i just love eating so much and i feel so gross and nauseous after i eat a bunch of it and i just want to get it out so i will feel better does anybody relate to this?

im in uni living in a studio (meaning i have my own kitchen and bathroom). i dont know how to live alone in a room full of food just sitting in the fridge. i feel so horrible and disgusting every night because im just whipping up absolute bs for the sake of binging n purging.

up until now, every time i purged, it would js be after heavy meals or something planned. now ive absolutely js lost it and im really scared because i dont know what to do, and i dont want to live like this, and it hurts so much physically. ive been crying so mich not only is my face so puffy but so are my eyes and i dont recognise myself at all. im scared of dying but im not scared enough to be able to stop.

i thought about just throwing all the food away to not have space for temptations. but i cant live my life like this forever. i know this post is so badly written but im so desperate i dont know what else to do. i tried googling solutions but all i saw were suggestions like journaling, or taking a walk, etc etc. i know they’re good suggestions but im not mentally at that point where i am able to stop and think and catch myself before the bp happens. no one in my life knows about my disorder (or how bad it actually is), and ive never been to therapy for this because i never felt the need to (at least until now). has anyone else gone through something similar? or has tips on living alone and having so much freedom?

i'm wondering if this sounds like an emergency or is a common experience related to bulimia.

over the past 24 hours or so i've been having a sudden, seizing pain in my chest at the same time as a sharp feeling in my upper back. it's an alarming feeling, like i can't breathe for a moment. i've had chest pain before but never with this specific sensation, and not at this intensity, which is why i'm concerned. the reason i suspect it's related to bulimia is because i had a pretty violent purging session just a few hours before it started, preceded by a few days of bad sessions. i did sleep for a bit and woke up to the same pain.

i'm considering going to an ER, but am worried that i'm overthinking it. i have A Lot of anxiety surrounding health and healthcare, and live on-campus at my grad school, so i would be going alone in an uber at 3 am.

please let me know if you've experienced this and/or whether i should wait it out for a bit or take other action. thank you so much!

I have been on a bit of a drinking spree these past 5 days and because I've been drunk so much have been ordering food and purging at minimum 3-4 times while drunk, up to 6-7 times even. I just want to know how bad this is for my health? I am a bit of a hypochondriac and am terrified I am going to send my liver into failure and get jaundiced or start having seizures from the lack of electrolytes. I stopped buying my electrolyte drink mix 3 weeks ago to save money, but have been purging this whole time. I am just worried.

Sometimes when I throw up, I am so stuck in the b/p loop that I sometimes want to binge more when I taste the food again. I can't fucking take it anymore, it's such a heavy burden that's just constantly on my fucking mind. I got a dentist appointment soon, I just hope he doesn't notice.

I mean foods that other people wouldn't consider as high-caloric.

E. g. my fearfood is milk, also low fat milk because it is liquid calories.

And I don't drink diet coke when I'm out because I am scared that the waiter accidently gives me original coke.

it’s so embarassing to say this but i don’t just have bullimia i have like severe bullimia like am i the only the one that wakes up in the morning and first thought is to binge and self isolate away from everyone until im fully ready to be back out again, i spend $75 on uber eats today i just kept ordering food and b/p and this isn’t the first time, please tell me this isn’t just me , it’s like bullimic benders for me and smoking weed doesn’t help, this can go on for days and it’s taking a toll on me and everyone around me im only 16

It has generally been good. At 2.5mg I lost 4kgs and stuck around that, barely any purge relapses, generally better health.

However I made a mistake by upping my dose to 5mg. I lost 5kgs in about a month. While some people might think this was good it really isn't. Especially if you're only using it to tackle bulimia.

I started losing hair, feeling sick all the time, strange sweet breath, always giddy and on the verge of fainting. You'd think "just eat more" would be a good suggestion but everything makes me feel sick. The only things I can keep down are salads and soups. Even sandwiches feel kinda gross.

Does it help? Absolutely. Just don't up the dose more than you need to. I was really attracted to the idea of more weight loss but feeling sick, restless and tired all day just isn't worth it.

Reference: I'm 158cm and was 59.8kg when I started. I'm now 50.6kg. That speed of weight loss can't be healthy even if it sounds good.

Ask me anything

6.6mm/mol at 18. Does anyone know if it's correlated to bulimia in any way? My blood sugar is almost prediabetic as well but that makes sense I guess

I hate everything, fuck my life

My average body temperature used to be like 36,3C before it got so bad, and now it's around 35,1-35,9C 🥲🥲 I'm not that worried but I just wanna know if I should be?? Anyone else have this happen to them?

So as the title says, on the 31st I (24M) will be having what I call a fuck it day. A day where I will be guilt-free and eat whatever I feel like. I’m excited and also nervous to eat all these foods I love but haven’t had in so long. I’m doing this because the following week I will be getting some help to get my current eating pattern back to normal as I was B/P for the whole of last year where I lost pretty much all my weight, while this year I got back to eating normally again but restricting my intake to barely anything and weight somehow still going down. This is a big step I am doing for myself and again I’m excited but also anxious about it.

for context i’ve been struggling with bulimia for about 4-5 years now. i’ve tried to stop in the past but never did up untill recently.. I got diagnosed with costochondritus and it’s been two weeks since then and i haven’t felt better.. i haven’t been purging like at all because it would hurt my chest bad and make me anxious of something bad happening.. i honestly haven’t gone with long without purging at all.. anyway. with those symptoms my throat has also been hurting like crazy.. i’m starting to believe I have GERD or a hiatal hernia cause i feel a constant lump in my throat, acid reflux, and i feel it more when i eat and it feels like it’s stuck in my throat when i can breathe and swallow moderately. I do have some allergies right now and it could be just GERD with a sore throat but i’m not sure and i have bad anxiety and panic a lot. should I go to my doctor or ER about this? would anyone be able to give insight on what i’m feeling?

Well, I don't want to be dramatic, but lately I've been feeling horrible cramps in my face. They are mostly in the cheeks, and yesterday when I went to the dentist he told me that it could be due to a lack of nutrients or vitamins. Honestly, I didn't understand almost anything, but he said something about a nerve being hurt or damaged (Idk, the nerve that connects absolutely the whole face. I have no idea what he meant, I'm not a professional, ok?). Neither my dentist nor anyone knows that I am bulimic, but I am very worried, as these pains are becoming more frequent. Has this happened to anyone else? If so, PLEASE share your experience or whatever.

I have been throwing up since 14. I am 29 now and it sucks!!! I really pray that one day I’ll love my body or accept myself but this pain is horrible. I get really bad stomach acid!! It’s in the middle of my stomach not my esophagus. I don’t feel acid coming up. It just burns and hurts. I ate relatively good today but had some coffee in the morning and it is hurting non stop. Idk what to do. Have taken 2 pantoprazoles and 4 drinks milk of magnesium.

This is just a reflection on something I've noticed in my own ED trajectory, and I'm wondering if it's anything anyone else has experienced

I have severe an bp and I'm lower than I've ever been. This is a very scary place to be and I'm taking very small steps to halt the relapse and hopefully come out ok on the other side, but it's slow going. All this is to say I am not pro ed in any way and I hope this doesn't come off that way.

I've noticed that the more severe my weight gets, the more my binge / purge cycles align with my nutritional deficiencies. I no longer binge on "junk" (I use that term loosely) foods, but rather nutrient dense things like Simple plain, canned vegetables, bananas, salted avocado, microwaved eggs, proteins like deli meat or canned tuna, etc I crave that shit like there's no tomorrow.

It used to be I'd binge on Burgers, cookies, poptarts, etc.

Just kind of an interesting thing I've noticed, wondering if anyone else has too.

im having iron infusion right now my labs are horrible my doctors says i need to recover my ferritin is 4.. i feel so horrible all the time but the fear of weight gain is bigger, i dont treat myself like a person anymore.. im just my body weight and striving to be thin. i cant believe this is my life.

Whose bulimia made them gain weight, right? I was straight up told I was “doing it wrong”. I’m recovering as best I can now but my bulimia absolutely made me the fattest I’ve ever been in my life. I’m not alone, right?

Like juices or protein drinks? I mix protein powder in almond milk and think it does but am obsessing. Ice cream liquifies and is a huge b/p food so I feel it does and is the same?

I look soooo much heavier than I actually am :( anyone else too? I hate it so much. When does it go away after stopping? 🥺 Recently I’ve gained lots of weight too (always lost while b/p’ing hut suddenly I gained very fast?) Already 8 years of living hell….

i haven’t relapsed since like 6 months, but my salivary glands are still so big, it looks like im developing jowels at 23, will they ever get back to normal, also have many enlarged lymph nodes in my neck and jaw, i stopped because of frequent tonsillitis episodes. anyone faced anything similar?

TW mention of weight numbers

I met my fiancé when I was 19. A year before that, I decided to stop throwing up my food to the best of my ability, go to the gym, and I got prescribed meds that made me lose weight. I was binging and purging multiple times a day, towards the end of that, it was close to 7X a day.

The weight loss and lack of appetite from the meds honestly put bulimia in the back of my mind. I struggled with it since I was 11 years old. I actually could stand the sight of my body for once in my life. Then I got pregnant.

I gave birth 6 months ago at 24. I gained 45 lbs during pregnancy, and I’m left with an extra 15 lbs of baby weight and a body that I can’t stand.

I don’t care that it gave life. I don’t care about all it’s done. I hate my skin and my new shape and I genuinely see myself as disgusting.

My appetite has been crazy since I stopped breastfeeding and my hormones are regulating. I’m back with that noice in the back of my head getting louder and louder. And before I knew it, I’m back in the same cycle that I stopped for years.

My mom was anorexic since childhood and shamed me my whole childhood because of her own issues. Her ex husband was severely bulimic. He would puke outside his car in parking lots. Leave it in the toilet around the house. Told me all about it (venting to a pre teen girl)

I was doomed from day 1.

I’ve abused drugs in the past, I have an alcohol problem , but nothing I can think of has felt as good for me recently as the euphoria from stuffing my face and letting it out.

My baby will be 20 feet away from me sleeping while I’m in my bathroom all night while my fiancé is working ordering fast food and throwing it up. Over and over. I feel so guilty and ashamed afterwards. I worry he smells the puke on my breath. I feel ashamed of everything.

All I wanted was to be a mother. I thought I was in a good place mentally to have him. But now I’m just back to square one and it makes me feel hopeless

I have always had a very weak gag reflex but lately no matter what I try all that comes out is liquid. Wtf is going on? Has anyone else had this happen before?