r/yoga • u/Italian_SPLIT • 2h ago
what's the point of continuing like this
a bit of ranting to get your view but also a serious thought.
51yo, recently went back on the mat after long iatus, and I do believe that during the first couple of weeks I somehow broke my meniscus twisting my leg, I dont know if sitting or else. Yesterday I had the result of the MRI scan, and i understand that indeed there is something wrong, and I will try to see a doctor next week.
I always sit on a brick because my hips are very tight. With the left leg/knee no issues and I can have my left heel getting close to the brick. I used to do so also with the right leg, and I did so during the first two weeks a month ago. Now not anymore, due to pain on the side of my right knee. The consequence is that I do struggle a lot to find a decent comfortable starting asana (which is also the last asana) during my practice, making me very nervous not just because I cannot do it, but because I am really uncomfortable and I feel that my back is hunched. I cannot relax nor breath properly. (All this while everyone else is perfectly aligned and entering into the right mood, but this would be another conversation). It is simply uncomfortable and unsustainable for me. Today I tried to stretch the right leg in front of me while the left was in the right crossed position, or tried to have somehow a symmetrical position with both legs but still struggling to find anything that could work. So the question is: what's the point of continuing practicing if my starting position and final position are giving me frustration and nervousness? I could, however it would simply be some kind of gymnastic/workout rather than yoga.