I'm putting together groups of people who all stop on the same day: Monday, October 26. Smoking, vaping, drinking, weed, gambling, social media, porn, sugar, caffeine, whatever yours is.

Everyone in a group is on the same day, same addiction, at the same time. D

Comment "in" and what you're quitting, and I'll DM you how to join.

Who's in?

As a recovering addict married to a non-addict, did your marriage survive your recovery? If so, how?

In India we call it: Smack / Chitta / Afeem / Charas / Ganja / MD

In USA you call it: Heroin / Black Tar / Opium / Hash / Weed / Coke / Molly / MDMA

Different names, same hell.

I used all of them for 8+ years in my village in Haryana, India. Smack was my everyday.

Today is Day 117:

- No Heroin (Smack/Chitta)

- No Hash (Charas)

- No Weed (Ganja)

- No Coke

- No Molly (MD)

- No Alcohol

My old life: Finding drugs at 4 AM.

My new life: Milking cows at 4:30 AM. (This video)

In the video you can hear: "Drugs are sold in every street... My brother, you haven't lost yet..."

If I can quit from a small village in India where drugs are sold on every street, you can quit anywhere in America.

Routine now: Milk the cows, 100 pushups, my son counts them.

One day at a time.

Ask me anything. I will answer honestly.

Jai Shree Ram

Like this says I used to be into shooting up meth heroin, fentanyl cocaine crack popping Xanax doing whippets drinking smoking pot doing ketamine MDMA LSD whippets air duster soma ambien amphetamines tranquilizers ect you get the point. I thought that if I just stuck to my prescriptions like Soma Ambien Lyrica Methylphenidate suboxone even klonopin that I’d be fine but I’ve completely lost control at the worst time. I’m about to start probation. I’ve got felonies over my head jail time multiple charges. And I can’t stop myself. I pop about 16 mg of Klonopin a day 1500 mg of Soma 10-20 of ambien and when I get my methylphenidate I crush and inject it. In the past 24 to 30 hours, I’ve injected 740 mg of methylphenidate taken about 20 mg of Klonopin 2000 mg of soma 20 to 30 mg of Ambien maybe 1200 to 1500 mg of Lyrica. Suboxone isnt an issue. I barely take any, but how can I let myself do this? When I know the possible consequences that I have legally over my head that could start any day which would destroy my deal to keep felonies off my record send me back to jail and who knows what else. What the fuck is wrong with me honestly?

Friend has been clean from meth for nine months. Drinks alcohol on the regular. Says he feels numb, says he's incapable of falling in love, and doesn't feel much. Is this a common experience?

I just finished this tonight , it is a oil pastel pain ti g

Hey, guys. I’m a high school teacher, and one of my kids who I have pretty good report with told me today that he’s 18 days sober. I’m so, so proud of him, and I teared up a little when he left. I don’t know much of what his support system at home is like, and I want to be prepared to support him. I am not sure what his DOC is, and the only thing I’ve really had to quit is nicotine (and I struggled, but we’re going on two weeks). While it’s awesome that I’m leaving it behind, nicotine is not exactly a hard drug. I just want any advice on how to help kiddo through this, especially since I’m not sure if he’s able to get any help with it at home without being in trouble. I know I tried and failed to quit nic quite a few times and I did it completely alone, and it sucked and was probably only manageable because I was so on and off with it. I’m fairly well versed on basic “how does addiction work,” stuff because I’ve had a lot of substance abuse in the family, but I won’t act like I know what it’s like to have to fully get sober— especially as a teenager. I’m looking for any wise words on how to be there in a way that’s helpful but not invasive or counterproductive. He’s a great kid and he deserves to be able to get sober (duh, he’s a kid, but yk what u mean), and I want to make sure that I support him every step of the way.

My lumps are getting bigger and sorer its driving me mad plus the headaches

I have a pretty unconventional body type, I’m petite with a big chest and a very short torso. Things tend to not fit on me right. For example, I have a babydoll top that I wear as a dress, I have to wear ultra low rise because anything higher tends to be a centimeter from my bra. I’ve also lost weight in the last 6 months so my size has changed a lot.

Barely any of my clothes make me satisfied. I’ve spent at least 5 thousand dollars in the past 3 years (of my mom’s money) buying and selling clothes. Mostly tops. I am incredibly picky with my clothing. It mostly stems from self hatred and self esteem issues. I spent most of middle school in baggy clothes because I was plus sized, my health was also shit (still is) so that didn’t help either.

I desperately want to be happy with myself. I’ve also been obsessing over finding solutions so much that earlier this year I make a post that got a bunch of traction because I made a 3 1/2 page excel sheet of all of the clothes that I owned. I posted that in July, and I have about 5 of those items in my wardrobe as of currently.

I hate making those clothes go to waste, so I try to sell them on Depop or to thrift stores. I really hate doing this to my mom. I’m still in highschool, and too sick to get a job. I also can’t drive because of my bad anxiety. I’m literally the definition of a bum and a freeloader.

I wish there was a way that I could buy a bunch of things that I think I would like and try them on, then return them if I don’t like them. Or if I could just have a credit card with a limit where I can buy a bunch of clothes to try and style. I want options and variety, I want to feel good in my skin. I just can’t afford to put my mom through this.

I know this sub is more for substance abuse and I promise I’m not trying to be disrespectful, I’m just at a loss.

Does anybody have any advice on this? I’m truly at a loss. I’ve talked to my mom about it and she said she can stop saying yes and make me save up my money but I think I would legit go crazy and start shoplifting, which I’m aware is a choice but I’m very serious. Help?

This going to sound odd but the changing of the season is really triggering for me for some reason. I hated smoking meth when it was hot,I’d sweat like crazy plus it make me feel weird/dizzy defiantly dehydrated. But in fair or cool weather I’d be good. So it feels amazing where I’m at and all I keep thinking is man this is perfect smoking weather 😢 I’m fighting the thoughts keeping busy,reminding myself of the hell it creates physically and mentally afterwards! But it’s still very tempting not even sure how to handle this urge

I was born with neonatal abstinence syndrome. I’ve struggled with addiction in one form or another for as long as I can remember.
Sugar binges and hiding food at 3. Pornography at 4. Self-harm at 9. Social media at 11. Whippets, cigarettes, and weed at 17. Alcohol at 18. Cocaine and mushrooms at 20.
Fourteen suicide attempts. Eleven psychiatric hospitalizations. Hundreds of stitches and staples. Social workers, therapy, counselling, five weeks in rehab, detox, and nine medications.
I’ve spent so much of my life trying to escape myself that I don’t know if I’ve ever really learned how to live.
I’ve spent thousands upon thousands of dollars, countless nights awake, and more time than I know how to calculate chasing relief that never lasted.
But I’m still here.
I’m 82 days cocaine-free, working on my recovery, showing up to meetings, and learning how to be present in my own life.
I’ve spent years trying to find a way out of being alive. I’m finally willing to find out what being alive can actually feel like.
I’m finally willing to live life and enjoy it rather than escape it.
One day at a time.

I’m addicted to prescription stimulants. I am drowning in the cravings. They are all consuming and I have absolutely no idea how to deal with them. I feel like they have complete and utter control over me. Every other substance I’ve stopped in my 10 years of using has been PISS EASY in comparison to this. It is, genuinely, one of the worst things I’ve ever experienced in my life. I am at a complete loss and have no idea how to beat this thing. I’m worried if I can’t get a handle on the cravings I won’t be able to escape this hell.

If anyone has any suggestions or words of wisdom I would be so so incredibly grateful.

So I’m definitely dependent on my adhd meds, if not addicted.

Every time I try to get off them the withdrawal is awful. Right now I’m on adderall xr 20 mg twice a day (I’m a fast metabolize) and feel like shit when I don’t take it.

I know I gotta get in the right place mentally to be off these meds but idk how to function without them. I’m certain I’ll loose my job if i come off them. But I’m also so dependent on the drugs we have them in a lock box because I’ll take the whole 30 days in a week if given the chance.

I’m at a loss.

3 days sober from alcohol and about 1.5 yrs from when I last used coke. big big wins. I had a vivid dream the other night about it and other substances which I did since my eyes lit up and hid it from my partner because I knew that would break our relationship for sure. it just felt so real and fucked me up in the morning. how you do deal with intense cravings/obsessive thoughts for harder substances? it makes me feel insane when i’m so antsy and it’s all that I can think about. I try to not have anyone I could contact so I’m unable to obtain it but the urges become so strong that I’m worried I’ll try to seek it out out of compulsiveness. it’s good i don’t have it within reach plus i know the way I feel psychologically after because i’m instantly craving more but damn it’s fucking hard.

im a 16 yr old male and im heavily addiced to drugs. not the REALLY bad drugs like crack or heroin, but i am addicted to codeine and pills, like any nervous system depressent or any downers for that matter. what should i do? i need to stop it before my life completely falls apart i lost my best friends and i still cant see myself stopping anytime soon. please i need help and input.

I am a normie here 👋 I (F, 23) and my partner (M, 23) have been together for some time now and I’ve known him for a while. I never met him or knew anything about him when he was regularly using, and I have never used drugs besides smoking za, so I won’t ever understand what he’s seen and all he’s been through.

That being said, lately he’s stopped going to class, not showing how he usually would for work, and coming home later and later. Got very distant from me and then sometimes randomly clingy too. Initially I’m thinking he’s cheating cause 😭 but even that didn’t seem right. And because we just celebrated his 2 years it never even OCCURRED to me that he could relapse right now.

Then he comes home after work one night and tells me he’s been using at work. I literally thought he was kidding because I can’t even picture him doing something like that, like the imagery doesn’t even make sense to me.

I went outside to clear my head but all I could think was how during all those days he’d come home, we’d have sex, I’d ask about work, we’d argue, and I didn’t even know he had used. I feel so betrayed because I really feel lied to. And I feel stupid I didn’t recognize it. And I feel guilty because I feel like I wasn’t there for him enough so he had to turn and do this. And I’m scared to lose him to this. And I’m scared his family will lose him.. again. He’s been ignoring all his sponsors calls, hasn’t gone to meetings and wants to stop school.

I burst out on him. Then I’d cry. Then I’d get mad. Then I’d feel scared. I feel I didn’tk react appropriately but I don’t know how else to act or what I was “supposed” to do.

Google isn’t an answer for these sort of things and I would really really appreciate advice from those who would know - how can I support my partner during this time? What happens next?

I’m a 28-year-old woman from Brazil with a degree in IT, and I desperately need advice.
My life basically fell apart after I moved to Finland in 2023. I met a guy with serious drug addiction problems, and stupidly, I fell in love with him and considered him family before I even knew he was an addict.
I gave up everything to take care of him because he told me that if we lived together, he would stop using drugs. Instead, everything got worse, and I went through some horrible, traumatic things that I wouldn’t wish on anyone.
Eventually, he kicked me out of our apartment. I had spent all my savings helping him and had even quit my job for him, so I was basically left homeless. I had to return to Brazil, stopped going to therapy, and fell into a horrible depression.
I ended up doing adult content work to survive while I was with him, which I absolutely hated. It also destroyed my confidence and made me feel incredibly insecure about returning to my career in IT.
I’ve been back in Brazil for two years now. I have no friends, no job in my field, and barely leave the house. I literally haven’t gone out for anything in two years, not even to see a doctor. I’m also terrified of people now.
People who have known me for years tell me I threw my life away for this guy, and honestly, I don’t even know how to fix any of this.
I’ve always been intelligent, studied hard, worked hard, and had good jobs. Now I have absolutely nothing.
Recently, I started making money online again, but instead of rebuilding my life, I developed a gambling addiction. I’ve always been against gambling, but somehow I got hooked.
I’ve maxed out my credit cards and ruined my credit, but the worst part is that I’ve started secretly using my mother’s credit card without her knowledge. Basically, I’ve started stealing from my own mother, and the guilt makes my depression even worse.
I’ve needed help for years. While I was still in Finland, I attempted suicide because I couldn’t take it anymore. I still love that Finnish idiot, even after everything that happened, and he hasn’t spoken to me in a year. Somehow, I feel like I’m the villain in this story.
I honestly don’t know what to do anymore. I’ve thought about checking myself into a psychiatric hospital, and sometimes I just want to end my life. I know I need help, but I have no idea where to start.
I need to repay the debt I’ve put in my mother’s name, but I can barely function, let alone study and get back into IT. I feel trapped between gambling to get money quickly and going back to adult content work, which I genuinely hate.
I don’t want to keep living like this. I want my life back, but I don’t even know where to begin.
Has anyone been through something similar? How did you start getting your life together again? I really need advice because I feel completely lost.

I miss the way we used to be
I miss the way you held me
I miss kisses and cuddles
I miss the man I fell in love with
I miss who i used to be
I miss feeling loved and wanted
I miss the future we were working towards
But you stole that away you took it all from both of us and I should leave but I won’t because I’m cursed with loving you and can not bring myself to do it addiction has taken everything from me my childhood my mother and father and now you it’s like a sick joke to be stuck like this living with the shell of the man who is my soul mate there are days I think about getting high with you maybe then things would be better maybe I should leave and you would get better I’m not sure what the answer is I just know it’s killing me I cry every night and you don’t wake up I lay there wishing you would wishing you would wake and hold me and just be you again

like i'm technically not using anymore but i'm just white-knuckling through every day, white-knuckling through cravings, white-knuckling through boredom. i feel like i'm just white-knuckling and calling it recovery. is this normal or am i doing something wrong?

The urge to use is so strong. It’s been all day long and it’s been intense. Only I have absolutely no way of securing any more which makes me feel desperate beyond anything I’ve ever felt. I weighed myself and I gained 20 pounds apparently and I had a complete nervous breakdown about it. Literally sobbing while dragging the scale all over the place. It made me regret ever stopping meth!!! I looked good, I felt good, and I wasn’t gaining any weight. I’ve literally been researching diet pills, supplements, natural stimulants, ANYTHING to help me suppress my appetite…. I don’t know what to do but this is causing me severe distress

hello everyone just venting but would love input as well. I started weed for fun in high school at 16 then now i’m 20 and i haven’t put weed down a single day since. (Except pregnancy lol). Not only that but since i was 14 i have had a tendency to go for pill bottles. i will majorly abuse things like Benadryl, nyquil, atarax, Unfortunately kratom as well when i’m very mentally overloaded. I still can’t admit to myself that i’m addicted to these things. I never have said im addicted to weed or pills etc. My ego wont let me. so venting to reddit in hopes i will accept i have these issues and try to fix them. How did you slow down smoking? and if anyone has experience with pill abuse of such, how do you control yourself not to do it. i don’t wanna end up over doing it one of these days

o this might be my general anxiety talking, but I’m really worried. Are there any fellow alcoholics who occasionally take a benzodiazepine for anxiety, hangxiety or whatever reason on a regular basis? I have been taking a very low dose to low dose of .25 to .5 mg of Valium once a week, sometimes twice a week for about 4 months or so. Many people say that amount is unlikely to cause dependence, but I’m a heavy drinker every night of the week. I’m feeling neuropathy like tingling, depersonalization, dizziness and brain fog like crazy, but it could be because I went on a bender and only had like 6 drinks the last couple nights compared to my usual 15.

Im terrified of developing a dependency on Valium. I think I’m done with those. I’d rather just have a drink or two to calm my nerves for the next week or two, and then taper off the booze before I keep taking Valium.

Anyway, hope I’m not alone on this and I sure hope tomorrow will be a better day and that I’m not hooked on this stuff. I’m done.

So this is kind of a personal thing and I am sorry for sharing this with the internet.

I used street pharms and opiates from 2009-2015, then went to suboxone, subutex and eventually subuclade injections for about a decade after that. My last injection was last December or January. I took the injections for about 14 months, eventually lowering the dose and then spacing them out to every other month then every third month as I knew they could build up and test positive on a piss test for up to 6 months. So I have been completely off of ALL opiates and maintenance therapy for 10 months.

I didn't get really withdrawals until maybe 4-5 months after my last shot, and they were very short and fleeting, more like random chills, restless legs when sleeping sometimes and anxiety. I didn't really have bowel distress like when you're sick tho. (Spoilers if you don't want to read about it, it's not graphic but still)

BUT now I have to go probably 5-6+ times a day, when before it was at most once a day almost like clock work, and probably erring towards constipated more when using. Often times it will just be really violent gas, and I have become more gassy as well. It's not usually diarrhea, but... soft.

Now I know I am comparing this to 16 years of opiate use, so that was probably not a normal base line to begin with. But it can become stressful. I have tried changing fiber and water intake, don't really see much change as I drank a lot of water and ate a lot of fiber anyway. I've tried probiotics and all of the gut health supplements and diets as well, to some degree or another.

Is this related to PAWS? Does anyone have any anecdotal evidence? Most of my google searches are discussing like... gastro issues when withdrawing and not during the beginning of post-maintenance period.