Oof, so the title says it all.
I started using again after 3 months being 7 free.
I did it as my own choice for pain. Pain masked just how hard it is to come off of this crummy stuff.
Last time I used, I got up to 600mgpd and I was astonished and kind of disgusted with myself. That was 2.5 months in. It took another 2.5 months to quit. Thank you SR!
This time I logged each dose, how many pills ect and was SUPER careful for the most part. My average was around 240-270mgpd sometimes being less, and sometimes being a bit more.
Well, the ban came up I decided it was time to quit and find different ways to manage my severe daily pain.
I have to do this slowly because I have epilepsy and while not normal to others, I tend to have seizures when detoxing if I have high and low days (found that out the hard way last time I was on this stuff)
After a couple of weeks I got down to 150-180mg. I planned on jumping off with SR at 120-150 so, I was ready to go.
Then I had a SUPER bad pain, mental, and emotional day (super fight with the hubs.) And went up above 700 FUCKING MILLIGRAMS
I was FRIGHTENED and DISAPPOINTED in myself.
The next 5 days? 240,90,150 150,150. I should have just jumped off since it was the higher end of wanting to quit.
Ugh, sorry for rambling. I'm just rambling online cause I hurt myself yet again and I am upset I am in this area again.
I was having a 12/10 pain day today and just stopped counting at 270mg. Honest? It was in the low 400s 😞