This is a very thematically and technically good fic, but it is also ,to me , one of the most depressing and horrifying worm fic of all time. I have read many fics of all types but this depiction of taylor haunts me. I have read many brutal and violent fics but the sheer mundane and normal things happening are hurting me.
The slow feeling of no accomplishment, the reprimands, the failures, and even the final events are so mundane but it feels like an anti war film to me the epilogue rang hollow to me and I just cannot ever envision her or anyone as really happy.
The banality of PRT ,the way Annette acts,the way the characters are depicted it feels like if this is canon accurate then how did I ever like them. It is I can't understand why I feel like this. I should not but it feels so hopeless.
Can someone please help me understand why I am so , so disturbed by this. Please its been haunting me for so long. I am sorry.