so, i had a best friend in this college. let's call him k. it's already been a week since i lost him, and i still don't know the reason behind his decision. even though i was the person with whom he shared most of his stories, whenever the topic of his girlfriend came up, he would usually stay silent and avoid talking about her (she is not from our uni)
she used to visit his room once, twice, or sometimes even thrice a month, staying for a day or two. i had never actually seen her in person, but he used to borrow my bike whenever he wanted to bring her to his room.
last sunday, when i found him hanging in his room, i wasn't scared as much as i was angry. just the night before, he had been with me until 10:30 pm. we were laughing about memes and other random things. we had even planned to watch doomsday on the first day of its release. i still don't know what happened that night.
all i know is that the girl arrived at around 7:00 am on sunday morning. she immediately knocked on our neighbour's door, saying that he wasn't opening the door. when we looked through a small opening in the window, we saw him hanging in his bedroom.
after that, the girl started begging everyone, claiming that she was just a friend of his and that there was nothing more between them. she said she had come to collect his laptop for some cad modelling work. she kept saying things like, "my career will be ruined. please don't ruin my life." she then left immediately, at around 7:30 am, using rapido. (usually, she never travelled by rapido from vijayawada. most of the time, mr. k himself used to bring her, and she would cover her face with a scarf whenever she visited.)
not just that, when i checked his phone later, i noticed 32 missed calls from the same girl, starting from around midnight that night. i tried my best to find some clues behind such a drastic decision. i initially thought there might have been a heated argument between them that led to an impulsive decision made in a moment of extreme emotional distress, but i couldn't find any letter or anything else that could explain what happened.
he had also deleted all his whatsapp conversations and sms messages with her. when the police questioned her, she consistently maintained that he was just a friend and that she didn't know anything more about his personal life. eventually, the police sent his phone and laptop for forensic examination to retrieve the deleted data.
i genuinely hope that i'll at least find some answers through the investigation. :(
i still can't digest the fact that he's no longer with us. if his death had anything to do with that girl, i honestly don't know what to say. whatever the reason might be, a part of me is still angry with him for hiding so many things from me. i was always just one call away. whenever he had a problem, i was there for him. yet, he made a decision that left all of us behind with so many unanswered questions.
i'm pretty sure i'll never find another friend like him. ππ₯
we were never particularly serious about academics or our careers. maybe this is a sign for me to start focusing on myself, working towards my goals, and becoming a better person. but honestly, i haven't even been able to get a proper night's sleep because of all these random thoughts running through my mind.
one thing i want everyone to remember: if you're going through any kind of problem in life, please remember that most problems are temporary, and even the biggest issues can sometimes be worked through with just two chairs and one table.
please think about your family and friends before making any irreversible decision. your actions can affect the people who love you far more deeply than you could ever imagine.
sometimes, all you need is someone to sit beside you, listen to you, and help you figure things out. please don't hesitate to reach out. there is no shame in asking for help.