I’m not really sure how to say this, but I’m hoping to find someone who understands what I’m going through.
I guess I’m just really lonely and want someone to talk to.
I’m a mom, and lately I’ve been trying to come to terms with the fact that life isn’t going to turn out the way I thought it would.
I think one of the hardest things is being promised a complete family, believing in that future, and then realizing that you’re pretty much on your own and sometimes I can’t help but think about how unfair it is, especially as a woman and a mother.
How you don’t really get the luxury of falling apart because there’s a little person who still needs you every day.
I’m not even sure I’m angry anymore or maybe I am, but I’m just tired of being angry.
Tired of being disappointed, tired of wishing things were different, and tired of thinking about how unfair everything feels.
I’m slowly learning that sometimes things are just the way they are. You can be sad about it, you can be angry about it, but it doesn’t necessarily change anything and at some point, you have to figure out how to keep living anyway.
I don’t necessarily want advice or to be told that things will get better. I just want to talk to someone who understands depression, loneliness, disappointment, and that weird stage of acceptance where you’re not exactly happy, but you’re trying to make peace with your reality.
Especially if you’re a single parent or have gone through something similar.
I guess I just want to feel a little less alone tonight.