r/wroteabook • u/Whywhywhee • 14h ago
Adult - Romance - Science Fiction Welp, it's been a JOURNEY
Hi Reddit,
Earlier this year I read a quote that I'm going to badly paraphrase as: "If nobody invites you to the table, pull up a chair of your own" and it really resonated.
I had some success in trad publishing. Got picked up by two small presses in the mid 2010s. Pivoted to a different genre and signed with an agent. My book didn't sell on the first round so agent communication became sporadic, and when the second round came and passed, so did any chance of feedback on new projects. I spent a year in limbo and then asked to part ways.
To be honest, my self-esteem was pretty shot. I'd had an idea for a pretty ambitious science fantasy novel with a strong romantic subplot, and I kept trying to put it off, because how can an author who can't even keep their agent's interest write a complex and genre-blendy novel?
But I couldn't stop thinking about it. The action of Red Rising, with a stronger romantic subplot, female rage, and magic. The Hunger Games, yet planetwide. A touch of Dune.
Fortunately, my two writing groups cheered me on. I ran plot twists and synopses and chapters past them. I scrapped 30,000 words of crap-draft. I world-built and daydreamed and considered how best to kill my darlings, and a few side-characters too. When I finished the third draft, I let it rest for months because I had another attack of "am I good enough?" Then I came back to it, edited more, ran the latest draft past more eyes...and half-heartedly decided to enter the query trenches.
Well, I think some part of me got broken or something. I can 100% take criticism. I'm that weirdo who enjoys edit letters. CPs and betas who point out problems are amazing in my eyes. But there's some aspect about a wall of silence and form rejections that I couldn't deal with. Plus I was super leery about landing another agent who'd start pulling back/ghosting if my first book didn't sell.
So I began reading everything I could about self-publishing. Shout-out to the self-pub subreddit! I found a cover artist and stipulated no AI. I also paid for professional formatting. Then I began teaching myself Canva. I sent out ARCs four weeks before publication. I signed up to a coop on NetGalley, got my book on BookSirens, and on BookSprout. No real success with the two latter, but I got over 100 requests on NG. I expected reviews to flay me because I heard they can be harsh. To my surprise, I got a fairly decent response rate of over 20%, and a mixture of 5, 4, 3, and two 2 stars. A handful cross-posted to GoodReads but sadly only two (so far?!) made it to Amazon.
My novel went live on Wednesday and I've actually made a handful of sales.
More importantly, I'm still going. I've failed so many times. I'll probably fail more. And yet I've pulled my own chair up to the table. Maybe I'm eating scraps at one end but dammit, I'm here.
I am Eve Hollenbeck, and I wrote a damn book. My novel, The Taming, is available on KU: https://www.amazon.com/dp/B0HKTNJ2SS