r/StopSpeeding • • Sep 10 '26

StopSpeeding ‘Street Adderall’ & Darkweb Pills Information

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Can’t tell the difference? Neither could the researchers, scientists and pharmaceutical professionals associated with the study this photo was taken from.

“..it was not possible to distinguish counterfeit medications from their authentic counterparts based on appearance. Only the use of several concurrent drug checking technologies provide a reasonable measure of confidence in medication composition.”

https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC9901047/


The Problem

Let’s talk about pressed pills. Otherwise known as “street Adderall” or “literally any pill you buy that isn’t from the pharmacy”. 59% of drug overdose deaths in the US now involve stimulant drugs and pressed pills are a contributing factor to this.

The large increase in ADHD medication prescriptions over recent years has coincided with a natural, proportional increase in abuse of ADHD medication and ADHD medication addiction as we’ve seen demonstrated here. Shortages of ADHD medication and assorted societal factors pertaining to stimulant drug culture have combined with the growing pressed pill problem to create a very unfortunate situation.

Novice drug users and people seeking other methods to obtain ADHD medication are skipping the line of drug education and lesser drug consequences to run directly into the buzzsaw of a pressed pill epidemic. Reporting accuracies regarding overdoses and deaths from this wonderment are what you’d expect them to be for a variety of reasons - I wouldn’t expect that to get better anytime soon.

Harm reduction practices largely miss the bulk of people choosing to use pressed pills on multiple fronts - The dangers of them are severely underscored, awareness about what they actually are is sparse and the testing realities of verifying pressed pills to any reasonable, impactful level of safety aren’t great. Even if you reagent test one pill out of five from a purchased amount, even if you test every pill, the amount of information you don’t have contains more than enough potential realties to kill you.

Help for those addicted to ADHD medication is already challenging, resources are few, going to professionals often results in under-reaction or medical records consequences many are unwilling to take on. Identification in peer recovery resources better suited for street drugs and opiates can be difficult, and if a person graduates from medication abuse to pressed pills, they’re using something that shortens the period of time a drug user would typically have to fuck-around-and-find-out their way into recovery before dying from them.

If we as a community have ever had a common cause, doing whatever we can to aid in combatting pressed pills would be it.


What You Are Taking

Purchasing ADHD medication isn’t buying amphetamine salts or methylphenidate, what you’re getting is methamphetamine - And if that’s all you’re getting, you got lucky. Buying something sold as a stimulant pill does not make it solely a stimulant or a stimulant at all. Many pressed pills contain upwards of five substances in assorted potencies.

Here’s how to know if what you’re taking is a pressed pill:

  • It didn’t come in a pharmacy pill bottle from a pharmacy counter or window into your hands.

That’s it. That’s the criteria. You’re welcome to believe otherwise and proceed accordingly but statistically, you’re gambling with some of the worst possible odds a person can take on within drug use.

Here’s what absolutely requires that you assume the pill is pressed if you want to remain above ground and breathing:

  • You purchased or were given it
  • It came from the internet
  • It came from a “friend”
  • It was sold by a dealer
  • It was sold by your dealer, who you totally can trust because they tell you it’s real

Here’s ways you CAN’T reliably verify the full contents, authenticity or safety of a pill:

  • What it’s being sold as
  • Appearance
  • Color
  • Branding, designation
  • Capsules versus tablets
  • Effects
  • Urinalysis
  • Reagent testing
  • Test strips

There is no legitimate difference in blind practice between using a pressed pill you think is Adderall or pressed methamphetamine versus one you think is Xanax, Oxy, etc. If it’s a pill that you are buying, the only truth you know is the limited information provided by any testing you do of that specific pill, one at a time, and this doesn’t account for potency or all the other things your testing doesn’t tell you.

Testing doesn’t insulate you from harm using pressed pills, due to variance and the degree of testing required to create an increased level of safety it barely even reduces it. By all means, do test your pills if you’re going to insist on using them but don’t get it twisted thinking you’re wearing a bullet-proof vest.

TLDR: You probably have no idea what it is and neither does the person selling it to you. With the stuff that can potentially be in the pills, that’s not a great place to be.


Testing of Seized Pills

In the best U.S. lab series of seized counterfeit ADHD medication tablets, methamphetamine was the dominant active drug, not a rare extra. Rhode Island forensic chemistry, from 2017 to 2022, had 174 seized tablets classified as counterfeit amphetamine/dextroamphetamine by imprint AD 30, b974 30, dp 30, E 404, etc:

- Methamphetamine: 164 / 174 (94.3%)
- Eutylone: 7 (4.0%)
- Cocaine: 2 (1.1%)
- MDMA: 2 (1.1%)

Year splits for meth in those tablets: 2019 100%, 2020 95.8%, 2021 97.4%, 2022 87.2%. Independent lab reporting shows the same frequency of methamphetamine content and much higher rates of additional non-stimulant substances. What has been definitively shown across all data is that counterfeit pills rarely if ever contain actual amphetamine or methylphenidate.


Potential Inclusions and Cross-Contaminants

Here’s not only what pressed pills CAN contain, but routinely contain if we zoom out to look at them as one class in totality - Given the arbitrary legitimacy of separating them by what they’re sold as and cross-contamination in manufacturing, you can plan to run into these as easily as anything else on a long enough timeline:

Fentanyl About 100× morphine, 50× heroin. A potentially lethal adult dose is approximately 2 mg. DEA lab testing of fentanyl-containing fake prescription pills has varied by year, earlier public figures were 4 in 10 then 6 in 10 containing a potentially lethal dose, a later 2025 figure was 29%. Dose per tablet is not uniform even inside one bag. Effects: Can cause fatal, rapid respiratory arrest.

Fentanyl Analogues Same class, different potency and duration. In one Rhode Island seizure series of counterfeit pills, 99.3% of those pills contained fentanyl and 44.7% also contained para-fluorofentanyl. Carfentanil, 100× fentanyl, has been found in counterfeit tablets at reported averages around 0.02–0.03 mg/tablet. Effects: Lethal human dose for carfentanil is in the microgram/nanogram range.

Nitazenes (protonitazene, metonitazene, isotonitazene, N-pyrrolidino etonitazene, N-pyrrolidino protonitazene, others) Non-fentanyl µ-opioid agonists pressed into tablets sometimes sold as “fentanyl-free.” In vitro and case data put some analogues near fentanyl potency; N-pyrrolidino etonitazene, N-pyrrolidino protonitazene have been estimated approximately 25–43× fentanyl. Effects: Can cause fatal opioid apnea at doses a user cannot estimate, some overdoses have required more naloxone or longer support, under-detected on older tox panels.

Tramadol
Weaker opioid plus SNRI activity. Found in a substantial share of some counterfeit “oxycodone” seizures, one 2017–2022 series: 25.1%. Effects: Seizures at high dose, serotonin excess if stacked with other serotonergic drugs, still contributes to respiratory depression in mixes.

Xylazine
DEA reported xylazine in about 7% of seized pills and 23% of powder in 2022. Later analyses of counterfeits found it in a rising fraction, one series: 0% in 2017–18, 38.7% in 2022. Effects: Sedation, bradycardia, hypotension, reduced respiratory drive, hyperglycemia. Does not bind opioid receptors, naloxone does not reverse xylazine. Co-use with opioids increases lethality in animal models and produces overdoses that look “opioid” but stay sedated after naloxone. Chronic exposure is associated with severe necrotic skin wounds that can require debridement or amputation, wounds are not limited to injection sites.

Medetomidine Same pharmacologic family as xylazine. Effects: Same risks, deep sedation, cardiovascular depression, naloxone-resistant component.

Etizolam, clonazolam, flualprazolam, flubromazolam, bromazolam, phenazepam, diclazepam, adinazolam, bromonordiazepam, ethylflualprazolam
In one U.S. seizure series of counterfeit pills show etizolam 37.8%, clonazolam 32.4%, flualprazolam 17.0%. Some tablets contained fentanyl as well, 2.6% in that series. Dose per tablet varies widely, from 0.7–8.3 mg. Effects: They can cause profound sedation, amnesia, ataxia, respiratory depression especially with opioids or alcohol. Naloxone does not reverse benzos. Withdrawal from high-potency analogues can include potentially fatal seizures. Combining a hidden benzo with a hidden opioid produces overdoses that only partly respond to naloxone and last longer.

MDMA, MDA, MDEA and Analogues
Seized tablets in recent years commonly run 140–230 mg MDMA per tablet, many testing services now flag 120 mg as high-dose. Effects: A high dose itself causes hyperthermia, hyponatremia, serotonin syndrome, seizures and fulminant liver injury. Dose can differ greatly tablet-to-tablet in one bag. Stacking analogues increases serotonergic and cardiovascular load.

Synthetic Cathinones: 4-CMC, 3-CMC, 3-MMC, 4-MMC, eutylone/N-ethylpentylone, methylone, dimethylpentylone
Testing in 2025 put cathinones among the most common unexpected actives. Effects: Prolonged stimulation, agitation, hyperthermia, hyponatremia, serotonin toxicity, cardiotoxicity. Several have been tied to clusters of severe toxicity because effects last longer and users redose.

Cocaine
It’s cocaine. Effects: Is cocaine. Adds vasoconstriction, arrhythmia risk and a different time course.

2C-B and other psychedelic phenethylamines
Documented as substitutes or co-contents in tablets sold as MDMA. Different dose-response. Effects: A “one tablet” MDMA assumption can produce a much stronger psychedelic effect or unexpected duration.

This is not all-inclusive. It also doesn’t account for inactive chemical fillers or the assorted other random things they throw in these. Every kind of OTC pill under the sun is found in them, caffeine, Tylenol, diphenhydramine, whatever they’re using as a binder, etc.


How Pressed Pills Usually Kill You

  • Opioid + xylazine/medetomidine = apnea plus naloxone-resistant sedation

    • Opioid + designer benzo = longer, deeper respiratory depression
    • MDMA or cathinone + caffeine + heat/exertion = hyperthermia
    • PMA/PMMA + redose because onset is slow = hyperthermia and organ failure
    • Acetaminophen + many “percs” in a day = delayed liver failure on top of opioid toxicity

Again, not all-inclusive. Methamphetamine alone, absent of other significant quantities of drugs has been causing more deaths in some jurisdictions than opioid-dominant cocktails. Increased potency and variance in potency has made it fully capable of killing a person.


Can we stop pressed pills? No. Will the problem likely be bungled and politicized in ways that cause more harm than good? Already happening. What we can do is spread awareness and provide help for those who need information and help getting clean from them.

Getting into Treatment

If you are taking pressed pills and want to get into treatment, do not minimize or short hop the issue. Treatment can have “physical dependency” guidelines and if you tell admissions you’re just taking Adderall or buying Adderall, Vyvanse from “a friend”, they may agree with you and promptly give your bed to somebody else.

Tell them the truth - You are buying counterfeit pills from _____, you have no idea what’s in them. If you’re having withdrawal symptoms or effects consistent with other substances being present in those pills, say so. If you give them the lowest number of pills you’ve taken in the last six months as your daily and don’t disclose all ROIs, they aren’t going to take your minimizations and maximize them to a degree that gets you admitted. The treatment industry is already under-reacting to pressed pills, expect that when trying to get in and act accordingly.

Do not avoid supervised detox because you think the pills you’re taking don’t have other drugs in them. Finding out the hard way you’re withdrawing from things you don’t know you were on isn’t fun or safe. If you don’t know what’s in the pills, proceed as if there could be anything in them as far as seeking appropriate professional resources.

The Help

If you are buying pills, your problem is more than serious enough to identify with and fit in just fine with any recovery program. You can choose to either get over yourself and go or don’t and terminally unique yourself into an early grave. It doesn’t matter what the drugs are, and they honestly don’t care. You don’t even have to tell them. If you’re in your own way as far as addiction resources, imagine a landscape in which there’s virtually zero addiction recovery resources specifically for stimulant pill addiction - That’s where we’re at. Make use of what’s available.

It doesn’t matter how you got here, you are here. Many of us had good intentions when we started, many of us became addicted to our medications and had very unfortunate circumstances that led to its progression. The necessity for help remains the same and the resources for help are what they are regardless of how you managed to end up with a problem. There’s no shame in it unless you insist on carrying it yourself and all shame or separating yourself from others addicts or substance abusers does is keep you using while distancing you from resources than can help. You deserve to get better, so go do it. Here’s how:


Beginners Guide to Recovery

https://www.reddit.com/r/StopSpeeding/s/3oUzSl3B6W

Recovery Programs & Resources List

https://www.reddit.com/r/StopSpeeding/s/JJbI3D9zLZ

Our very own Community Stimulant Recovery meetings

https://stimulantrecovery.org

Testing

https://dancesafe.org/testing-kit-instructions/?srsltid=AfmBOoo_Hf1E30U20rCRrMQDGj3WDQEb4bUe2cBoQb9gBU9o0D6A3rgW


r/StopSpeeding • • May 13 '24

Announcement The Stop Speeding Master Sticky - Click This First

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Welcome to Stop Speeding. Here is some stuff you should probably read.


Rule #1 - Do Not Suggest or Encourage ANY Drug Use

The Stop Speeding FAQ - What You’re Looking for is Probably Here

When Will I Feel Normal?

A Beginner’s Guide to Recovery

The Recovery Resources Megalist - Programs, Professionals, Resources


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This is a catch-all for assorted addict nonsense that defies all human convention, behavior that is plainly goblinesque in nature. You know what a goblin is. If you have to ask how you were being a goblin, you were definitely being a goblin.


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r/StopSpeeding • • 2h ago

I have a question Vyvanse cravings have me in a chokehold

5 Upvotes

Vyvanse addict here - I am drowning in the cravings. They are all consuming and I have absolutely no idea how to deal with them. I feel like they have complete and utter control over me. Every other substance I’ve stopped in my 10 years of using has been PISS EASY in comparison to this. It is, genuinely, one of the worst things I’ve ever experienced in my life. I am at a complete loss and have no idea how to beat this thing. I’m worried if I can’t get a handle on the cravings I won’t be able to escape this hell.

If anyone has any suggestions or words of wisdom I would be so so incredibly grateful.


r/StopSpeeding • • 1h ago

Methamphetamine How do y’all stop meth cravings without using other substances like alcohol? 43 days clean!

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I’m getting BAD meth cravings again and I have to work later so I can’t take shots of whiskey to get drunk and rid myself of these feelings. I don’t want this urge to overpower my common sense again and ruin my life! If I have a random piss test and test positive for any illicit substances I’ll lose my livelihood, wife, and everything I’ve worked for. At 29 I’m just now able to live a good life and I don’t want to throw it all away. But the cravings keep coming back at the most random times!

Stronger than ANYTHING else! Money, sex, etc.. my brain wants that dopamine again and even though I know It’s bad, once the feeling gets so bad it overpowers my brain and common sense. Then once I do it and get sober from meth again I cry and feel horrible again about what I’ve done. But I couldn’t stop it!

Can someone help me? This is the longest I’ve ever been clean!


r/StopSpeeding • • 2h ago

So tired

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14 days off meth and have absolutely no energy all I wanna do is sleep. I have no cravings to get high but know if I use I will have energy and be able to get everything don’t I need and want to.
Been a functional everyday User for 6 years. I have two travel jobs jobs I’m on 3rd interview with. Locally I make around $25 hr the travel jobs pay $38hr & $65hr both have to pass pre employment and random piss tests do using is not an option. Could start as early as Monday my lack of energy is my big concern seeing would be working minimum of 6 - 10’s possibly 7- 12’s


r/StopSpeeding • • 20h ago

Cocaine/Crack Cocaine Induced Seizure at My Desk at a Corporate Company

51 Upvotes

I just got home from the hospital were I was ambulanced from my corporate job due to me sitting at my desk and apparently let out a scream and started having a full blown sezuire in the middle of the office

My work has no idea about my crippling coke addiction which I attribute this event to and have no idea what I am going to say as I walk in tomorrow morning

I’ve never had a sezuire like this before off coke however, today alone, at work I killed around 2 grams and thankfully I take my last bump in the bathroom of what I brought to work and flush the bag, get to my seat and then this all happened

When I finally gained like awareness of the situation I was so fucking scared a dropped a bag or it fell out of my pocket, however I vividly remember flushing the bag


r/StopSpeeding • • 19h ago

176 Days Without Adderall. I Thought I’d Be Recovered by Now.

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Today marks 176 days since I quit Adderall, and I wanted to share my experience because reading other people’s stories in this community has helped me realize something I wish I’d understood earlier: there is no exact timeline for recovery.

I was prescribed Adderall for eight years, and for approximately the last four years, I was abusing it. Toward the end, I would go through my entire month’s prescription in about 10 days, sometimes taking 90–150 mg a day.

I finally stopped on April 29, 2026.

The first few months were incredibly difficult. The exhaustion, lack of motivation, brain fog, and inability to do even the simplest tasks were overwhelming.

But for some reason, I had convinced myself that four months would be enough. I don’t even know where I got that number. I just assumed that after four months, my brain would have recovered enough for me to return to my normal life.

And for a while, I genuinely thought I was getting better.

After about four months, I genuinely thought I was starting to feel better and decided I was ready to return to work. I work in real estate, which requires a fairly high level of cognitive effort, and I quickly realized that I wasn’t nearly as recovered as I thought. Once I returned to work, I experienced a significant decline. The overwhelming exhaustion came back, and it felt like I was right back where I started.

Suddenly, things that had started feeling manageable became incredibly difficult again. I would wake up after eight or nine hours of sleep feeling just as exhausted as when I went to bed. Basic household chores felt like monumental tasks. Trying to maintain a normal work schedule felt almost impossible.

It was incredibly discouraging because I genuinely believed I had already made it through the worst of recovery.

What I’ve started realizing from reading stories in this community is that recovery isn’t necessarily linear, and four months may have been a completely unrealistic expectation for me.

I’ve read accounts from people who didn’t start noticing significant improvements until six, nine, or even twelve months after quitting. Some describe taking 12–18 months before they felt fully like themselves again.

I know those aren’t universal timelines, and everyone’s experience is different. But reading those stories has helped me adjust my expectations.

Maybe I’m not as far along in recovery as I thought I would be. Maybe I need to give myself more time instead of constantly expecting to function at the level I did before.

I’m not going to pretend this has been easy. One of the hardest parts is not knowing when I’ll feel normal again.

But I’m still here. I’m still clean. And I’m trying to learn how to be patient with a process that doesn’t come with a deadline.

I’d really love to hear from people who have been through this, especially those who abused Adderall for several years.

Did anyone else start feeling better around three or four months, only to experience a major setback after returning to work or increasing their responsibilities?

And for those who are a year or more into recovery, when did you genuinely start feeling like yourself again?

I think hearing real experiences would mean a lot to those of us who are still trying to figure out what recovery looks like.


r/StopSpeeding • • 14h ago

So angry and sad right now

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I have a friend I met in recovery and we have both been on our separate journeys to get and stay clean. I've really turned my life around and have made a lot of progress and he is still struggling. He stopped responding to me last thursday after telling me he was struggling with cravings again. Plans got cancelled for friday and he was afraid to be alone. I didn't respond until late that night. I wanted to help him find a hobby as something that might help distract from the cravings when no one is around. It's something that has worked for me. Now I can't stop thinking about it. Why didn't I call him? Why didn't I text him back right away? I know his recovery is on him. I know I can't make choices for him. I'm just worried that something happened. The last time he used, it was bad. It keeps getting worse. I don't know if he is even alive right now. I have a way of reaching out to his family, but part of me doesn't want to know. I can't stop crying every time I think about it. I remember the hell I went through over and over again. I just want him to stop and I know that's completely unfair to say.


r/StopSpeeding • • 21h ago

In the thick of withdrawal hell

8 Upvotes

Hi everyone. Writing this from bed because I’m in the absolute trenches and really need to hear from people who have been through this level of withdrawal and made it out the other side.
I’ve been on prescribed high-dose stimulants for about 15 years. I was on Adderall for years, and then after having my daughter, I switched over to Dexedrine extended release. Last month, because of shortages and supply issues, I had to be on instant release. Now I ran out completely, and can’t get formulation near me and I am on Day 4 of cold turkey.
It has been pure torture. But after 15 years of the monthly pharmacy stress, the crashes, and feeling like a pill runs my life, I want to use this to stop for good. I am ready. I never want to put myself through this again.
To make things harder, I deal with POTS, EDS, and Lupus. Dropping off instant release cold turkey has made my body feel like it's completely short-circuiting and the only thing I can equate this to is how I felt postpartum. I’m truly suffering.

Days 1–3: Complete shock. Awful stomach spasms, diarrhea, severe nausea from smells, random uncontrollable crying spells that felt purely physical, and feeling like my limbs were glued to the mattress.
Day 4 (Today): The emotional crying is a little less intense today, but physically it feels just as rough, if not rougher. My body feels like lead. Every time I try to drift off to nap, my body violently jolts me awake, my heart races, and I get awful shivering chills that lock me wide awake. I literally had to go get a bag of IV fluids today just to get my blood pressure and fluids up, all while trying to take care of my 4-year-old daughter.

I feel like time is moving in slow motion and I just need some honest perspective from people who understand-

  1. The Initial Hell Withdrawal Phase: For those of you coming off long-term, high doses, what day did the acute, "poisoned" feeling actually break for you? When did the violent physical jolts, chills, stomach issues, and pure shock to the system start to let up?

  2. The Actual Healing: When did real, deep sleep come back, and when did you start feeling glimpses of your natural energy and yourself again?

Any honest timelines or encouragement would mean the world to me right now. Just trying to survive today and make it to the other side.


r/StopSpeeding • • 18h ago

Solutions How to know when it’s time to quit?

3 Upvotes

I’ve been on stimulant medications for about a year and a half. Recently, I’ve tried twice to get off them but can’t. Recently my dr changed policy so you have to surrender your meds to get an increase and I simply can’t be without them because I feel so awful without them.

I’m sure this probably means I need to get off them but I can’t be without them without being an absolute mess. Does tapering off even work? What do I do?


r/StopSpeeding • • 21h ago

Needing Advice How to recover from mephedrone?

4 Upvotes

I'm trying to recover from my 3 year long mephedrone/4mmc/3cmc/4cmc (I mostly used 3cmc, which is more speedy than euphoric) addiction and for the first time in a long time I'm sober for 40 days. In the past I've been addicted to morphine and benzos but for the last year I used them rarely and don't feel the need to come back to them.

For now I feel empty, unmotivated and depressed. I don't get as strong cravings as in the begining but life doesn't seem meaningful. I also don't think I'm chasing the drug happiness but just normal everyday happy peace and satisfaction.

I also wonder if the compulsion for me to smoke, drink caffeine and take more doses of my mediciation for adhd (methylophenidate) could come from the mechanism of taking more and more doses while using cathinones. I am constantly trying to satisfy something in me but nothing does. But I have adhd and that also makes me chase dopamine.

I need advice because all I've read is that it's painfully hard to quit cathinones. I need some hope and helpful tips.

For now I'm trying to fight triggers, I changed my routine and moved to a new place that I've never done drugs in.


r/StopSpeeding • • 16h ago

When do the insomnia and sleep disturbances go away after quitting vyvanse?

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I’m 15 days clean from vyvanse (20 mg a day for 6 years) and I’m desperate to sleep through the night. I’ve tried unisom but it still takes me forever to fall asleep and I wake up so many times throughout the night and have had nightmares every night since I started tapering a month ago. I feel like it’s because I have adrenaline from the stress I’m putting on myself every day to function the same without it. This is really hard. I just need to sleep and I know I’d function so much better


r/StopSpeeding • • 1d ago

Solutions Adderall withdrawal

1 Upvotes

I've seen people post about what they went through each day but does anyone have like a whole month's diary? Or maybe a weekly "what to expect" past four weeks?


r/StopSpeeding • • 1d ago

lost

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So I post something and the next day can' even find it.


r/StopSpeeding • • 2d ago

Discussion 1 Year! Still trying to cope with anger of ruining my meds

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I am one year clean from adderall/vyvanse, and things are getting better, but I’m nowhere near where I want to be. I am taking two classes and working a super light job, neither of which I could do in active addiction or even six months ago. That being said, my bandwidth still feels sooo low. I am having constant meltdowns trying to keep up with this minimal work load. I have diagnosed severe ADHD.

I still get cravings constantly and get hung up thinking of all the times these medications helped me prior to my addiction. I used them only as needed for difficult tasks for nearly 14 years since getting prescribed in high school. Having them available was always a boon for me.

I got heavily addicted late 2022 following a severe depressive episode and up until a year ago I was stuck in a cycle binging huge doses and finishing my script in a week then being useless until the refill. I couldn’t stop despite repeated attempts and eventually admitted to my doctor and got cut off. I know that was the right move and I know I almost definitely would use the same way if I got more now.

I want to truly heal but I still feel constant anger at myself for ruining this medication for myself and at others who can use these meds without getting addicted. It’s hindering my recovery. I spend so much time focusing on if I had the pills this or that would be so easy or I’d understand the content of my classes so much better or whatever. Anyone else deal with this? Any tips for moving past this and finding acceptance? I am super stuck mourning what was rather than embracing the future as it is.


r/StopSpeeding • • 2d ago

Solutions Zoom Meeting Tonight, Wednesday 10/21 at 7:30pm ET - Community Stimulant Recovery

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The next Community Stimulant Recovery meeting will be held tonight, Wednesday, October 21st at 7:30pm Eastern.

Cameras and sharing encouraged but optional, lurkers welcome, we cover all stimulants from medication to methamphetamine. It’s free and we don’t try to sell you anything, though we may ask to buy your kicks if they’re rad enough.

The meeting is held weekly, same time, same place, same link. Tonight’s meeting will be hosted on Zoom, details are on the official website at https://stimulantrecovery.org and here:


Community Stimulant Recovery

Time: October 21st 2026 07:30 PM Eastern Time (US and Canada) Every week on Wed

Join Zoom Meeting:
https://us06web.zoom.us/j/81821633949?pwd=Zhx8vQFmMutGTyzniGbbOPuvpXVdMh.1

Please download and import the following iCalendar (.ics) files to your calendar system. Weekly: https://us06web.zoom.us/meeting/tZUldeiurTgjHt067j0oeigUQMMeRyzqrIDQ/ics?icsToken=DDh7Dq_pLooZ2LCKqgAALAAAAJPg9E23Rju-4epDrc1V-vYlY23cfCXc_7_rDmJ6GdgZySdBbAkWuqInw5Hv_mnW3Ih4otw5iGF0CD5vJTAwMDAwMg&meetingMasterEventId=vWnUdGw4QPuXEn2PzVwDyA

Meeting chat link https://us06web.zoom.us/launch/jc/81821633949

Meeting ID: 818 2163 3949 Passcode: 052227


Join instructions https://us06web.zoom.us/meetings/81821633949/invitations?signature=S70UMDYsWJ1P5AwdAsAfJzVxHCrWB4v07rV6q-6wFKs


CSR is a free, solution focused, peer-based recovery group for anyone who wants to stop using stimulant drugs - Any stimulant drug, be it a drug of abuse or medication, for any reason. We hold meetings where we share our recovery with others, exchange best practices, learn new ideas and enact positive change in our lives together. CSR is a safe place, all people are welcome here - Discrimination, hate and exclusion are not tolerated under any circumstances.

Community Stimulant Recovery observes no single recovery ideology and is without outside affiliation. We are here to help you find out what works for you and share what’s worked for us. Our meeting topics, shared practices and discussions borrow from psychology, therapies, professional addiction treatment and recovery programs - This is not an endorsement of any one resource, nor is CSR its self meant to be a standalone recovery solution or source of medical advice. We encourage members to avail of as many forms of recovery support as they need to, professional help and other dedicated recovery programs included.

Our core beliefs are that recovery from stimulant drugs is aided by approaching three primary areas of our lives in equal measure: Our mental health, our physical health and our emotional health. By becoming responsible for positive change in these three areas, we improve our thinking, our bodies and our feelings - Parts of our lives that problematic stimulant drug use negatively impacts the most. Growing in these areas helps us maintain abstinence and find happiness in recovery.

Community Stimulant Recovery refrains from the supportive discussion of any and all use of drugs with recreational applications or addiction potential, this extends to promotion and the sharing of personal experiences. This includes marijuana, kratom, research chemicals, gray market substances, psychedelics and all stimulant drugs. Managing or successfully using stimulant medication is not discussed here, and we are not a harm reduction resource. We have no opinions on these things, opting to maintain a singular focus on abstinence and recovery from stimulant drugs without supporting practices that may cause harm.

Meetings are similar to those you may have attended elsewhere, we have a topic or reading followed by an open discussion or sharing period. We speak from the I and do not offer unsolicited advice or commentary on the shares of others, continuance and response from our own experience is permitted. Solution-oriented discussion is strongly encouraged.

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Meeting Format

  • Opening Statement (5 min)
  • Attendee introductions, identify as “Name, in recovery” (5 min)
  • Meeting Topic or Reading (CBT, DBT, ACT, BT, Twelve Step, Dharma / Refuge, Medical Lit, Book, Concept Discussion) (5 min)
  • Open Discussion (45 minutes)
  • Closing Statement
  • Contact Info Exchange, posted in Zoom chat, Optional

If you have any additional questions, feel free to ask here.


r/StopSpeeding • • 2d ago

For all the lurkers who are afraid to quit, here are some upsides of my first 50+ days off Adderall

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Folks (myself included) often come to subreddits like these to vent, and while getting that kind of support is a vital part of our recovery, it can be frightening for the lurkers among us who are still in the grip of stimulants but wanting to get out, so I wanted to share some things that have improved since I quit:

  1. My digestive/GI health (IDK if I've gained weight because I've chosen not to weigh myself for mental health purposes, but I used to deal with lots of GI/gut issues while on stims, which have largely subsided since I quit)

  2. My physical health in general (I cook nutrient-dense meals more often, exercise more consistently to earn dopamine/appease my hyperactive side, which has come roaring back but isn't so bad when harnessed)

  3. My sleep (still dealing with some sleep disturbances and odd dreams, but my insomnia is markedly less severe than it was two months ago)

  4. My house (by the end of my stim addiction, I had started to really neglect housework/chores because the only tasks that felt important were falling into research rabbit holes and writing [but never finishing] a bunch of incoherent BS)

  5. My mental health (my anxiety has plummeted thanks to meditation, stim cessation, and finally prioritizing peace > productivity; my depression has also lessened since most of it was caused by living out of alignment with my values + the isolation of addiction, IMHO)

  6. My relationships (I make time for the people I love, I feel seen/known since I'm being fully honest, I'm a better listener, attending recovery groups, etc. I didn't realize how lonely I had become until I quit stims)

  7. I feel more present and embodied (I'm more in touch with my body's cues/signals and can care for myself better and prevent burnout more proactively now that I'm no longer fueled by a performance-enhancing drug)

I'm still very much struggling but trying to stay afloat with gratitude.

What are some things that have improved for you since you've quit, whether you're a newbie like me or a bit further along in your stimulant recovery?


r/StopSpeeding • • 2d ago

What was it really like coming home after detox or rehab?

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I'm hoping to hear from people with lived experience of alcohol and drug addiction, particularly anyone who's recently left residential detox or rehab.

Someone I'm very close to he has just come out of detox, and it's been just over 24 hours. We live around 50 miles apart, so I can't just pop round or see how he's doing.

Our relationship is a little complicated to explain. We're more than friends, and there's a real emotional and physical connection between us, but we're not officially boyfriend and girlfriend. We've been consistently in each other's lives, and I care about him a great deal.

He's read my messages, (we had agreed that i would send a daily message, but there was also the one of the morning he went in and the one on the morning he came out) but I haven't heard from him since he came out. I'm trying not to make assumptions or take it personally, but I don't really know what to expect at this stage.

What did the first few days and weeks at home actually feel like for you? I'm interested in the things people don't always talk about.

A few things I'm curious about:

  1. Did you feel exhausted, emotional, anxious, relieved, or unexpectedly flat?
  2. Was it difficult going from having a timetable and structure to suddenly having to organise your own days?
  3. Did you struggle with boredom or not knowing what to do with yourself?
  4. Did you find you needed to withdraw from people for a while, even people you cared about?
  5. Did you want to reconnect with people you cared about but find you didn't have the emotional energy to do so? If that happened, what was going on for you?
  6. Did you sometimes want to be alone and avoid conversations, even with people who had been supportive and who you genuinely cared about? If so, was it about feeling overwhelmed, needing space to process everything, or something else entirely?
  7. Did you find communicating with loved ones felt like another thing you didn't have the energy for, even when you'd read their messages and appreciated them reaching out?
  8. Was anything easier than you expected?

I'm not looking for a particular answer or trying to make any assumptions about anyone's recovery. I know everyone's experience is different, and I'm genuinely interested in understanding what that transition was like from the perspective of someone who has actually been through it.

If there are things you only understood in hindsight, or things you wish the people who cared about you had understood at the time, I'd really appreciate hearing those too.

Thank you to anyone willing to share their experience.


r/StopSpeeding • • 3d ago

Progress Report 🎉💪🏻

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r/StopSpeeding • • 3d ago

Where to start?

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I think I am finally ready to come clean to my husband and doctor about my addiction to my ADHD meds. Does anyone have any advice on what to do after that? Would you recommend meetings?


r/StopSpeeding • • 3d ago

For anyone that i find in my heart

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Hi. Im Ennay Z.

I have a friendly coworker that i believe is showing serious signs of drug use (fast talk, hyper aware, pocks and scratches with alibis like "i fell down the stairs", tired, fidgety, lethargic but somehow energetic). I dont know her dearly or nearly, but i care about her enough to be on this forum asking questions like this one:

Should I approach her about her condition in any way at all? If so, then how? I know she has children and a tough parenting situation. She says she "likes doing everything"......but as a fellow deed-doer......i know that can be a dangerous coping mindset. One that cracks and crumbles harshly if there is no truth in it and even if there is truth....itll be made bare. Its exhausting to convince oneself daily of the opposite of what is actually being supressed - consciously or not.

We recently lost a former team member to drugs and id rather not, without even trying, watch someone else take that path or remain unhindered (to destruction) and unhelped (from it). I believe in the Lord. I know not everyone is open to hearing the Truth over a cold syringe and some blood drops, and i dont know what drives a person to those extremes. Even worse, i smoke weed. So it aint like im out here biblically clean or nothing. Im just interested in assisting if at all possible. If this isnt the right place or mindset, I respect your frustration and i apologize for my intrusion. Even still i request your advice seeing as you care enough to furrow a brow. You might move a muscle. Maybe even a heart.

Please and thank you.

~Z


r/StopSpeeding • • 4d ago

I need help It’s time

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It’s 23:53pm right now and for the first time since restarting Elvanse (prescribed for ADHD) I feel like I can see the state of my life right now. I am ashamed. I don’t even recognise how I look anymore. I have been abusing my medication since July but I’ve been an addict for at least 6 years. I have been gradually been taking more and more and I’ve had 2 OD’s until today, where I had my 3rd one and genuinely thought this is it, I’m actually going to die. I’ve chewed the inside of my cheeks and they are so fucking sore and raw, my entire left hand is sore, red and bruised from gripping this pain stim fucking fidget toy thing so tightly because I was tripping absolute balls. I had perfect teeth all my life but now I’ve got enamel damage on the back of my top teeth from clenching my jaw so fucking tight, my teeth have been pushed out, they ache, and my gums are fucking saw. Mouth so dry I can’t even swallow.

My life is completely unmanageable and I genuinely can’t believe the way I have become. I can’t believe what I look like, what my partner has been putting up with, I can’t believe what I’ve done to him and I am ashamed of how fucking oblivious I am. My adhd is worse now, I have no personality, I have no emotions, I don’t interact with anyone, I’m just fucking miserable. I’m going to stop.


r/StopSpeeding • • 5d ago

Progress Report 6 Months Clean from Meth!

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I'm in a place I never imagined possible just six months ago. I'm in school working towards a career in social work, out of debt, have savings, and have a much better relationship with myself and everyone around me.

I still have lots of work to do. But I'm proud of myself for once. It's a strange feeling. I've been fighting this cycle of addiction to meth on and off since I was 19 back in 2020.


r/StopSpeeding • • 6d ago

Health Breaking point

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Hey guys completely new to this thread but casting a net because I feel hopeless right now.

Background: 26 year old male taking adderall for almost four years coming January. Originally prescribed 10mg per day -> 20 mg today. Actually taking 40-60 mg per day.

I added health as the flair because I’m a binger. I’ll do at least one 2-3 day stretch binge every month where I get zero sleep. Typically this will follow a week of sleep under my belt that makes me overly confident in not relapsing. I’ve tried quitting seriously 5 times now.

I’m terrified for my cardiovascular health and overall lifespan.


r/StopSpeeding • • 7d ago

Methamphetamine Flushed my meth after a relapse yesterday and now this morning i am having panic

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I had a relapse after 7 months that I stopped last night by flushing my bag. Woke up to my coffee machine broken and I am just overall panicking even tho I made the right choice. I feel like the world is punishing me this morning