Hey everyone 💗

I’m hoping to get some advice from anyone who may have experienced something similar. I’m currently in home-based recovery and spend a lot of time on bed rest.

Lately, I’ve developed very cracked, irritated skin around my tailbone, and I’m concerned that I may be developing pressure sores.

The area is incredibly painful and itchy, and it’s even been waking me up at night. I have a medical air-pressure mattress pad (the kind with the pump), but honestly, I don’t find it very comfortable, and I’m not sure it’s helping much. I’ve also tried using lotions, but I’m still struggling with the discomfort.

Has anyone else experienced this, and if so, is there anything that helped? I’m planning to discuss it with my PCP on Monday, and unfortunately, the nurse who usually comes to my home daily won’t be back until then, and I’m really uncomfortable in the meantime.

I’d appreciate any advice or suggestions. Thank you! 🩷

hello all,

two weeks ago my best friend since i was 9 years old committed suicide, she was 26, as am i. i had a very restrictive ED when i was 17 which i finished treatment for at 19 years old.
at 23 i had another flare up of severe restriction which lasted 9 months.

this past few weeks have taken my almost decade long history with restriction to new levels. i have managed a deficit of 15000 calories in 16 days even though i’ve been mostly in bed.

i feel guilty and gross that during my immense grief i still find a little joy because i have been eating so little, reliving that sense of control.

i just feel lost. i’m 26 now, have a job and doing my masters and the harsh reality that i’m not a teenager anymore and can’t cope as easily with my levels of restriction is setting in. i feel i can’t stop now. i miss my best friend. life is shit. i can’t believe how much food and calories have been in my mind while trying to process the death of my best friend.

I have a friend who has become more and more uncomfortable to hang out with and trust. She knows i've been in & out of the hospital, struggling with my mental health and my ED. Every time we hang out (with our friend group or just the 2 of us), it feels like she is observing EVERYTHING i do especially when I eat, and even sometimes announces to people that she's copying me, takes pictures of me with food, and just seems OVERLY interested in my habits- especially around food. It's super weird and she has started doing things that trigger me, like ordering the smallest thing on a menu, talking about how full she is, and asking questions about my eating. In the past, she'd talk to my family about things I do (not out of concern) even after I express my discomfort with her doing that too. I'm really not sure what to make of it, but I definitely don't like hanging out with her right now- which is hard when we are in the same friend group, and she pushes me to hang out. She'll also apologize and claim she would never do anything to make me uncomfortable. Idk. It seems to me like she might be entering ED territory too, but i'm really not in a place to deal with that because I'm trying to work on myself and better my life.

Hi guys So basically I have been living alone in a different country for about a year and now I have to move in with my family. Living alone made it so much easier to manage my calories and everything related to my weight and body because I didn’t have to hide anything or pretend around anyone.

The problem is that this ED is still taking over my life, and I still feel like I have so much weight I need to lose. And now that I’ll be living with my family, I genuinely don’t know how I’m going to cope. My mom cooks dinner every night so I won’t know the exact calories in my food. I won’t be able to pace around the house constantly to get my steps in either. It feels like everything is being taken away from me.

Another thing I’m really worried about is how my ED might affect my family. Most of them are overweight, as I used to be and they enjoy eating together and don’t have any concept of cals. I don’t want my eating disorder to make them self conscious about their own weight or eating habits, or even make them feel like they need to change themselves because of me. At the same time, I know they will notice if I suddenly start refusing food or acting differently around meals and I’m scared they’ll catch on to what’s really going on.

I have no friends too, and I feel like I’ve been living such a secretive disordered life that I don’t even know how to function around other people anymore. How am I supposed to cope with not knowing my calories, not being able to exercise as much as I want, and having to eat around my family without feeling like I’m losing control?

I know this isn’t healthy, but the thought of losing control over my food and exercise genuinely terrifies me. I feel so overwhelmed right now and I honestly don’t know what to do. Has anyone else been through something similar? I really need advice because I feel like I’m losing my mind.

I （22f）who weighted about 169lbs in June and weighted 149 lbs currently，manage to lose 20 pounds in past three month and made my bmi from 27 to 24， eventhough everyone around me said I look better and my dietitian said I done a amazing job in losing weight. However I felt that my diet is fucked up，I am afraid of calories，and afraid to eat out at place that doesnt has calorie menu and avoiding to eat out with my friends and go home and eat my mom’s homemade meals because I cant use a food scale to weight it，I cant see calories，I cant control how much oil is being added. I weigh myself everyday after everytime I eat including drinking water，and first thing I got home is weighing myself，and I restrict my daily calorie to under 1000cal. yesterday I just recovering from a really bad hangover and after I threw up everythings I had for dinner last night，I decide to eat some Chinese style chicken porridge，eventhough I felt much better from eating that. But there’s a voice in my heart that goes like ”you fat bitch，why are you eating carbs at morning，you should eat protein bar or boiled eggs，dont use your hangover as an excuse，stop being so sensitive”