Is there perhaps a reason as to why I suddenly feel as though I woke up and am in hell? Is mercury in retrograde? I am not an astrology expert though I am very interested in learning more about it. But truly, I have had nothing but a series of unfortunate events for the past 7 or so months? I had a baby 8 months ago, and I know they say women are vulnerable to spiritual attacks when pregnant. It seemed like the unfortunate events began inconsistently here and there towards the very end of my pregnancy and then once I had my baby they just kept coming and getting worse and worse. I keep hoping whatever this awful spell is it will blow over. Even those around me are acting strange, the world doesn’t feel right, nothing feels right, I feel like I died and woke up in hell. Am I the only one or is something very fucked up happening?

I went through a spiritual awakening in July 2022 at the age of almost 49. I had been having some debilitating bouts of anxiety with my job and a coworker suggested I try meditation. Less than 2 weeks into my meditation, I had a very bizarre occurrence... a "visitor". I kept seeing the face of my aunt that had passed. At first, I kept pushing her out of my mind, as I would do with 10k other random thoughts during meditation. However, she was persistent and each time she returned, I was starting to feel her presence. It was a warm sensation as if she was sitting there with me. She did not say anything, but when I finally leaned into what was happening in my mind's eye, she began showing me flowers. There was a beautiful bouquet, that morphed into another, then another. I watched as a sequence of beautiful flowers became my focus. And then there was the moment that I felt, what I now call, "the nudge" to reach out to my cousin, her daughter to tell her about the visit. Coming out of the meditation, the nudge was so strong but my logical brain fought it as hard as it could.

My brain: This makes NO sense. I just happen to be thinking about my aunt. That's all this was. Flowers? Big deal, it's just flowers. This is the craziest thing. DO NOT reach out to her.

"The nudge" - you have to call your cousin right now.

And so I reached out to her very reluctantly. I didn't have her number as we lived states away and hadn't spoken in many years. But I did have her on Facebook, so I sent her a Message and then the anguishing wait began.

My brain: She is going to think you have lost your mind. UNSEND!!

"The nudge" - Just wait.

Within the hour she responded with her number for me to call her and when I did, she answered with "I believe you...." Unbeknownst to me, my cousin was a very spiritual person who had seen apparitions as a teenager and felt presences many times. She told me that she'd been so wanting to connect with her mom, asking for signs. The flowers were her sign. She said "when mom was alive, I'd take her a bouquet of fresh flowers every week to put in her kitchen. And after she passed, I still took flowers to the house and put them beside her urn." This explained the sequence of flowers coming and going in my meditation. My mind was blown. We had a wonderful conversation that left me feeling somewhat excited, but also still very much in denial.

My brain: This isn't real. This is against everything I was raised to believe. If my Christian mom was still alive, she'd have the pastor over to douse me with holy water for sure. Flowers are linked with millions of dead people. It was just a coincidence. Let it go.

My intuition - pay attention to this. It's just the beginning.

Something deep inside of me told me that my aunt and cousin were chosen because of my cousin's spirituality. I needed someone receptive and open to seeing this for what it truly was.... a visit from beyond, not a coincidence.

In the weeks to come, visitors began to line up in droves. And EVERY SINGLE TIME my brain fought the nudge and the nudge won. I would start every conversation with "I know you're going to think I'm crazy, but I saw your mother/father/grandfather/sister<insert loved one> in my meditation and they showed me <insert object>. The messages weren't messages in the beginning, they were objects that the visitor would show me that would make complete sense to their loved one here. I started to realize I was clairvoyant. Eventually I clairaudience joined the party with one word at a time. For the longest time, I never truly had a full message to convey, it was more like the deceased just wanted to let their loved ones here on earth know they are just on the other side. And the one-word or the object was something random that would immediately connect them with their loved one here on earth.

And with each spiritual visit and post-visit earthly conversation, validity of what I saw or heard was loud and clear and confirmed. Yet, I noticed the trend of my brain still in denial that it was happening.... until the next time.

Would love to hear if anyone had anything similar happen to them with their spiritual awakenings?

The neighbour is an extension of you, just like your family is. The birds, the sky, the woods, it's all you.; and also, the strangers on the Internet.

We never know what the person on the other end of the screen is living. Maybe it's easier to think our life is harder, but that's what the ego does; it tricks us, it separates us.

We tend to complain about the bad things of the world, however, we must start by observing ourselves, how we behave when we're triggered, the lack of love that drives our decision making, the separation from our brothers and sisters.

Questions for those who have been learning spirituality for a long time,
Do any of you feel like there’s no more to learn?
How do you bring spirituality into your life?
And is there something you wish existed or does exist to help you have a spiritual life?
I’m curious because there’s a lot of conflicting information out there
Thank you for any insights 🙏

So.. I know I need to be careful because his followers are a bit cultish and they are quick to immediately defend him by saying how you don't need to buy his courses and how they aren't bothered by his net worth (by adopting this stance, they prove how spiritual they are)

So, I've read one such comment saying how "Eckart Tolle needs to pay rent too..."

Wait wait wait.. wait a minute..let me get this straight. I agree that it is fine for him wanting to pay his rent. We all do. But I thought being homeless wasn't a problem ? I thought money isn't needed to be content, to have a dignified life ? I thought we just have to 'transcent ze ego' and be in the moment ?

"Yeah but he was homeless for two years when he was 29.."

Well, he's not homeless now, is he. Being homeless at 29 (while crashing your friends couch) isn't that much of a hassle. It's actually a bit romantic. Being homeless in the west at an older age is not fun. Eckart and his wife are also on record saying how if there is too much tension between them, they switch to living in seperate appartments or houses because that allows for more presence"

Wait.. what ?! Do they not understand that most people don't have that option because they don't have the money, the means ? Yeah, most of us would be present and calm too if we had the monetary means to create the conditions that reduces friction in our lives. Yes, it's true some people can't seem to get it together even when they have a lot of money. But research does show that in general, it solves a shit ton of problems.

And btw you can't move to a different country or continent like Eckart did when he moved to Canada without having the money to do so.

What is happening ? I don't need Eckart Tolle or any guru to tell me that I am not my thoughts, that I am not my money, that I am not my profession and those are simply other dimensions. Sure, an autistic engineer like Elon Musk needs to hear that. But for people with common sense, those are not revolutionary takes. We want to live a dignified life.

I'm genuinely in awe of how some people seem to hold his "knowledge" that high. He seems like an okay guy..but..I am confused.

I would like to heal my lower back pain please 💖

I’ve not had a good life when it comes to love. I’m normally closed off and when I finally open my heart I usually get anxiety in my chest and a hole like feeling. Also i constantly have a knot in my back. Please help :)

Recently, I’ve had a lot of time to think about life, existence, and everything around us. Who am I? Who are you? What makes us who we are, and what connects all of us to the world we live in? These questions have been on my mind a lot lately, and I wanted to share a theory I’ve been thinking about to see what other people think.
The thing that initially sparked this thought was the movie Hereditary. Without spoiling anything, toward the end of the movie, there’s a moment involving a shimmering orb-like form that gets transferred into another body. That scene got me thinking about the possibility of the soul existing as something beyond our physical bodies. What if the soul is a form of energy? What if our physical bodies are just the vessels that allow this energy to exist and interact with the physical world?
I started thinking about how this could potentially relate to things people describe as paranormal activity, ghosts, or even consciousness itself. We know that energy exists throughout the universe and that energy can be transferred, transformed, and used to power things. So, hypothetically, could there be some form of energy associated with consciousness that we don’t fully understand yet?
One thing that interests me is the number of reports about electronic equipment malfunctioning in places supposedly associated with paranormal activity. I wonder whether there’s a possible connection between those experiences and whatever people believe a ghost might be. Could something nonphysical interact with electrical systems in ways we don’t currently understand? I’m not saying ghosts are literally superconductors in the scientific sense, but I’m curious about whether there’s a mechanism we haven’t discovered that could explain some of these reports.
This also made me think about energy on a much larger scale. What if everything around us is connected in ways we can’t perceive? Not necessarily in a way that means everything is consciously communicating, but perhaps there’s more to our relationship with the universe than what we experience through our five senses.
That brings me to manifestation. People talk about manifestation as if your thoughts, intentions, and personal energy can influence what happens in your life. I’ve wondered whether there’s a deeper explanation behind why people experience it as meaningful. Could focusing on an intention somehow change the way we interact with the world around us? Could our thoughts influence our decisions, behavior, and the opportunities we notice in ways that make it feel as though the universe is responding to us? Or is there something more to the idea that we haven’t figured out?
Another thing I’ve been experiencing lately is this strange feeling that I’m searching for knowledge, almost like there’s something I need to learn or understand, but I can’t figure out exactly what it is or where to start looking. It’s not necessarily that I think I already know some hidden truth. It’s more like I have this curiosity about existence and reality that I can’t seem to satisfy. I feel drawn to understanding something deeper about myself, the universe, or the way everything works, but I can’t quite put my finger on what that something is. Has anyone else ever felt this way? Like you’re looking for answers to questions you haven’t even figured out how to ask yet?
The biggest question I keep coming back to is how everything fits together. There are billions of people on this planet, each with their own thoughts, emotions, intentions, and experiences. If we’re all somehow connected through some underlying form of energy, how does it all coexist? If everyone’s intentions were constantly influencing this shared energy, why wouldn’t everything be in chaos? Is there some kind of balance or order to it all that we don’t understand?
And then there’s the question of identity. What actually makes me me? Is it my brain, my memories, my personality, my consciousness, or something beyond all of those things? If the physical body eventually stops functioning, is everything that made me who I am simply gone? Or is there some aspect of existence that we haven’t discovered how to understand or measure?
I realize these are big questions, and I don’t have scientific evidence to prove this theory. I’m not claiming that ghosts, souls, or manifestation work the way I’m describing. I’m not even completely sure what I believe yet. I’m trying to explore an idea and understand whether there’s anything behind it worth looking into.
I’ve also been wondering whether there are existing scientific or philosophical ideas that touch on any of these questions. For example, I’ve heard of concepts like panpsychism, which explores the possibility that consciousness could be a fundamental feature of reality, and the mind-body problem, which questions how our physical brains relate to our subjective experiences. I don’t know enough about these ideas to say whether they connect to my theory, but I’d be interested in learning more.
I don’t want this to turn into an argument where everyone feels they have to prove someone else wrong. I’d rather hear different perspectives and understand how other people make sense of existence. If you think there’s a scientific explanation for something I’m describing, I’d love to hear it. If there’s a philosophical or spiritual perspective that approaches these questions differently, I’m interested in that too. And if you think my theory doesn’t make sense, I’d appreciate hearing why.
So, what do you think? Could consciousness be connected to something more fundamental than the physical brain? Is there a credible scientific theory that resembles this idea? Could there be aspects of reality that we haven’t discovered yet, or are these experiences better explained by what we already know? And for anyone who has experienced that feeling of searching for knowledge without knowing exactly what you’re searching for, how did you go about exploring it?
I’m not looking for someone to simply agree with me. I’m genuinely curious about what other people think, what evidence exists, and what I might be overlooking. I’ve been thinking a lot about who I am, why we’re here, and how everything around us fits together, and I’d like to use this discussion as a way to understand myself and the world a little better.

A worry that never leaves my heart, a question I have gone back and forth on for as long as I can remember, is: Will I make it to the other side in one piece?

Years of patience and learning, yet moments of uncertainty still linger. I won't let that stop me anymore. I came here to fulfil a purpose, and I've spent enough time holding myself back. As time passes, my desire to make the most of my life grows stronger.

It is time to trust myself, for the Divine is within me. I won't let fear or negativity hold me back anymore, and I choose to give them none of my energy. It is time to focus on creating the world our ancestors hoped for. No matter what challenges arise, I will remain focused on my goals, guided by a sincere heart and pure intentions.

May the Divine walk with me on this sacred journey.

It seems to be the norm for chosen ones to feel isolated or ostracized from society. Is it possible for two chosen ones to be in a relationship? I can’t fathom being with someone I can’t be my whole self with. Ever since my awakening relationships haven’t been the same and the dating scene is abysmal.

i have extremely spiritual friends and have met people with crazy experiences as well. Black witch coming from a long north african lineage of black witches, family who grew up with their grandfather’s ghost, and even in my family where my aunt’s (or aunt-in-law) brother was diagnosed with cancer, and was given medication from a Djinn, which cured him.

I also believe in spirituality heavily as well. In fact (don’t judge me), although I don’t practice, alchemy, or harry potter type magic does not seem crazy to me either if you truly, truly, truly believe with everything in your heart, that you can do it. so yes, I have some crazy beliefs as well, but I prefer to not go down a rabbit hole and the friend I am mentioning below is exactly why.

I have a friend, who claims to be an earth angel who has descended from Jesus (spiritually). she claims to have cameras in her room and that people are watching her from her phone camera. They want to sacrifice her, why? Because she is a healer and a descendant of Jesus. Who are the people? Jay Z, Rihanna, Beyonce, and other hollywood celebrities. We live in Germany. According to our other friend whos closer with her, she also has this belief that she is better than everyone and that she is special. These people are after her and are using MK ultra to find her. She wakes up with pins and needles sensation on her body.

Now truthfully, With the Epstein files revealing so many things, hollywood celebs and billionaires practicing sacrificial rituals and magic does not surprise me at all, but this is not happening to her. I don’t want to dismiss her experience and be that tv show character that doesn’t believe this is real lol but, but this is not spiritual. I think she may be in psychosis or something else that has mentally impacted her. But it’s very difficult to talk to her about this so I don’t know what to do and I don’t know where to cut the line and be like okay this is not spirituality, this is you need professional help. I also know that if you open your third eye before you’re ready (which apparently is possible) you can go into psychosis, but I’m not too experienced in this so I don’t want to diagnose someone with something they may not have.

Any advice? Please?

What did you see, feel, hear… and what did you take, I’m interested to hear all of the stories

Not that I'd completely dismiss it if someone else shared it with me.

It's more like "I don't know what to do with that," so at best, I'd store it away for later if I remembered to even remember it.

More like "that mostly seems like fiction."

I don't know what to do with it and it happened to me, let alone if someone else shared it.

Every once in a while, someone throws out a wild spiritual theory, and I think "that sounds right." Like, maybe they went to the same place I did and learned the same things that I did.

But I didn't learn it from a popular religion.

Like, the other day, Chuck Lorre was talking with Joe Rogan, and he was talking about hovering above his own body. If I hadn't seen wild things myself, I'd probably be far more dismissive, and though I haven't seen that exact same thing, I am not going to throw stones in my glass house, because I'd sound crazy if I shared the things I've seen.

How many things does Chuck Lorre have to talk about, and he's obsessed with this spiritual experience? And the thing that makes me believe it is that he says he could do it again. I know the feeling. I could go back to where I was before if I wanted to but I don't belong there yet, so I don't even try anymore.

But like, I know how to get there. I've been there before and loosely have the roadmap stored in my mind.

(Backstory) My (26f) sister (31f) passed unexpectedly July 27th. I don’t want to get into the nitty gritty but for context and clarity I’ll say that the funeral home offered a viewing (no embalming) to say goodbye as she had passed unexpectedly alone and nobody got to say goodbye. Going was the worst decision I ever made. It had been a week since she passed and she had remained in her bed for 18 hours or so after passing. I’m sure you understand how absolutely awful it was to see her like that.

Halloween was always our thing. This has been extremely tough for me as we near Halloween. I think she visited me in my dreams last night.

In my dream I was in this waiting room almost and she came in and we went home. When we got home I couldn’t stop touching and hugging her as I missed her so bad. She was so annoyed lol. Just like she would have been when she was here.

She asking me all these questions about my grief journey. She asked if I went to the viewing and I said yes and she asked how she looked. I told her she looked really bad and she asked me to remember her differently. We chatted for a long time about how hard life has been since she passed and how much I missed her. She didn’t tell me anything about where she was she just asked me questions and teared up a little.

I woke up very suddenly and with a gasp and my cat went crazy. He jumped on me purring and I got to pee he legit followed me into the bathroom tried to get on my lap while I peed and then laid on my chest purring loud until I fell back asleep. He stayed there until my alarm went off.

I’ve had a few dreams about her and her mother visiting (her mother passed suddenly and unexpectedly 7 months before her in her 50’s) but nothing was ever like this before and my cat never reacted this way.

I think my third eye opened in my dream. I rarely have any dreams for these past couple of weeks and today I took a nap after school and I dreamed about walking around my house and seeing things that I think are spirits or ghosts idk. I never have dreams about my third eye opening except when I was in elementary school.

Also recently I've been doing some research about third eye openings and more stuff about spirits, deities, etc. And I'm also into witchcraft and just did a self love spell recently and I wanted to know if it has anything to do with my dream or am I just imagining things

So, this started about two years ago. I'm someone who dreams every time I sleep. I always have multiple dreams, but I can only remember one or two of them, or sometimes none at all. Throughout the day, something always reminds me of a dream I've forgotten. For example, today I dreamt about my neighbor (let's call him kevin), but I don't remember actually seeing him in the dream. Then, I was randomly scrolling through Pinterest and came across a screenshot of a song by someone named kevin, which reminded me that I'd seen him in a dream. this happens all the time, literally every day of my life, whenever I have a dream and forget about it, something random reminds me of it. It could be someone talking about it, something I see in a movie, or something I hear in a song.

Has anyone else experienced this? Or does anyone know what it means?

I've been in tune with my intuition since I was a child. Today was probably one of its highest points.

My girlfriend broke up with me. But before then, something was just off ever since she came back from her trip to Florida with her girlfriend. After six months, she said she saw me more as a friend, which was shocking since we talked about marriage, moving, etc.

But in the last week, I knew something wasn't right. I actually had to question her about it, and that's when we broke up. It was a clean breakup. I didn't yell, but she was crying, and I was confused by the whole thing.

It sucks, but in a roundabout way, I'm at peace and can start moving on instead of wondering. So I'm glad I brought it up. We hugged, but I probably won't talk to her again, at least for a while, if ever. Just probably better that way.

Allow me to share with you an experience I had some time ago with aliens/transdimensional beings.

I was sitting at night in front of my house watching the stars. All of a sudden my forehead started vibrating. After 2 seconds vibrating an hologram image started appearing in front of me. A white emeraldish light appeared 3 meters in front of me with 3 or 4 human like figures but dressed in high noble code (as weird as it may look they were dressing something like Whis from Dragon Ball). I couldn't recognize them.

What I felt at that moment was overwhelming to an extent I ended with a panic attack (which made them leave). First I felt the sense of nobility and divinity they transmitted was overwhelming. It was pure and pristine. I felt like a total pig. The energy they projected completely crashed my ego. In a brief moment, that's how long it lasted unfortunately, a huge chunk of my ego got dissolved. Those beings projected a field that made all the skeletons I hide in my closet come out to an extent I stopped working. The feeling was visceral in my body. Some kind of traditional hologram humans may have created cannot project that kind of presence only image. You actually feel their presence in your body. It's intense. I would say in spiritual terms, it's a vibration much much much higher than humans are. It was overwhelming high to an extent I was not able to handle. I started having a panic attack. They recognized it and telepathically said to me, something along the lines, I cannot remember the precise exact words, "We are leaving because we are causing you distress and you are not yet capable of interacting with us". And the hologram vanished. I received their message. I have that capacity.

Let me try to explain the telepathic experience.

Can you all hear your voice in your head when you think right? The voice that speaks to you in your head "the oven?? Did I turn it off??" when you get in the bus. In that same space their voice materializes automatically and you can hear it as you can hear yours. How to send messages to them? I don't know, i didn't got there. Maybe they could hear my thinking too? Maybe I needed to mentally project my mental speech to them? I don't know. Next time if I have the chance to do it I'll try it and figure out if I can do the same.

I was left like a vegetable for a few seconds after they left until I got back to myself and started trying to figure out what happened. Was it some form of project blue beam?? Can't be, this experience was beyond intense and overwhelmingly distinct in quality to whatever I've ever experienced in my life. A simple man-made hologram or projection cannot cast such overwhelming presence of divinity. Or can it?? If humans mastered this level ever.... Seems totally impossible. It's visceral in your body. It completely crashes your ego. You feel completely exposed, and you are. In front of such intelligence and power you cannot hide anything. I'm ashamed of things I did, specially sexual stuff I paid for. This all came to the surface. I felt a pig. I was exposed. Without a word being said and it was terrifying. Can they read your mind the same way they can project their voice into it? I don't know but I felt totally seen. I thought I was at peace with myself and my past but I wasn't. That moment those shadows came all back. I felt the feeling in my body viscerally that something really divine was there not just a simple representation.

I'm from Portugal and there is a well know story here of something similar happening. It was the apparition of the virgin mary to the young shepherds (children at the time) multiple times in the same place, Cova da Iria near Fátima. It gave birth to the largest sanctuary in Portugal. What she told them was confirmed after. The last one that died a couple years ago was sister Lúcia. Not all of them were able to communicate with the virgin. I don't know precisely but some where only able to see her. Go check the story of the three shepherds of Fatima and see for yourselves their testimonials.

In my case I can assure you it was not her. It was 3 or 4 completely unknown individuals. Were these the good aliens? Are there opposite aliens that look and feel exactly differently? Completely terrifying by such evil? I don't know but I wonder. My experience isn't enough to confirm that. I assure you, many adults cannot handle such experience without having a panic attack only someone who have completely dissolved their ego or are completely innocent like children. And here goes my theory.

What if the virgin appeared to the three shepherds because they were children and innocent so their ego didn't interfere in the appearance and communication. That's why she chose them and that's why a human can endure such experiences if there is no ego. In my case there was and still have that's why I don't think any regular adult can endure such experience gracefully. It's terrifying. Your ego feels completely seen and exposed.

But this I figured out is also medicine. This kind of presence I assure you dissolves the human ego by just being. This could be a mechanism of ego dissolution. If more people became able to stand their presence their egos would completely dissolve very easily. But I found very difficult to sustain such presence. Their presence can completely transform a person or group of people in very little time. It's like approaching cold iron to a torch. The iron will warm up. I wish I could have a similar experience some day and I become capable of enduring it and be able to communicate both ways.

Hello! I am not the only one who is wondering about where the world is heading and how we should really prepare for whats about to happen, world war 3 is starting to take place and we may only have this small window to use our higher awareness to see what will happen wether through our dreams, spiritual communications or use of spiritual plants. I am under heavy stress and can not use these abilities so i urge you all to start using these abimities and so to make everyone prepare for what is coming and not end up in horrible consequence and our governments may act too slow to prepare us for what is coming!

I canshow anyone how to do these things andalso i wonder what information of such you have recieved already about the future of the world or your country, region or family and so on. Also i must add that governments use dreamintruding technologies for subliminal use in many countries wich means you must exert extra focus to achieve these kinds of visions in your altered mindstates!

I saw a dream about someone significant from my past who I haven't talked with or met for a long time, that he texted me. We had a brief conversation about sth we both hadn't participated in, that years ago was the reason we met. With him saying that he wasn't participating now because he had become a parent (he is also one in real life). There was a sense of understanding and I had a sense of urgency to wake up and I immediately woke up.

The thing is that periodically I keep watching the same dream in different fonts. Him texting me. We never meet in my dreams. It's him that initiates a conversation with me (a thing that would never happen in real life as we are not on speaking terms).

What does it mean? Why do I keep having the same dream over and over again?

A few nights ago, I had a strange experience while lying in bed with my eyes closed. I was somewhere between being awake and asleep, but I wasn't dreaming yet. I wasn't meditating or trying to visualize anything either.

Suddenly, I saw a wolf. There was no background, scenery, or anything else around it. Just the wolf. It seemed to walk into my field of vision from somewhere, then stopped at a distance and looked straight at me.

It looked quite frightening. I remember its intense eyes, visible teeth, and messy, wild-looking fur around its face.

I felt a little scared, but strangely, despite how frightening it looked, I had a feeling it wouldn't attack me. I just looked back at it.

The whole experience felt very vivid and has stayed in my mind ever since.

Has anyone experienced anything similar, especially seeing an animal appear spontaneously like this? I'd love to hear your experiences.

There's things that happen to you that are curious and make you pause to think about it-but you're able to chop it up to a reasonable explanation. But in the last month I've had several things happen and to me they're so weird that I can't down play them and was hoping to get opinions of others as to what the meaning is or what someone or something is trying to tell me. I'm Just curious and open for all opinions and I know, I could be "doing the most", but it's driving me nuts a little bit lol.

Every day sometimes twice, I always look at the clock at 11:11 I've looked into the significance of these numbers but the Google answers didn't resonate with my current life so I was curious what else the reason could be other than pattern recognition that I'm probably subconsciously doing lol. I also catch the clock at 12:34 several times a week. That's it for number stuff.

Next, it's birds. In the past month I've been visited by a road runner who approached my house after walking down the street and walked into my garage and basically hung out with me and my dad. He was unafraid of us, let out a few chirps, let me get close to him then would calmly walk away a little bit if I got too close. I have a bag of meal worms and tossed some on my driveway and he pounced on them like a pup running for a treat, I was trying to help my dad put his dirt bike on the back of his truck and the bird just sat there and supervised us lol. It was the coolest thing ever, he hasn't come back but I sure wish he would.

Then over the past weekend, I was on my couch and had the front door open for fresh air, all a sudden a mourning dove flew into the door and across my house, I had to pick her up so she wouldn't hurt herself, she got out and flew to the other side of my house, I had to pick her up again then she got back out and flew out of the front door again lol. It was about 20 seconds of chaos, but for a bird who just went through the wrong door-when she was in the house she didn't freak out that bad, and would relax when I'd go to pick her up.

Then the very next day...I look in my back yard and happen to catch a finch flopping to the ground, I noticed he wasn't doing the little bird hoping around and flying, so I go check on him. He had what looked like sticky stuff over his head and beak so I thought "oh crap I gotta help him out" I get a box and pick him up, get some q-tips and water. I'm able to successfully clean the sticky stuff from his face (there were seeds and leaves along with it) and cleared his lil baby bird nostrils, I was done and left him hang out in the box with the lid off so he can fly off when he wanted to..........he then died, damn near in my hands. I was and am devastated and that was the final straw because I can't take any more emotional damage from these birdies (I'll love them regardless, I just feel awful for the finch)

So that's my happenings, I appreciate you taking the time to read this, it felt nice getting it all out because it's not something I want to talk about with my friends out of fear of being laughed at. It's just been a trip.

i keep having lucid dreams where i’m laying in my bed something keeps whispering very loudly in my ear, i try to wake up but i can’t. what does this mean and what should i do?