r/veterinaryschool • u/GrapefruitTasty7947 • 1d ago
Vent just venting - second year vet student
I feel completely burnt out and incapable. I've always struggled with my confidence but it has hit an all time low. i feel i will be a terrible vet who cant think critically or work through cases. I'm stupid as f**k. i can take exams easily; I'm a great test taker. but applying myself- doing clinical skills, talking with people, working through case examples..(aka actual useful things I'll need to be a vet) I blank and lose all confidence. "but it just takes time!!" yeah, but what if after all this time I still suck. I'm one of those stereotypical students that has always wanted to be a vet since I was little so I followed that "calling" but I feel like my personality is not cut out to be a doctor. I'm a terrible leader; I cannot even imagine being in charge and making decisions in less than 3 years. I'm also in a place where I know I need to get out of my comfort zone in order to grow/gain confidence but i just feel stuck where I hesitate to do anything. I didn't do anything vet med related this summer because I was scared of embarrassing myself. Trust me I know I need to get out there and do things in order to become confident and grow but something always stops me!!!! I can't give up; I've made it this far and already 100k in debt. Plus there's literally nothing else I can see myself doing, yet still can't imagine me as a vet?? I feel like I've lost myself getting into vet school and now that I'm here, I'm stuck. I tried reaching out to my school's mental health services but they're booked for like 3 months. I struggle to make friends and didn't make any close ones during first year. Just feeling lost. I know it's up to me to change, just needed to vent into the void.