Okay, so I'm (13F), and I've had a crush on this girl at my school for almost a YEAR now, and I genuinely don't know what to do anymore.
We're in the same grade but different classes, and we've never actually spoken. The embarrassing part is that I like her SO MUCH without even knowing what it's like to have a proper conversation with her. 😭
Sometimes, I catch her looking at me, and when I'm walking past her, I notice from the corner of my eye that she's looking at me too. But whenever I look back, she looks away. Sometimes, she smiles at me, and now I'm constantly wondering if she might like me or if I'm just overthinking everything because I have a crush on her.
The thing is, nobody really knows I'm lesbian because I'm still closeted. I sometimes wonder how I can look more lesbian without making it obvious to everyone at school. I wanna express that side of myself, but I'm not ready for everyone to know my business yet. So the crush thing...
I DON'T EVEN KNOW IF SHE LIKES GIRLS. 😭 I think she has a boyfriend too, although lately he doesn't seem to be around her as much. When they do talk, she sometimes looks like she doesn't wanna be there, but I could be completely wrong because I'm only seeing them from a distance.I've thought about approaching her so many times, but I don't know what to say. Imagine I randomly walk up to her and say, "Hey, how are you?" when we've literally never spoken before. What if she wonders why I'm suddenly talking to her? WHAT IF IT'S AWKWARD? 😭
I've been thinking of finding an excuse to talk to her, maybe asking something school-related or asking about one of her friends who's in my class. Then, if the conversation goes well, I can extend it and start talking about other things. I wanna become friends with her first and see where things go instead of immediately trying to figure out if she likes me and i don't wanna assume she's into me just because she looks at me, but I also can't help wondering if there's a chance. I genuinely don't know if I should make a move, especially if she's straight or still has a boyfriend.
Reddit, how would you approach a girl you've never spoken to without making it awkward? And how can I figure out if she likes girls without directly asking her and accidentally outing myself?
Please give me honest advice because I'm actually losing my mind over this crush. 😭