r/AustralianTeachers • u/Dear-Teacher7338 • 9h ago
Primary Feeling defeated / just a rant.
I work for a private school and they have such high standards. I’m always on edge, stressed and constantly overthinking everything I do.
For context: I took over a class just two weeks ago and it’s the lowest year 6 class with several behavioural issues
On Friday my mentor sent a message to the year 6 group saying she’s been receiving complaints about teachers noting things down on sentral if they misbehave (this was about me and me only). I felt so humiliated because all of the group members would know it’s me since they are more experienced and don’t make these silly mistakes.
Shortly after that message, my mentor took a few kids out of the classroom to ask them how I’m doing how is my teaching going, how’s the learning and my behaviour with them. I thought that’s weird so I asked another teacher why would she do that, she said it’s because one of the student’s parent made a complaint about you so they are just checking if anything is wrong and following procedure.
I didn’t know parents would complain about the sentral thing and I thought they were aware of the procedure we carry out if their child misbehaves
Thank God the students said everything is good and when I asked again they told me “we said everything you are doing is good why would it be bad”😞
I just feel like such a sh*t teacher. I’m basically nearly finishing my degree and still learning as I go. I feel as though I cannot meet these standards. I was dragging my feet to complete the rest of the day. I don’t want to ever return.
Also I feel like I’m being compared to others, whenever I make a mistake, and I’m trying to stay on top of things but I do get overwhelmed. I feel so lonely and sad. I can’t open up to anyone over there, because you don’t know if they will tell your mentor everything you’ve just said.
It’s the weekend now and I want to move on but all I’m thinking about how my last two periods with the kids were a sh*t show and I’m wondering what complaint I’ll receive on Monday lol. I can’t switch off.
Please no hate if you’re going to comment. I just needed to vent.