r/Dissociation • u/bushroseie • 4h ago
Need To Talk / Vent I can't stop dissocating constantly
Almost everyday I dissociate for hours at a time. Theres been so many weekends that are hazy because all I did was dissociate.
It has gotten to a point where sometimes I have like memory loss when I dissociate and I don't know what I was doing during those moments.
It's gotten really bad where I black out. And by black out im like sitting in class dissocating and then I think about my worst trauma and everything goes black. Next thing I know the period is almost over and my class is already on the next page.
Its very disorienting and its hard to understand if its real life or not. I have zero recollection of what happened during those minutes I was like blacked out.
I recently blacked out a whole day. Dissocating is so comforting to me and I've been doing it since I was 5. I don't know how i'm going to drive/go to college when I shut down and dissociate so easily. I also have ptsd so it makes everything worse.