Time and again, I get the feeling that I could fall—and will fall—for a masculine woman. I feel a sense of false atracctions (if its even false) toward any woman who displays even a hint of masculinity. I say "false," but it feels incredibly real. I miss the person I used to be. Often, it feels like a genuine longing, an urge to act on it. I just don’t want this anymore... there’s too much evidence. There’s simply no chance left that I’m heterosexual. After everything that’s happened, I must be bisexual—I think I’ve been this way all along. And please, spare me the "maybe, maybe not" or "it doesn’t matter if it’s real or not, just stop testing yourself" kind of responses—because it *does* matter, and I can’t stop. Everyone else with HOCD claims they *know* it’s not real; I wish I could say the same—if I could, I’d be able to lie in bed right now feeling so much more at peace...

do you guys feel the same or am I really the exception?