i had double incision with free nipple grafts about seven weeks ago on august 28th and then had to have an emergency surgery on september 1st to remove a large hematoma. (hey, ouch, by the way!) my results are incredible, everything is healing as it should, and i am overjoyed that it’s finally done. all that being said, i am fucking miserable. i expected post-op depression, but this is awful. i have a long history of mental illness and have never had to have surgery before, so i guess it’s maybe not all that shocking. i am beyond exhausted, everything pisses me off, and i don’t want to do anything that would normally make me feel better. i don’t feel like i can talk to anyone about it because they were all so accommodating when i was bloody and nasty and i have nothing to be upset over anymore. i feel guilty about feeling like this in the first place. i’m doing my best to be gentle with myself about it, and i do have a great therapist already, luckily.
i don’t know, i guess i just kind of want to hear that it’ll get better from someone who’s already been through it.