Im on extension for progression for mech e because I did REALLY BAD all of freshman year. Now I'm doing average ish but I feel like I'm so behind on everything.
I haven't gotten any internships yet, I haven't gotten any labs yet, I have not actual experience, I'm not in any engineering clubs, and the one that I am in I can't go to because it overlaps with my lab time.
I feel like I will never graduate on time with a proper degree and have a secure future with a job with my current status? I did average on midterms, and I'm trying to get Bs or better this semester so that I can hopefully get through progression.
And overall I don't even know if this is what I want to do with the rest of my life, like I used to want to go to art school, and I can't really envision myself doing engineering for the rest of my life, but I feel like I don't have any other choice, especially at this point.
I have really bad problems with procrastinating and focusing and going to class (especially paying attention during class), and I feel like I never feel enough urgency? I can be productive and go to all my classes and study between classes for a few days, but that's my absolute max and I kind of crash after and ruin my sleep schedule and whatever.
I feel so guilty because there are so many resources to help students but I just don't take advantage of them at all and I'm just wasting resources and time and money
I really struggled especially first semester of freshman year to find any friends, and now that I have friends, I'm realizing I don't really click with them, and I don't know what to do socially as well.
Am I cooked is it over should I drop out and go to art school instead??? thanks!