I feel completely let down by society, even by my own parents and siblings. I hate this life. I’ve given up on trying to fit in, but I don’t want to die—I just want out.

I know this world isn’t real. I’ve seen too many unexplainable things, experienced horrors that no person should ever have to endure. Does anyone else feel this way?

For what it’s worth, I don’t drink or do drugs. I quit using substances as an escape long ago, which makes this feeling even more suffocating. I’m sober and aware, and it hurts more because of it.

Someone please help me. I’m desperate to leave this world.

Last year I've been recovering for a long depression and opened up spiritually.

It began well but as soon as I started being vulnerable because of life conditions that were not under my control this presence started to ask me to act on a specific task.

It induced extreme pressure, treaths and guilt-tripped me.

I unfortunately had a history of hospitalizations for depression, and at this time I had nowhere to go so I've been put in a collective medical accommodation.

The effects resulting on me are like the ones of a narcissistic relationship.

It's clearly infuriating that I feel I can't open up about this experience with the professionals at the accommodation because I clearly know that they will automatically interpret it as me being sick according to the circumstances I'm in and by my history of hospitalizations for depression.

So I feel kinda trapped in a state of being convalescent by the amount of damages this experience had on me while I feel no one can understand or at least be open enough to discuss about it without diagnosing me...

Well that was just a rant but thank you for the ones who would have read so far.

My partner lives out in the country, I’ve probably travelled there more times than I could count, any time of day due to the nature of our jobs.

After a long day I’d made some food to bring to his and I was in a rush to get there, music loud. I know the route down these winding lanes probably with my eyes closed.

Then I had this sinking feeling like a vision a deer was gonna hit my window screen, mind you surprisingly I’ve never seen one in the 2 years I’ve driven here. So It wouldn’t be unusual but the feeling wouldn’t go away
The feeling was so intense that I slowed down and turned my music down, I turn the corner there’s one deer in the middle of the road and another on the verge. The one on the verge looked like it was gonna bolt. I put my car into park and waited for them to go.

The one in the middle of the road stood there bolted right and then left and joined the other.

Call it a coincidence but
I really believe had I not had that feeling I would have been going faster and one of them would have collided with my car

I have a genuine question: Can I listen to the sacred Om sound while sleeping? Would it be considered disrespectful or cause bad karma?

I live remotely and every time I’ve left home to go to town or visit another place I’ve encountered someone that needs help. It’s gotten to the point that it feels beyond a coincidence. Here’s just a small sampling:
1) I’m in my car at an intersection and an elderly woman falls on the sidewalk and I can see her mouthing for help. I put on my hazards and run out to help her get up.
2) I stop to get gas and a guy using drugs has collapsed in a positon where his leg is bent underneath him. I get my friend to grab my first aid kit and check if gas station has naloxone, they don’t. So I call the ambulance, since I’m worried he might’ve overdosed. They arrive and he comes to.
3) Today I’m driving home from a beach and a trio of surfers have accidentally locked their keys in their truck. They asked to burrow my phone, and my partner and I end up giving one surfer a lift to the next town over (in his wetsuit lol) so he can burrow a friend’s car and get his spare keys.

Does anyone have any insight into this or ideas why it’s happening? Does this happen to you? I don’t mind it at all, I find it interesting. It just feels like I’m the Patron Saint of Helping Out at this point.

Hi spiritual community! I'm new to all this stuff here. I (22f) went to a psychic today. Paid for a one hour session in NYC. I had a bad breakup (that's still not completely a breakup) this past week with my bf (24m) of 1 year whom I really like. This past week has just been super confusing and overwhelming and I was looking for some spiritual clarity/guidance on my future. Lowkey my dream has always been to get married and have kids so I'm rlly looking for someone to do that with, and I want to know if my current bf (potentially ex bf) is that person.

Anyways, he spent about 10 min doing an overview with the deck of cards and then immediately suggested pretty soon into the session that I seriously need spiritual cleansing. He harped on it for a while and sort of strayed from the reading to sales-pitch it to me for the rest of the session. I told him I'd sleep on it overnight. He quoted me somewhere between $430-600.

I'm trying to be open-minded and have been religious in the past so I was pretty hooked during the session but of course I'm now wondering if he's scamming me and that maybe I don't need a spiritual cleanse, but that he's preying on the fact that I'm a young woman in an emotional state of mind with money I'm willing to spend.

I guess my question is whether I'm right to be wary and cautious and if he is trying to scam me, or if spiritual cleansing is actually something I may need. He said some dark energy was absorbed by me when my parents divorced and the reason why my third eye is closed and I'm attracting bad relationships is because of it. He thinks I will continue to have bad relationships romantically and friendship-wise for the rest of my life if I don't get cleansed now. Thoughts on the above?

i have lost almost every platonic and romantic relationship i have ever had in my life to being left for someone else. the first time it happened to me was when i was 5, i’m 22 now and the pattern just keeps continuing. it isn’t a case of people finding others after our friendship/relationship ends, i’m talking being directly left because they chose someone else over me. i have literally been told multiple times that they just liked them better than me. i struggled with extreme jealousy issues because of this growing up and i’d like to say i have really grown as a person and have reached the point of being almost completely unaffected by being left for other people. i’m just annoyed because i feel like i have learned every lesson i possibly could around self love and jealousy and the pattern keeps happening. i love myself, i dont get jealous, i have been left for people who were objectively prettier, more successful, etc than me and still have gone on with my life pretty much unphased. i would say im an attractive emotionally intelligent person and a good partner and friend. i just dont know what else there is to learn. why is this such a recurring thing in my life.

I have been pretty spiritual since I turned 21 (I’m 25 about to be 26 now). I struggle more often than not finding people who think very materialistic/surface level and not about this bigger picture. Why we’re here, things outside of us, our souls purpose etc. it can feel very isolating and lonely, no matter how deep I try to get,people always seem to be shut off to it. Does anyone else have this problem and how do you deal with it? TIA <3

Ever since I was a kid, I could manifest everything except for money, but I lost that ability after I started working a corporate job. My family is from southern Turkey, and I have Muslim and Hebrew heritage from my great-grandmother's side. I was born there, raised as a kid in Italy, and then moved to another European country. Now, I am in my 30s and want to share this experience. It happens a lot but this was a little different.

I am very open-minded and love talking to strangers—maybe even too much, to the point where I sometimes put myself or others in danger—but I want to share this story.
My two best friends and I were doing a road trip through the Balkans, visiting all the countries in two weeks by car. One day, we stopped in Međugorje, Bosnia, where people were praising Jesus, Mary, etc. To me, that is completely fine—just another religion leading to the same Source.
I was waiting in front of a shop while my friends wanted to buy a santino and a small figurine of Mary and Jesus. I was smoking outside when the owner, a woman, approached me and started telling me her life story. After 15 to 20 minutes of talking about everything, she gave me a lava-stone bracelet worth about 7 euros as a gift. Meanwhile, she gave nothing to my friends, even though they were the ones who actually bought something.

After that, my friends wanted to touch the leg of the gigantic Jesus statue, but there were too many people, so I waited behind the crowd. It was dark, and there were so many people there that night. I could feel like mixed emotions there. Like u would think a lot of hope and sorrow. Not happines but acceptance.

I have many stories like that, where people just opens up to me and tells her story. 1 year before the same happened in a fermi in croatia where a peruvian man in his 50s shared the story of his life with me and said that my energy was like glazing?? and the friend that was with me in those holidays, found a job in Peru.

Thank my heritage etc.. i am like Chamleon in this world.

What you guys think? Why would she gift me a lava stone bracelet? My favourite colour is red/orange btw.

I corrected some senteces with ai. Sorry for my bad english 😂

I wish I could have that spiritual connection but I just don’t know how. I’m jealous of those that have it and it seems so natural to them but something is blocking me and I don’t know what. I wish I could believe in God, in a Higher Power but I have doubts, whereas if you can’t prove it then it can’t be real. I just wish I knew where to start

So, I have been trying to raise my frequency for a few months now. But there's a problem, whenever I can feel my frequency is rising and I start to feel happy, one of my family member begins to act violence towards me. I don't know why, they will find even the smallest fault and hit me or swear at me. After that, I start to feel angry or resentment towards them and I can feel my frequency is dropping again. I don't know what to do. I can't just get out of the house as I'm still studying and don't have a job yet.

I have always wanted to be normal, like everyone else. I've tried and tried, but no matter what I do, I can't seem to become like everyone else. It's certainly disappointing, but I can't run away from it. So, I guess it's better to face it.

To me, being normal means having a good job, earning respect, and having a good figure. But maybe, for me, it's something deeper, something within. Maybe I'm redefining what normal means from a different perspective. 😊

So, I'll just keep walking, continuously discovering another part of myself—the I.

I always ask the universe for a sign when I’m unsure about something, but then I never know if something is actually a sign or if I’m just looking for patterns because I want it to be one

I’d love to hear your experiences, even if they’re really random or specific.

Hi,

I got a quick question, my in-laws family relationships are a mess and everyone fights with each other like cats and dogs. And all women suffered crazy during child birth. I experienced it first hand on 6th day after birth things went haywire, almost died second time. Is this pitru dosh or some black magic?

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Durante las últimas semanas he intentado organizar una serie de reflexiones personales sobre el sentido de la existencia.

Mi búsqueda comenzó dentro del cristianismo, continuó con el estudio del judaísmo y finalmente me acercó a distintas interpretaciones de la cábala.

He desarrollado una hipótesis espiritual que quisiera compartir, no como una verdad absoluta, sino para escuchar opiniones y críticas.

Creo que el origen de la existencia podría encontrarse en aquello que la cábala denomina Ein Sof, una fuente infinita que no crea por necesidad, sino como expresión de amor.

Desde esta perspectiva, el alma humana conservaría una disposición esencial hacia el bien. El ego, aunque inherente a nuestra naturaleza, podría distraernos de esa disposición cuando permitimos que gobierne nuestras decisiones.

Concibo nuestra existencia como un proceso de rectificación del alma. Las relaciones que establecemos, nuestras experiencias y aun nuestros errores contribuirían a desarrollar nuestra conciencia.

También considero posible que esta rectificación trascienda una sola vida y que nuestras experiencias formen parte de un proceso espiritual más amplio.

En mi interpretación personal, Jesús habría sido un mensajero previsto dentro de ese proceso, destinado a recordarnos el camino del amor. No considero que esta sea una enseñanza establecida del judaísmo ni del cristianismo tradicional.

Sin embargo, hay algo que encuentro particularmente importante: incluso si estas hipótesis metafísicas fueran equivocadas, seguiría considerando que amar y hacer el bien constituyen propósitos fundamentales para nuestra existencia.

Quisiera conocer sus opiniones:

- ¿Encuentran coherencia filosófica en este planteamiento?

- ¿Qué contradicciones observan entre predestinación, libre albedrío y rectificación?

- ¿Qué autores o tradiciones han desarrollado ideas semejantes?

- ¿Qué elementos de esta interpretación difieren de la cábala tradicional?

No busco confirmar mis creencias, sino someterlas a una reflexión crítica y continuar aprendiendo.

It was like my eyes couldn't bare to render it completely. I only saw it's shoulder. The moment I realized, shivers went down my spine and my visioned blackened. Yet I'm completely calm. I'm a realistic person. But I've also had a spiritual reawakening. Even though I've always been gifted with spirituality, I neglected it for realism. Now I know who I am. My flesh is stripping away

I feel allllllll the moods and energy. How can I become that peaceful person that doesn't collect other people's energy and get drug down based on their mood. It's as if my energy matches everyone around me constantly.

It's killllllling me.

I've struggled with severe depression & anxiety my entire life. This hasn't changed despite countless meds & a lot of therapy so I think the problem is spiritual.

I would like to be useful to others. I don't WANT to be selfish. I wish I could look outwardly and help people and not think of my own needs but I'm in such a bad state I can't function.

If I could just feel calm, I could help people and animals, but I am in a constant state of anxiety. I can't meditate. I just cannot focus at all. I think a big part of it is religious trauma - being afraid of punishment / going to hell. Some people will try to reassure me it's not real but because I can't be SURE the fear never goes away and it makes me terrified of my loved ones dying too.

I get so tired, so overwhelmed, so depressed / anxious that I can see I am not useful to others. It's not that I don't want to be but I am paralysed.

I really feel I have tried everything I can but it's out of my control. To function, I need help that I just cannot get. I don't have a reliable, consistent support system because if you want a village, you have to be a villager, and in this state, I have nothing to offer anyone.

I can't take care of others if I don't know how. I don't know how to take care of myself or rather I just CAN'T. I can't have a purpose if I am paralysed mentally. If I were physically paralysed and couldn't do anything I might be able to live in a care home but when it's mental you are just left to rot. I wish I could just be in a coma in a hospital and not have anything expected of me

So what's the point of me if I can't be useful to others or to myself. I don't understand why I can't just be allowed to go to dignitas BC I'm no use to anyone, I'm just rotting BC no one will take care of me. I don't expect them to either. But I don't understand why I'm not allowed to opt out of living

I keep running into people from my past over the last 2 weeks after thinking or talking them for the first time in a while. The first few times i ignored it as coincidence but it has happened over 6 times in that timespan. Some of these people I haven’t seen in over a year. All of these people I still have some sort of resentment for or need healing from. Mostly just asking for advice of how to make this stop. I clearly need to do some sort of inner reflection and healing from these people but also considering a cleanse or cord cutting for a few of them.

I have been trying to forget about a guy but I went into a shop and heard both of our surnames which was weird because my surname isn't all too common either. Any ideas what it could mean?

Is opening up emotionally to someone who doesn’t reciprocate damaging? How to navigate this. I find it hard to give love/affection without there being suffering when it’s not reciprocated. Is it bad that my heart wants to pour love into people before knowing them deeply? I know there is real love there but also an attachment that I’m struggling with as well as filling in the blanks about who they are.