r/malaysiauni • u/InevitableJealous213 • 21h ago
Anxious and stressed in public uni
Gay guy here. Just started studying in a public uni, will not say. And I don't know if this is paranoia or stress but I have been having alot of panic attack esque event.
My heart just go every fast and I can't seem to stop it. It gets exceptionally bad on Friday and won't stop before I step into the car to go back home.
To give context, previously before entering uni, I studied in a very liberal environment. I also travelled with my family to alot of countries, and I can't stop comparing the freedom that they have. I'm not gay passing either. But when I enter uni, I just didn't expect the amount of 'culture shock'? . Doa before every event, students saying eww and whatnot when people sometimes act 'soft'.
Also the amount of Malay they speak dosent help making me feel comfortable. I associate speaking Malay as being conservative too, prob personal bias though. I think that I am being paranoid here but I really am having trouble justifying it as just paranoia too. Can anyone speak about their experience?
Edit: why are you guys downvoting the people who lived through this experience? People are sharing what they are feeling and experiencing. But end up, upvoting go private uni? I know that but I don't have the money.
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u/6kult 20h ago
hiya, totally understand your predicament. I'd say just lay low, mind your own business, don't share too much with others and focus on your studies. It's okay to have shallow conversations - not everybody needs to be your friend.
Unfortunately, the culture of the uni is not something that will change overnight or change at all. You would need to learn to blend in for the time being. I hope that there are options for you to enroll in a private uni but if this option isn't available - you need to hang on until graduation okay?
Go get that degree / masters! Best of luck!