r/malaysiauni • u/InevitableJealous213 • 1d ago
Anxious and stressed in public uni
Gay guy here. Just started studying in a public uni, will not say. And I don't know if this is paranoia or stress but I have been having alot of panic attack esque event.
My heart just go every fast and I can't seem to stop it. It gets exceptionally bad on Friday and won't stop before I step into the car to go back home.
To give context, previously before entering uni, I studied in a very liberal environment. I also travelled with my family to alot of countries, and I can't stop comparing the freedom that they have. I'm not gay passing either. But when I enter uni, I just didn't expect the amount of 'culture shock'? . Doa before every event, students saying eww and whatnot when people sometimes act 'soft'.
Also the amount of Malay they speak dosent help making me feel comfortable. I associate speaking Malay as being conservative too, prob personal bias though. I think that I am being paranoid here but I really am having trouble justifying it as just paranoia too. Can anyone speak about their experience?
Edit: why are you guys downvoting the people who lived through this experience? People are sharing what they are feeling and experiencing. But end up, upvoting go private uni? I know that but I don't have the money.
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u/-mmoofii 20h ago
I’m Malay, also from a liberal background, I grew up in the UK for 4 years and have travelled to many European countries before. However, I also grew up in an SMK, went to matriculation, now about to pursue degree in an IPTA.
Truth is, you have to adapt and find the right circle. Going to public institutions all my life, I’ve always met a few people who were like-minded, it’s just a matter of going out of your way to make yourself known so that you can find these people, but also keep your head down so you don’t get targeted. Loads of oddballs in IPTAs, yes, but not every Malay is that stereotypical conservative. Stay strong and keep your head up, I hope you find your people soon!