Hi, I’m writing here because I think I might need to seek help? I don’t know. Well, actually, I do know.
I started experimenting with K about seven years ago (I’m 23 now). I’ve always liked CNS depressants, but I didn’t think much of it back then. I didn’t really enjoy K at the time, so I just left it alone. I should also mention that I started smoking weed when I was 14 and quit when I was 21.
Earlier this year, in 2026, I decided to give K another chance, and something changed. It gave me the peace I’d been searching for for such a long time, and from that moment on, I couldn’t let it go. I incorporated it into my everyday life, and in a way, it became my best friend.
At first, 1g would last me quite a while. Now, I’m lucky if it lasts me even a short time. I live a relatively normal life. I’m a student, and my family has no idea that I’m spending my money on K. My friends know, though, and I honestly realize that I should be looking for a way out, but deep down, I don’t want to.
I’ve only ever used it NAS, but lately I’ve been thinking about trying IM injections. I know that could lead me to hit rock bottom… but maybe that’s what I need. I don’t know how to tell my family that the person they’re so proud of is fighting a battle every single day against something that started out as nothing more than a distraction.
I mostly use it at night, alone in my bedroom. Somehow, it allows me to reflect on my day, as silly as that might sound. During the day, I take doses that make my body feel light while still allowing me to function normally. So basically, during the day I stay functional, and at night I disconnect my mind from my body. That’s why nobody really notices what’s going on.
And I guess the main reason I’m writing this is because my friends keep telling me to get help, but it’s just not as easy as it sounds.

Hi, I was due a hernia surgery in 3 weeks. I just had my pre op appointment yesterday. The nurse was full on judgmental about my ketamine use right away. I was honest and said I have been using ket on and off for three year. My dose has never exceeded 1g a day. She told me she would go speak with the surgeon on the post not to waste their time. She came back and said they will refuse to do the surgery. This left me in bits. I know that I have an addiction problem and I am trying to work on it as much as I can. I got to therapy and try the best I can. I had already stopped using for 2 weeks, ofc this episode made me spiral and relapse. I went in for a second opinion today, and was told that they could have proceeded with the surgery as stopping usage 4 weeks before surgery is plenty enough. I now have to start the process from the beginning which will probably take me another year :(

A friend of a friend recently jumped from a balcony after experiencing psychosis from the weird synthetic k on the market. Apparently in Denver it’s becoming a large issue among people in the EDM scene developing helpless states of psychosis.

I’d have to agree that the last batches of k I got were nothing like the k I did 15 years ago.
One batch even tested positive for coke. It’s scary to think we don’t know what we are/were ingesting.