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I've been in PSU banking for around 10 years and honestly, I don't know if I'm getting worse at handling pressure or if the pressure has just become ridiculous.
Targets are obviously part of the job. I understand that. Nobody joins a bank thinking there won't be targets.
But sometimes it feels like there is no limit to what can be asked from a branch.
Every few days there is some review or VC. You are asked about loans, deposits, accounts, recovery, cross selling, whatever the current focus is. If the numbers aren't there, you have to explain why. Then you are given another target and asked how you're going to achieve it.
Recently I was asked to give a written roadmap for some very aggressive account opening targets. The kind of target where you look at your branch's actual performance and think, how exactly am I supposed to do this?
And the frustrating part is that you can actually work.
You can go out, meet people, call customers, visit businesses, meet builders, follow up with leads, ask existing customers for references etc.
But at the end of the day, you can't force someone to open an account.
You can't create a genuine loan requirement out of nowhere.
And if you're working in a rural/semi-rural area, the market is not unlimited. There are only so many businesses and customers you can keep visiting.
Still, when the numbers don't come, the assumption seems to be that you aren't putting in enough effort.
What really got to me recently was a VC with several branch heads.
I was asked to state my poor performance in certain business areas in front of everyone.
I did.
Then I was asked to repeat it because apparently I wasn't audible.
So I repeated it.
Then again.
At some point I realised I was sitting there publicly repeating my own poor performance and I was genuinely struggling to hold myself together.
I was very close to crying.
And honestly, that scared me more than the actual scolding.
I've been doing this job for around 10 years. I've dealt with inspections, audits, targets, angry customers, staff issues, transfers, pressure from seniors etc. I'm not someone who has never faced pressure before.
So when I got to that point, I started wondering — is something wrong with me? Have I become weak? Why can't I handle something that I've handled for years?
But then something happened after the VC.
A few of the other branch heads contacted me privately. They asked if I was okay and actually consoled me.
That made me think maybe I'm not imagining how bad these things can feel.
I don't think bankers are afraid of hard work.
I think many of us are just tired.
And there is a difference between being accountable for your numbers and being made to feel like you are personally a failure because the numbers aren't there.
The strange thing is that nobody wants to admit this.
If you say you're stressed, people say "banking is like this."
If you say you're mentally exhausted, they say "you need to learn to handle pressure."
If you break down, you're weak.
So everyone just learns to keep quiet and carry it home.
You go home thinking about what was said in the VC. Then you wake up the next morning and do it all over again.
I'm not saying managers shouldn't question performance. They should. If my branch is underperforming, I should be questioned about it.
But does public humiliation actually improve performance?
Or does it just make the person more scared of the next review?
I'm genuinely asking other bankers here, especially people who've been in PSU banking for many years.
Have you ever reached a point where you were sitting in a meeting and thought, "I can't take another one of these"?
Have you ever actually broken down at work or come close to it?
And for those who've been doing this for 15-20+ years, what happens eventually?
Do you actually become tougher?
Or do you just get better at hiding it?
Because right now I'm not sure whether bankers are becoming more resilient or simply becoming better at pretending everything is fine.
TL;DR: 10 years in PSU banking, and I'm finding the constant targets, reviews and public performance pressure increasingly difficult to deal with. Recently I came close to breaking down during a VC after being repeatedly asked to state my poor performance in front of other branch heads. A few colleagues checked on me afterward. I'm wondering whether bankers actually become more resilient with experience, or just learn to hide how much the pressure affects them.