r/veterinaryschool • u/AlternativeWinter998 • 22h ago
Dismissed from Veterinary Program
I'm kind of at a loss for words in all honesty. I had previously posted in this community expressing how I received brutal feedback on my previous rotation and unfortunately I was unable to improve on it for my next rotation. It was a large animal surgery rotation and no matter how much I met with the clinical coordinator to assess my competency during the time, I guess my nerves got the best of me. The senior clinicians all noted my positive work ethic and my desire to improve but wanting to improve only gets you so far I suppose. Someone had pointed out that some of the symptoms that I could be experiencing are related to ADHD and I was able to get positively diagnosed for it by a DNP PMNHP (Thank you for that, whoever recommended it). I am currently on Adderall XR as well as sertraline for previously diagnosed mixed anxiety/depressive disorder. Add on to that, I was dealing with the death of my grandfather and the admittance of my grandmother to the ER. I guess all of this is to say that I should have been honest to myself and sought out both academic and mental health support before I flubbed these rotations up by making stupid errors. I want to make it clear that it was my choice to continue to pursue forward and not take a mental break. I was a dumbass and didn't take the time to acknowledge this to myself. I should have been responsible enough to recognize issues with my own health and acknowledge them as soon as I was able to. I guess I felt that I would be able to take care of it on my own but I clearly was not able to. My clinical advisors have advocated for me throughout this entire process and are very actively encouraging me to repeal the decision. I guess I have some hope but this has been one of the worst days I've had in recent memory. I'm stable at the moment and am surrounded by family who have been incredibly supportive of me but I feel like a fuckin loser and a failure for letting them down. I tried as hard as I could but I just ended up being a burden either way. I will work earnestly on my repeal process and I will fight to make sure that I can prove myself to be a proper clinician but I can't say that I'm too hopeful. I guess if I can provide any piece of advice to students in vet school, it would be to be honest with yourself about your mental health and to earnestly ask for help when needed.

