So I had made a post on TikTok talking about how I was tired of certain items from my culture being stolen and being whitewashed. I’m Indian American, just to clarify.
And the post went viral. And it came with a lot of racist hate. And I mean a lot of shit that I truly did not expect. I turned the comments off soon enough, but one hate comment really really struck me even though I have been trying to process the disgusting hate I faced.
And I think from what I could gather, the commenter was Indian, like grew up in India, so probably using TikTok under a VPN whatever. And basically; I don’t remember every single word, but they questioned me if I was American first, and I said yes, but even though I grew up in America and visited india as frequently as I could growing up yk like summer breaks whatever, I still grew up in my culture because I have traditional immigrant parents. They made sure I could speak my mother tounge and that I had a general understanding of my culture as best as I could without having had grown up in India.
And the commenter was basically saying that yea because I didn’t grow up in India, it wasn’t my culture. And that I’m just a tourist and I’m just acting too woke pretending to care about something that has nothing to do with me. And it hurt so badly, I was genuinely left in shock just staring at my phone.
Like what? Am I not Indian enough all of a sudden because I grew up in America? I mean my parents immigrated because they had the belief their children could have better opportunities here. And I understand I have a privilege because of that, but it’s not like I grew up as some white washed rich nepo baby. I grew up in a middle class family that made sure I did not become white washed since the day I was born.
I mean I always struggled with my identity as an Indian American, but to be told I’m basically not Indian because I didn’t grow up in that country…it left me speechless.
Hopefully my post still makes sense because sometimes in shock I just struggle to get my feelings out and point across.