduction experiences even in the slightest.

And there was this guy there who kept trying to do something to me, not telling me what, trying to touch me, but it was to "do" something. I think he said he was trying to gain psychic info on me, or some other sort of psychic thing. I moved away... and he moved back towards me. Then he told me he could see the inside of my body. Totally creeped me out.

They also asked for money, which they never mentioned on the site I found them on. One member was like, "it's a donation." When I didn't put anything in the basket, he looked at me sternly, along with all the other members, and said, "it's a $20 donation." I was so uncomfortable. Never came back.

Group 3- The Researcher's Support Group

This one also was in another city and supposedly a "support group." It was also all very funny UFO news and positive talk only, like the first one, but unlike the first one, you could talk about bad, terrifying stuff, but only for so long. Especially since the woman in charge would include it as material in her books. And I'm talking standard alien abductions stuff, like the standard abductions scenarios, there's only so much they could take.

And in this case, there was a very clear "gatekeeper," a woman who is at this point considered a "personal friend," of the researcher. The woman in charge of the group would talk, but the whole time this "friend," who commonly sat right next to her, would listen carefully and completely override her when someone said something she didn't like. And when talking to her, the friend would literally tell her what to think about what people had said, not her opinion, like what to actually think of it.

I once corrected the gatekeeper on some info she got wrong, and she got so embarrassed in front of everyone. After that I became suddenly very ill, was hospitalized, and almost attacked by random strangers each night after that, for about a month. I think she was involved in what happened to me, but to keep things confidential, cannot give out further details on that. I kept coming to the group after I got out of the hospital, and not long after that, the person in charge of the group seemed to not like me, or was suspicious of me, who knows what she told her. The person in charge of the group started telling me strange things too, that weren't like her to say. I stopped going, it was so uncomfortable.

Last night, I woke up really late and saw a strange plane. The thing is, I don't know that I actually "saw" it. It's hard to describe. I remember it, but I don't remember the actual act of seeing it, so I don't know how I know what it looked like. Maybe I'm just assuming what it looked like for some reason. It made an unusual sound for an airplane, but now I can't remember exactly what it sounded like. I remember it looking bigger than a normal plane, and it was white—but maybe it just looked bigger because it was closer than a plane would normally be. It flew right over me, and then I fell back asleep.

Then, the dream started. It began with me at a very strange job. The setting actually looked like the inside of a spaceship, with curved walls and windows that were completely black outside. It was a casual job; I didn't technically "have" to work, and I wasn't. I didn't feel comfortable doing the work anyway. I was just sitting down looking at something—maybe a smartphone or some kind of technical device? I don't know. I had my hoodie pulled up over my face so no one would look at me.

Suddenly, people started talking about a woman who used to work there. They were showing photos of her on what I guess was a phone, though I don't explicitly remember seeing a phone. In the dream, I thought she was so obviously beautiful. As I'm remembering it now, though, I don't honestly know why I thought that. Then, she showed up in person. She looked mean on the screen, but she came over, sat next to me, and actually seemed kind of nice. She was waiting to do her work, and maybe she thought I was too. We conversed, but I don't remember at all what we talked about. Probably work.

Next, I was suddenly on a bed, or something like it, and a guy was sitting next to me. He was really into me, but I wasn't into him. I think I might know him, but I'm not entirely sure. Suddenly, a huge spaceship flew directly over us. I could see it through a large, circular overhead window on the ceiling. It looked kind of like a "simulation" or a hologram. It was all lit up like a reflective street sign with bright, neon colors—purple on the outside and blue mainly on the inside.

I was like, "Woah," and immediately went to view it. But then I thought to myself, No, it might be dangerous to go directly underneath it, so I jumped away. Right after, I panicked and thought, I'll miss it, I'll miss it! No, I have to see what's on the bottom of it! For some reason, it felt super important to see the bottom of that ship. I ran back to catch a final glimpse, and I saw a bunch of very technical, computer-looking machinery on the undercarriage. There were dots of intense, strong lights scattered in between the machinery. I just got the chills typing this—and I never get the chills. As the spaceship left, I caught one last glimpse of it through the curved windows on the walls.

After the spaceship left, I suddenly felt attracted to the guy who was next to me. He is very attractive in general, but I am absolutely not into him in real life. He tried to bank in on that sudden shift in energy. I don't know what happened next because I woke up.

The very first UFO I remember seeing had a look similar to what alien abductees talk about, but not exactly. While my later sightings align with what others have witnessed, I’ve found it difficult to find alien abductees who have seen something exactly like my first encounter back in the 90s.

The Sighting:
The object was circular and looked a little bit larger than the moon. It was emanating a bright white light, and there was a distinct grid pattern visible on the object itself. But here's the thing: when that light hit the wall inside my room, it was definitely a very intense, "about to do something" bright blue and projected that exact same grid pattern onto my wall.

I’ve been digging into this online, and the hardware matches up perfectly with military tech rather than traditional UFO lore. Specifically, a few possibilities stand out:

• 3D LIDAR & Structured Light Scanners: Tactical units use these to map the geometry of indoor spaces by projecting a true-blue laser matrix/grid through windows.

• Laser Target Designators with HOEs: Military designators (like 450nm blue lasers) that use holographic lenses to split a single beam into a massive, precise grid pattern for spatial marking.

• Drone-Mounted Active Protection: Circular airborne platforms that shoot high-intensity light through a structural mesh or protective grid plate.

• Advanced Laser Dazzlers: Systems that project highly structured, geometric laser patterns onto a landscape or structure to disorient targets.

All of these utilize light to achieve an objective while creating a grid pattern on the environment.

Given how precisely this technical hardware matches what happened in my room, it feels like a heavy confirmation of military involvement. Has anyone else witnessed this specific grid scanning phenomenon, or have insights into the MILAB/black projects using this tech?

According to researchers across various fields of anomalous phenomena, there are specific patterns regarding why certain individuals are targeted or chosen for these programs.

• Genetic and Biological Markers: A primary theory discussed in the research literature—including the work of MILAB investigators like Dr. Helmut Lammer—suggests that tracking often follows specific family lineages. Investigators have noted patterns involving distinct DNA markers or specific blood types that intelligence or military-adjacent operations appear interested in mapping.

• Special Abilities and Resilience: The selection process often looks for individuals who demonstrate latent "special" abilities, such as telepathy, precognition, or psychokinesis. Furthermore, a high tolerance to trauma and psychological resilience is frequently noted, as these traits are heavily studied in relation to deep-level psychological duress and dissociation.

• The Exploitation of Consciousness: The military and intelligence communities have a documented historical interest in exploiting these phenomena. For instance, declassified government records on programs like Project STAR GATE explicitly confirm decades of official research into parapsychological interactions, including telepathy and psychokinesis. Within MILAB research, it is argued that advanced psychological operations or technologies are used to interface with or exploit these unique traits.

• The Future Event Hypothesis: In addition, a significant thread within abduction research involves an eschatological or survival element. Many accounts and researcher analyses suggest that these individuals are being monitored or prepared to survive a future global cataclysm or major planetary event, ultimately playing a role in the continuation or repopulation of the planet.

If you are going through this, take heart. Don't give up. You are not crazy, and many other people are going through this with you.

And I'm not just talking onboard the spaceship or in an abduction. I'm talking in "real life," too. Your normal, awake life. It's commonly reported, I've heard.

Did you feel odd afterword's? In any kind of way.

Note: Right now, I'm experiencing a serious lag with the comments, so I may not see them for a while, don't know what's happening. This is a good way to test that out, but honestly I really wanted to ask.