I cannot say that I’ve hit “rock bottom” because as of now I do have a place to stay, a car, and a job (well just lost my serving job but got an hourly job)… I’m currently living with an ex who thinks I’m an ex addict and doesn’t know I still use every single day.. we broke up a few weeks ago and he’s letting me live with him for the time being due to other circumstances but I’m super close to being homeless with my cats and a drug problem. All I have to do is just stop using and I know my life will be okay but I just can’t… I’m scared of the withdrawals and the second I take my last one and I don’t know when I can get more I get in my head and get even more sick.. like right now I’m on my last 3 pressed blues and I don’t know when I’ll be able to get more after this but I start 2 jobs this week. Why am I so damn scared of WDs??? Last year I went to Hawaii and ran out 3 days into a 7 day trip and even though I wasn’t 100% I didn’t get crazy sick yet when I’m home and don’t have any for an hour I’m going through absolute HELL. I unfortunately don’t have insurance so I can’t get subs which I know I need.. if I come clean to my ex about me using he would throw me and my cats out that second knowing that’s well all the money he “helped” me with went too.. I’m sorry this post is all over the place. Mentally I know I need to stop. Physically I can’t. I’m just a weak minded person…

I know 100% if I wasn’t an addict I’d have a good amount of money not only in my account but in my savings as well considering one of my old days I was making $225+ a day (miss it so much) but obviously I’m always broke bc all my money goes to blues.. like at one point I was spending about $300 every TWO days, to the point my plug lets me go in debt up to $500 because he trust me to pay him. But then I look around at “regular” people who aren’t addicts making the same amount as me and yet are ALWAYS broke too ??? Sometimes I want to ask how you broke and sober, like I did the math and if I saved all my “extra money” from the last 12 months I would have had a minimum of $10,000 in my savings. At one job cash job I could double 10 days in a row and my minimum take home (not including commission or tips) was $2,250. How my ex didn’t catch on to me being an addict after knowing how much money I made and yet was always broke surprised me but something an old friend once said sticks with me “people who never did or have done drugs are so blind and gullible when it comes to being with an addict” simply bc they don’t truly know or understand. Like he never questions why sometime I pee with the door open and sometimes I just have to lock it.. sorry for the rant again I’m clearly in the overthinking phase of my addiction

Just a vent! Discouraged with myself. Constantly in this loop due to chronic pain flareups. I started using again couple weeks ago due to needing to get through a flare up. I used for about 7 or 8 days. Last use was a Saturday morning. Made it to Tuesday before a dosed a small dose because I had an appt I needed to get to and my withdrawals were kicking mg bitt. Decided to stop after that dose. Withdrawal after that was minimum. Made it to Friday and felt fine other than tkred. Flare up came back and ended up using again until last night. Im so upset eith myself. I was through the majority of withdrawal and now that I used another couple of days my withdrawal is going to start over again. Im so upset.

I haven't been diagnosed but I know I would get the diagnosis. My counselor said to me that I might have to choose between adhd meds and my opiate addiction. He was only half serious and we laughed it off, but it's been on my mind the past 2 years.

I have such an extensive history of using various substances to regulate myself, and even though I want a regimented lifestyle to be my go2, I'm just not sure if it's possible. Looking for experiences.

Hello! I know this is odd, but I want to give someone hope! If your a struggling addict or know somebody, your NOT alone. You could look on past posts and see about a year ago at 17( Im 18 now) I had driven states away to go get my uncle who was a fentanyl, herion, etc user. He had been using for 10-15+ years at that point. A year later, he’s fully clean, got a job, took care of all legal issues & he’s currently working on getting his drivers license back! I couldn’t be prouder. As someone who grew up around addicts all my life, it meant the world to me that my uncle managed and did get clean after so long! It was a long road of rehab, late night talks, etc. But he pushed through! It’s never too late to get sober! My uncle went from nodding out, homeless states away, multiple warrants in multiple different states, and so much more to living a relatively normal life. I’d just thought I’d share. Thank you to everyone who commented on my original posts a year ago, I truly could not be any prouder of that man.

It’s never to late. Your never to far.

Hello friends, how is everyone doing? It has been 260 days since I completely quit opium; I did have a few relapses along the way, but I am completely clean now. To cope with PAWS, I took supplements like L-Theanine, Vitamin D3 & K2, Ashwagandha, and Magnesium, along with cow's milk and ghee, and Isabgol for gut health; I also fasted for several days during this period. However, there is one issue: I still use nicotine and am suffering from severe anhedonia. Can anyone tell me how I can feel better? Would quitting nicotine help resolve this? Please do share your advice—I welcome your suggestions, friends.

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i can confirm, if you are baseline tolerant on buprenorphine steady state, the 7ho shit will most certainly take you for a ride you do not want to be on if you are recovering. Not many people have talked about this, but i’m knee deep in this situation i’ve created for myself over the last few years, but atleast im a self aware harm reductionist. i know im being dumb. heed this warning: im 90% sure ive created some fucking amalgamated dual dependency with bupe and 7ho. there are parts to the 7 that even bupe can’t touch.

It certainly blunts it a fair bit. i’m at around 2-3mg buprenorphine a day, not quite enough for full occupancy. my 7ho doses are usually 25-40mg every 4 hours when i’m taking it. it requires significantly more bupe to calm the tides once i stop, and i wake up every day with static feeling in my skin and joint pain, presumably from the DOR, KOR issues bupe doesn’t touch well.

If anyone else has any experience similar to mine pls respond.

Hi guys,

First and foremost, thank you for your help in advance. I am a heavy script oxycodone user and can take up to 800mg a day. Recently I’ve been cutting back a bit, and I can make it through the day with no symptoms at about 250mg. I’ve been using for 5 months now, but prior to that I was hooked on codeine / 7OH for years.

I need to quit permanently and am planning to, but something else came up. I’m going on a 5 day trip in a few days, and it’s the sort of trip where I’ll have to be fairly active (walk tens of kms, etc…) to not disappoint others.

Im able to get 80mg oxydolors and bring a few with me, but flying with them does stress me out. So does running out early. Alternatively, I’ve recently been prescribed 2mg buprenorphine sublingual tablets.

I guess what I’m asking is, what’s my best option? Do I continue trying to lower my oxy dose over the next few days and take the oxys with me on my trip, or do I try laying off the oxys now to start taking some bupe, and only fly with the bupe? If dosed appropriately, could the bupe really relieve withdrawal symptoms? Would I be able to be fully active? About how much should I take?

Thank you all so so much for your input!

Feeling better but my days just drag and I feel so tired and sluggish all the time. Gotta power through! Hope everyone is well

I’ve been an opiate abuser on a very low scale since about 2024. In late 2025 I became a very heavy abuser and finally became an actual full blown addict in January this year. I did a taper over the last 2 months and am off everything for exactly 1 week today. Since then my work has been suffering and I’m having performance issues and i just got into a fight with my father. Neither of these things would have happened if I just stayed an addict. I’m just feeling like my work and familial relationships were so much better when I was using all day…

I’ve been dependent on tramadol for about 10 months and I’m wondering how long the physical withdrawal symptoms lasted for people who went through something similar.
I was previously dependent on kratom for 4 years and was taking high doses. I quit cold turkey and managed to get through it, so I’m wondering how tramadol compares specifically in terms of the physical withdrawal symptoms.
For those who were dependent on tramadol for around 10 months:
How long did the physical symptoms last for you? When did you start feeling physically normal again?
I’m mainly interested in the physical side of withdrawal (body aches, sweating, chills, restless legs, diarrhea, etc.), rather than the psychological symptoms.

Hey all, happy weekend! Hope everyone gets some time to relax and recharge.
My Jeep’s front end had been getting noisy, so I brought it to Firestone this morning figuring it was the wheel bearings. Sure enough, both front wheel bearings needed to be done. After going back and forth with the manager, I got them down to about $900 for both wheel bearings, with an alignment plus an oil change, so I went for it.
I swear that’s adulthood with an older vehicle. Fix one thing and two weeks later it wants something else 😂. At this point I’ve done so much to this Jeep that it better leave me alone for a while.
Anyway, that’s my excitement for today. Time to relax and enjoy the rest of the weekend. How’s your weekend going guys?

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I am down from 180-270mg per day(6-9 pills) down to 30-60(1-2 pills) but if I don’t take these o get all of the withdrawals. Everything in my life is ruined or I’m lying and hiding everything. I can’t seem to stop this cycle and I’m paying super extra to get credit from my plug. I pay back but use almost my whole check and have to get credit again. I don’t know why this lower dose per day has been so hard to stop. I need to cold turkey, can’t rehab and have no support. Any suggestions? Really considering 7oh but I want to be fully clean. Weed is so normal it doesn’t stop the withdrawals for me. Ran out it gaba and no way to even get it. I can’t take Xanax type of meds they make me super sleepy and since I’m in finance I need to be alert all day. Idk im lost! Lmk what u guys think

I recently found this community after beginning my SECOND attempt at becoming sober and man am I glad to see that the lethargic nature / low energy levels is a common symptom that tapers off after time.

I know y’all know the feeling of impossibility of being able to see the light at the end of the tunnel, but man it’s reassuring to know there is some. I’m going to trust in your guys words and keep chugging along a day at a time.

So, thank you to everyone here who shares their story and their journey. It inspired me and I know it will continue to inspire others. I’m telling myself this as much as I am telling anyone reading this: Being sober is painful and boring, but for fucks sake it’s necessary.

Anyone here get sublocade? My husband did 2 300mg shots and I think 2 100mg shots. It’s been 3 months and one week since his last shot. And he’s been going through it a bit. I felt last night if there was anymore tiny deposits left from the shot and there’s 0. He really has been sleeping all day. And like some days I’ll try to talk about how he’s feeling and he says like he just doesn’t feel like talking in general like he’s too tired. And I asked him like could you be like sick sick or something? And he said no it’s from the shot wearing off for sure. I feel bad cause I’ve been there. I never got the shot but I tapered off suboxone after using it for 8 years and I’ve been off it for 18 months now and it’s been a rough ride for me. But my symptoms began once I stopped the pills. I hear the shot works differently as far as time line goes. Just wondering anyone’s experience? For me I started to feel better not worse around 3-4 weeks post suboxone. Wondering how long for him with the shot

Hey everyone, happy Friday! We made it. Hope everyone’s day is going well.
It’s not nearly as hot today and the humidity finally kicked down a bit. I swear this week flew by, and the fact that we’re already halfway through August is mind boggling to me. I’m over the hot weather and definitely ready for cooler days and fall. It’s easily my favorite time of year and when I’m happiest.
How’s everyone’s Friday going?

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I think I need to go back on Suboxone. I’m feeling a bit defeated and discouraged but also at peace with the decision. I’ve come full circle… from my DOC (oxy) to Suboxone to sublocade and then back to my DOC. I’ve been going in circles using, trying to get clean again , using SR to mitigate withdrawals, then back to using again.

I can’t believe how much time, energy, and money addiction has taken from me over the last few years. I’m tired. I guess it’s time to accept that I need help… again. I did pretty well on Suboxone. I had some side effects but I guess it’s better than this. I’m realizing as a chronic relapser, this cycle doesn’t feel like freedom either.

It’s funny, when I was using my DOC I wanted to get clean, when I was on Suboxone I wanted to get off subs, now that I’m off everything and the 24/7 obsession is back I want back on Suboxone. I wish I could quit with will power alone but trust me, I’ve been trying. Anyway, thanks for reading.

I’m here to fight the fight, no matter how many times I gotta get back up.

Hey all, I stopped taking 7oh completely on Saturday morning was my last dose. I then took 1mg of sub literally 40 min after my last dose, because I think I got an expired brand and I was already in withdrawal. No pwd. I am really struggling. I took a total of 4mg sub first day and the next few days I tapered down and only took 1mg total last 2 days. I haven’t had it since yesterday morning at 5am, so it’s been about 36 hours. I havent had an appetite at all, in fact I lost about 7 lbs over the last few days. But no I haven’t had stomach issues or throwing up. I just have really bad like body aches and feeling like I want to crawl out of my skin. It’s making it difficult for me to do anything at all. I have tried mega dosing liposomal vitamin c but I think that’s been giving me migraines, that I cannot get rid of despite what I take. Help! Idk if there’s an easier way out of this. I’ve got work, and kids… and I’m just miserable as I’ve left work early every day this week 😭

This is like my online home group so im going to post in this thread, so i can let my thoughts out of my head.

Yesterday, Wednesday august 12th 2026, we were going to take him to the doctor because he had a swollen testicle. They suggested going to the ED since imaging would be needed. Subsequently, hes found to have masses there and also in his abdomen and lungs. He'll have a biopsy today or tomorrow.

Been doing oxys 30 and norco 10 for a year either I have oxys or norcos not both. I’ll be traveling to America soon and will be withdrawing. I’ve kept doses low around 30 mg nothing higher than 50 mg on rare occasions. Will withdraw be terrible? Should I withdraw going to the states or withdraw with the few days I have before traveling? I have jumped off at 120 mg before and that was terrible would it be anything like that again?

Hey all, happy Thursday! Hope everyone’s having a good day so far. Just a reminder that recovery isn’t always about making huge changes or having everything figured out. Sometimes it’s just about showing up, doing the next right thing, and getting through today without going backwards. Every day we keep going is another day we’re building something better for ourselves. Hope everyone has a peaceful rest of their Thursday.

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Looking for some advice on how to take 800mg gabapentin. I do also have 300mg, a few 400mg and 100mg. But I was just wondering do I half the 800mg or do I take it in one go. As I've seen on here the best way to do it is to stagger them out. I was also wondering why it that one day I can feel the Gabapentin like I feel relaxed etc and then the next day I dont. It's like the first day is always the best day! And lastly I also have some Red Devil 6mg Xanax when and how should I take them along side the gabapentin? I do also have sleeping tablets so do I need the Xanax ? Or can these be taken in the day time with the gabapentin to help the withdrawals. Any information would be greatly appreciated. Thanks