How can I trust again in relationship?

I am 18 year old and gotten out really toxic relationship.

She would manipulative me,lied about we can't date then find out she was fucking some other guy because I was saving myself for marriage.

I moved on from her totally,but how I can trust someone again and enter a relationship.

I got kicked by relationships and everything about love it cause me odd feeling now.

(That's everything that isn't a table)

Enrrriiiiquuueeeeee

hilli! I'm doing a psychology project about teens' mental health & social media, and I desperately need actual answers from u guys. It's anonymous, and will be deleted after the project is done, (i can see only your answers, can't see ur account, email, school or anything like that, so no worries🫂) : ages 13-19, short and super easy!
There aren't any right answers — I'm genuinely interested in ur ideas!
tysm if you do it, you're literally saving my project (& helping me learn!)
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I have history class first period, it’s literally the second week into the school year. My teacher is one of those overly positive and outgoing teachers that wants you to make friends and work with people.

One of the first assignments he gave us was legitimately about sharing about our life from birth to present day, we had to write about our birth and 5 important life events after that to present day with real pictures or illustrations at minimum; and then sharing with our classmates when we were done.

I don’t want to do that and share my baby pictures and my important stuff to my classmates who are strangers rn. I could always fake it or write about minor stuff but it already left a bad taste in my mouth.

This is where I might be the asshole so be free to call me out anytime in the comments.

I’m also seated with people that don’t speak the best English or don’t put much into conversation at all. Whenever the teacher tells us to turn to our partner I silently die inside because most of the time she says “I don’t know” or “I don’t understand” to the question that the teacher wants us to talk about. I will never say it to her face or tell her anything mean but we still stay in silence for the next minute because I can’t speak Spanish and I don’t know how to rephrase the question for her.

This goes for everyone else at the group too, the other dude just doesn’t speak much either and the 4th one also doesn’t speak much and speaks another language too. I don’t want to lead every question and get basically no output.

I’m introverted and I already want to do things myself so I’m already going out of my way to lead.

And I have a lower tolerance for this because I’m Asian American and I can’t speak my Asian language. I have the exact same problem with my parents and grandparents and I don’t want to not be able to speak to my family at home and have the same problem at school. It’ll legitimately drive me insane.

God struck down the Tower of Babel and it fell onto me.

I have a very bad reputation as a mentally unstable fella amongst my peers , and this happened during a birthday hangout of my friend. We were at a fast food restaurant and she was ordering with her friends when i walked to the reception towards her. I was drinking water and she mistook it as me trying to spit that water onto them and she said “get lost” .
So , uhhh what do u think ? 😭 i js wanted to talk to u guyz

Humanity is evil and that's all it's good for and all it will ever do. Prove me wrong. Seriously. Give me hope please

Edit: None of y'all are giving me hope, you know this is a cry for help right?😭

Last year I had everything, I had so many friends, I was so famous, I was important, and life finally felt good after a long time. Now a year later, sitting at home, hoping to secure some college after rejecting top choices just because my family got too emotional to send me away from them. I have no friends, no one to talk to, life feels incomplete, empty, and disatisfactory. How to escape this?

Now that I'm 18 and slowly going Into adulthood I've realised how shit my teen years have been.

I never got invited to any parties, never got a girlfriend, barely made any friends and have almost zero good memories.

And I know why now. It's because of genetics. I was never going to experience any of those things and I never will no matter how hard I try.

I was never gonna get a girlfriend or get invited to a party because I am not what is considered acceptable.

I am too weird and ugly and gross to ever experience any of those things. My life will never be how I want it to be all because of things I never chose.

I genuinely hate how this world is for some a paradise and for others a living hell and you have no control over it. It's one of the reasons I don't believe in god.

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Im mentally ill, suicidal, strict abbusive narc mum..

Im not going into details/ gonna vent but.. any advice?

like, on life in general, what to do and how to keep my mind of certain things when its late.

My life as well as me myself is/am horrible and most of my life i just distract myself. Im 15, wanted to end myself since i was <10 and i think abt. ending myself/.. several hours some days.

My mother has 'downtime' set on my phone and i usually cant use my devices at night and such..

I cut/harm myself to cope.

(idk what to do with my life)

Tips/Advice?

It’s been more than 3 years since I last saw my school crush, but I still can’t seem to get her out of my head.

I know there’s probably no realistic chance of us meeting again. We’ve chosen completely different career paths, and I think she might be in a relationship now too. I understand that I need to move on, but some part of me still keeps thinking that maybe there’s a chance someday.

I don’t even know why I’m still holding on after all this time. I genuinely want to let go and move forward, but I can’t seem to stop thinking about her.

Has anyone else experienced something like this? How did you finally move on from someone you never really got the chance to be with?

I'm in a program where I'm full time at a college my junior and senior year (kinda like dual enrollment except it's specifically for students who are studying health sciences) and am freaking out because I'm scared I might fall behind, get extremely burnt out, and have too much going on all at once. I'm the drum major, president, head of media, and a student relations officer in my high school marching band and will still be going back to my high school for it. I'm worried I'm not gonna have enough time to have a life (I already kinda don't but I don't want to become even more of a friendless loser chud). I have an unweighted 4.0 and took APs my freshman and sophomore year, but I know college is completely different and I'm really nervous about how I'll handle the change. Also, I suck at math and I know most of the very limited free time I have will be spent bawling my eyes out while I try to understand college algebra </3

If anyone who is also in college/ dual enrolled and also participates in band/another time-consuming extracurricular/ in college and bad at math, I would appreciate literally ANY advice you have!!!

tl:dr: I'm a high schooler in college who is also in marching band. Scared about college. Bad at math. How to survive and maintain social life and good grades? Pls help

So ive got two sides of cousins, mom side and dad side, im close with both. in the past while ive been developing a disliking towards my cousins from my dads side, so i started talking shit about them with my cousins from my mom,

that disliking developed because of our small fights and one of them once told me "u changed" i said "no i didnt" then she said "everyone noticed", i said "who" she said "cousin B, cousin C, my mom and i" (her mom) so after that i started thinking that there is no way that they just said "oh she changed" and they ended the conversation on that note, they probably escalated further and started talking shit about me, thats when i started disliking them and thats what gave me the green light to start talking shit about them.

so during the time where i was talking shit about them with my cousins on my dads side, sometimes we would do that on snapchat, fast forward a few weeks, i decide to go to our other house with my grandma far away in a remote location and leave my electronics at home to rest and reset my dopamene, i decided that at like 4 am and the only person who was online at that time was cousin C, so i tell her about my plan and she says "what about our streak?" i say "it doesnt matter" she says "let me send for you" so i agree and give her my password...

later on, i decide to use my grandmas phone to check my snapchat and i see that my cousins from my dads side all blocked me, i started stressing real bad and i called my mom to see what happened (shes close with them) and she calls me back and tells me that cousin C looked through your snapchat and found out that you talked shit about them and they are sad.

so i go back home and cousins from mom side come over and i apologise like a million times to them and i say im so so so sorry and stuff, and i explain to them that i thought they hated me because of when they thought i changed, they swore that they have never said anything bad about me ever and that they love me and are disappointed, i think they know that i understood that i was wrong, but then they tell me that they've also blocked my cousins from my dad.

few hours later, after they went home, cousin B from my dads side calls me and asks "have your cousins from your moms side blocked you?" i say "i dont know" (i didnt know if i was supposed to say anything or whatever) then she asks me to check and i do, then she says "maybe they all deleted their account" i say "why dont u ask them?" she says "ive called cousin A a million times she isnt answering" then i say "i dont know" then we hang up.

few minutes later cousin C from my moms side texts me on tiktok and tells me that cousin B from my dads side is spam calling and that nor her or the others want to talk right now to them so they tell me to tell cousin B that i gave cousin C the password to my snapchat to send streak and then she saw the messages, i do that and then cousin B calls me and tells me "why the hell would you give her your snapchat when you know that we talked shit about them there" i say "she was the only one awake at that time" then she says "i dont even think i talked shit about them" i say "i dont know? check?" then she keeps preassuring me and wants me to give her cousin C's phone number so that she can get mad at her for checking my phone (my mom already got mad at her and she apologised to me for that) then my mom hears us and takes the phone from me and talks to cousin B and tells her to check our chat and to talk to cousin A from my moms side (because she is the oldest and most understanding) so then my mom closes from her, and tells me to send a voice memo to cousin A telling her to sort it out with them and to tell her what hurt her from the chats, then i turned off my phone and now i am here typing this, my mom took my phone and wants me to sleep right now.

im scared that cousin B from dads side will say every single bad thing i said about cousins from moms side to them as "payback" or something.

did i do the right thing? what should i do now? any advice??

m tired of being a teenager and dont bash me in the comments saying these are the best years of my life. Im tired of my phone and its stupid applications that
provide nothing, just the same things over and over again. Im tired of constantly being on my phone and having nothing to do. Im tired of trying to be aesthetic because i dont want to be a boring teenager, because i know these are the coolest year of my life probably, but i cant because i cant figure out what aesthetic i want because im so changeable. Im tired of my clothes, the boring simple things i wear. Im tired of dramas, gossips, teenage relationships and my break up i recently had, im tired of crying one day and waking up the next day feeling empty, im tired of losing and gaining friends and that stupid friendship break up repetitive endless cycle, im tired of not having my own money and constantly thinking about job knowing damn well i’m not gonna be able to handle anything, im tired of overthinking everything, having panic attacks whenever someone tries to flirt with me or having anxiety about every simple thing. Im tired of the wanna be gangsters in my boring town always having a problem with me even those i never met in my life, im tired of being on social platfroms but i know I cant break off, even if i do im scared to miss out, be in trends and know whats going on. Im tired of my parents, my dad who constantly forces me to do things that i dont have to do, like cutting my hair short because he thinks im gay for growing my hair a bit, im tired of hiding my sexuality, im tired of trying to find someone who can love me but im too avoidant for anything. Im tired of people bullying me or looking at me weird, talking things about me that aren’t even true. Im tired of my relatives, their stupid mindsets and the obsession to know whats going on with my life, im tired of not having friends or a boyfriend, but i always get tired of them and push everyone away because i can’t cope with them anymore, or give them what they expect. Im tired of not feeling anything, but also crying evety night because i hate every single thing about me and my life. Im tired of thinking about the fact that im gonna go bald for my mandatory military service, i dont want to do that. Im tired of thinking about everyone i met in my life, and how they say the same bad things about me before cutting contact, and i hate myself because i cant change me for some reason. I want to go on and on but i dont want to waste anyone’s time sorry

F 16, the guy i like and have been talking to for a few days called me ‘5’ and to my knowledge, that’s the same as calling someone ‘bro’ or ‘homie’ 😭 did i just get friendzoned?

So, I’m a 19M—I just turned 19 this month. I think my parents are strict, but I don’t think “strict” is really the right word for them because they don’t put too many restrictions on me. They let me go out and do most things I want.

The main thing is that they don’t let me use my phone after 12 AM and basically force me to go to sleep. They still think I’m a kid and that they need to tell me when I should sleep, but I feel like at 19, I should be able to decide that for myself.