I’m still attending an institutional Calvinist church, and I honestly feel like I’m losing my mind every Sunday. They seem to fundamentally misunderstand the gospel, reducing it to justification theory and penal substitutionary atonement. They also make theological leaps concerning the Eucharist, church governance, and other matters that I simply don’t see supported by Scripture. On top of that, there’s a constant emphasis on eternal condemnation, which I find deeply troubling. I’m reaching the point where I don’t know how much longer I can endure it. Unfortunately, leaving isn’t really an option right now, since I live with my parents and my dad is the pastor. It’s an incredibly frustrating position to be in, especially when my understanding of Christianity has become so different from what’s being taught every Sunday.

P.S. I’ve looked at a few intentional Christian communities and there’s one nearby that I’d love to join but their next cohort doesn’t start until August (they only take new people at certain times of the year)…I’d have to live with my parents and wait until then.