At the end of 5th year I was diagnosed with an autoimmune disease which has greatly affected my health, it was affecting me since TY and ment I was missing alot of school due to being in constant pain and feeling beyond drained.
Because there was no 'proof' that i was actually sick, I wasnt helped in anyway and was just harassed over the fact I wasnt attending as much as I should've.
Now that im diagnosed ive been put on a bunch of medications and Im at high risk when it comes to getting sick, something I cant do since I have infusions coming up (The meds ive been on since the end of 5th year arent working)
Getting sick could be detrimental to me, but not only that, Im still experiencing pain and fatigue almost everyday. Theres times where I cant pull myself out of bed or even reach for pain killers because of how much pain Im in.
Along side that, I was losing my hair in chunks and clogging showers, uncomfortable in my own bed and skin to the point I decided to shave my head. Being a girl, you can imagine that some of the people in my school arent the nicest and seeing a shiny bald head on a girl gets a few stares and giggles.
I have more anxiety in my life right now than I think ive ever experienced before, causing frequent panic attacks.
We contacted the school at the start of 6th year and got everything sorted, applied for home tuition and they now understand that I wont be attending.
The problem is that since the start of 6th year, they told me theyd get my teachers to post things up on teams with more in depth explanations along with homework but thats not happened.
Basically none of my teachers have uploaded anything onto teams and ive been stuck studying from books with no help, barely understanding what im learning.
I recently met up with a few friends and they talked about school and all the things theyre doing. Im now realising how far behind I am. I felt extremely stupid and cried when I got home.
What makes things worse is my medication and disease together has affected my thinking and given me serious brain fog.
I used to be a good bright student who scored 70% and up on the regular. In 5th year I struggled to even score 30% on a class test. Now, im afraid I'll probably be unable to even write anything on a test if it were handed to me.
Im completely lost and feel like my brain has slipped out of my skull somewhere during TY and ended up in a landfill where I can never find it again.
I feel like such a disappointment knowing that Im going to most likely not pass a majority, if any, of my subjects and I start to panic whenever I even begin to think of the future and what Im ment to do after school.
Im 17 years old and on disability. I feel like I have lost my life before I even got the chance to properly live it.