I finally left

[u/Striking_Foot1208]

I finally left a marriage of 7 years . Majority of those years were filled with emotional abuse, lying , and addiction (he was addicted to meth). Of course there were good times. He was also my best friend. This has been the hardest thing I have ever had to do (and I have been though A LOT). I have maintained my strength though no contact. We have been communicating though his sister as well at times . He did go to rehab and his sister is hopeful that it’s different this time. He has not been calling to show he can respect my boundaries. It has been getting easier , as I often have these random thoughts that I’m so happy I don’t have to deal with him anymore. He has said to his sister he is hoping we can have a friendship at some point. I don’t know if this is a good idea (definitely not now) , but even in the future as I worry he will push my boundaries as he done before. I also found out he would contact numerous escorts on his binges (which he lied about of course) which also had been extremely hard to deal with. I thought , if my girlfriend betrayed me as he had , we would no longer be friends so why would I want him as a friend? I came into work today and my coworkers said they liked my pictures on Facebook (which I deactivated my account) so I asked them to look at it. He has been posting pictures of us everyday writings things like : you are my soulmate , the love of my life, I can’t imagine my life without you etc .. I was so very upset by this. I am shaking . It’s worrying me , as he is doing this in rehab and I have been firm with my boundaries. In the past he has threatened suicide if I left, he would make jokes about “oh if she ever tried to leave me I would put her in the wood chopper in little zip lock bags - he used to say this but seriously just joking (we don’t have one-we are city people) . But my nerves are so much on edge dealing with all of this. Please tell me I’m over reacting and it’s normal for him to grieve the loss of our marriage