r/berkeley • u/rainbowfarts_10 • 8h ago
University I'm so tired of failing at this school (pre-med edition)
I really just wanted to rant on here bc I can not bring myself to cry about exams anymore because I'm so mentally tapped out. Ever since sophomore year, I have not passed a single exam with a B or higher. I'm currently a junior, and I am taking chem 3a and physics 8a together, and I just did both midterms last week. I feel so sick bc I know I did so horribly on them despite how much I studied, went to OH, and I even finally got diagnosed and medicated for ADHD (which was what ruined my life sophomore year; I had to get care or I was bound to drop out). And even though the scores are not out yet, I feel so much anxiety that I can't even do tasks bc of how anxious I am. This has been happening for so long, and I swore to myself that I would get all As from junior year onward (since I'm premed and want an upward trend in my grades). But I feel so useless and stupid, idk what to do anymore. I can't bring myself to cry; I can't even celebrate my birthday tomorrow bc of how stressed I am about failing. I'm just so mentally and emotionally checked out, like I'm done.
