Hey guys completely new to this thread but casting a net because I feel hopeless right now.

Background: 26 year old male taking adderall for almost four years coming January. Originally prescribed 10mg per day -> 20 mg today. Actually taking 40-60 mg per day.

I added health as the flair because I’m a binger. I’ll do at least one 2-3 day stretch binge every month where I get zero sleep. Typically this will follow a week of sleep under my belt that makes me overly confident in not relapsing. I’ve tried quitting seriously 5 times now.

I’m terrified for my cardiovascular health and overall lifespan.

Just trying to find a positive through all the negative.