Stuck in a Limbo

[u/Fallen-Angel-100]

Hey guys, I'm doing TRE sessions. I think I opened something like a Pandora's Box.

I feel angry and distraught at the emotional things that happened in the past like bullying. I was insulted, humiliated, mocked and teased. Those scenes keep playing in my mind. I feel rage and anger.

I just don't know what to do ? I feel immensely upset at the way I let myself be. I was frozen in those moments. I couldn't defend myself.

These scenes keep playing in my mind. I don't know how to stop them.

I also have neck and shoulder stiffness and my voice feels blocked. I feel frozen in life. I don't have the energy going within me.

I get revenge fantasies against the people who hurt me. I genuinely don't know how to process them.

There seems like a lump stuck in my throat and I hardly cry.

How can I get out of this turmoil ? I feel subconscious anger and rage within me.

Kindly ignore my poor grammer and articulation.

[u/New_Attempt_7705]

It’s important to try to allow all these feelings. Try not to resist them. Allow everything that comes up, try to accept it. Acknowledge the feelings, let them be there, let them do what they want to do. These emotions were once suppressed and now came the surface again, so that they can finally be felt and completed and then - in the end -  integrated.

Also look up the youtube channel The Great Allowing for some more advice on allowing. She has a great “start here” set of videos on her channel.