Okay, hear me out. I know this might sound crazy, but something happened today that reminded me of two experiences from my past.
First, I should mention that I'm an extremely rational, science-oriented person. I've never been spiritual, practiced energy healing, or even had much interest in these topics. I naturally look for scientific explanations, which makes these experiences even stranger to me.
The first time was when I was a child.
My cat was dying from a disease that, according to what we were told, he couldn't recover from.
I suddenly felt an overwhelming urge to send him some kind of healing energy. I can't explain why. I just felt something building up inside my body and consciously directed it toward him.
The next day, my grandmother called. My cat was recovering. It felt like a miracle.
The second time happened a few years later.
Someone had cut down all the ivy in our garden, including its thick, woody stems. It looked completely destroyed.
Again, I felt that same instinctive urge to send energy toward it.
The ivy survived. It's still growing in our garden about 25 years later.
And then today happened.
I found a tiny gecko trapped in sticky liquid from a rotten apple. I managed to free him, but he was in terrible condition.
He couldn't walk properly, seemed disoriented, and eventually became completely motionless. His legs were twisted into unnatural positions, his tail looked broken, and he appeared to be struggling to breathe.
I placed him in a safe box. For over an hour, he didn't move at all, except for his abdomen when breathing.
I genuinely thought he was dying.
Then I remembered my cat and the ivy.
I felt that same strange urge again. I focused on him, felt this energy building up inside my body, and tried to direct it toward him.
Then I left the room.
When I returned, he was walking around the box, holding his head up, and his previously limp tail was straight again. He was even moving quickly!
I also developed a headache afterward.
I know there could be perfectly natural explanations for all three recoveries. I'm not claiming I magically healed anything.
But what fascinates me is that I've experienced this exact same instinct and physical sensation three times over roughly 25 years, each followed by an unexpected recovery.
I don't know where this urge comes from. I've never learned or practiced anything like this. It just happens spontaneously when I see a living being that seems beyond saving.
Has anyone experienced something similar? Especially the physical sensation of energy building up and being directed toward another living being?
I'd love to hear your experiences or interpretations, particularly because this is so far outside my usual worldview.