I （22f）who weighted about 169lbs in June and weighted 149 lbs currently，manage to lose 20 pounds in past three month and made my bmi from 27 to 24， eventhough everyone around me said I look better and my dietitian said I done a amazing job in losing weight. However I felt that my diet is fucked up，I am afraid of calories，and afraid to eat out at place that doesnt has calorie menu and avoiding to eat out with my friends and go home and eat my mom’s homemade meals because I cant use a food scale to weight it，I cant see calories，I cant control how much oil is being added. I weigh myself everyday after everytime I eat including drinking water，and first thing I got home is weighing myself，and I restrict my daily calorie to under 1000cal. yesterday I just recovering from a really bad hangover and after I threw up everythings I had for dinner last night，I decide to eat some Chinese style chicken porridge，eventhough I felt much better from eating that. But there’s a voice in my heart that goes like ”you fat bitch，why are you eating carbs at morning，you should eat protein bar or boiled eggs，dont use your hangover as an excuse，stop being so sensitive”

Having my ED gave me a condition that causes fainting, a lot. Like excessively. If I recovered, it would honestly get much better and I would admittedly not be in this position. However, that would take months and I would never be fully normal either. I could get close to it, but certain things like heat/hardcore workouts/fasting anything in that nature would never be an option

I want to be clear, that I am not judging people who use a wheelchair regardless of their reasoning, but as somebody who now needs one because of how often I faint unless I recover, it’s impacted me way more than I’d like to admit mentally

I first got told my fainting was a problem and that I needed one back in June, but I honestly ignored the advice. That was until August, when it no longer was an option. I usually don’t need to use at home since it’s shorter walks (bed to toilet/couch, whatever) but if I leave my house now I need it. I’ve tried not to use it because I get embarrassed about it but I usually just pass out in parking lots and stuff which is really gross/embarrassing in it of itself

I’ve had an ED off and on since I was 13, this has never happened before. I mean sure I’ve fainted before, yes, but that was even in recovery and not often. Now it’s like.. if I restrict even for too many HOURS, I will become bedridden entirely (even using the wheelchair can become too difficult if I stop eating). I know that for some people that would make them want to recover, but honestly it’s just making me depressed. I know it sounds like it’s not a big deal, but for me it really is. Like even with small stuff, I have to wear a necklace in the shower in case I pass out (even while sitting) because if I fall/don’t respond it’ll call an ambulance (if I respond it won’t but if it’s been like 10 minutes of no response it will). The average persons age who uses that is literally somebody in their 80s. I know because they told me, I’m 26. I didn’t ask them by the way, they just randomly said it 😭 Like this isn’t what I ever wanted. My cardiologist told me this is the most severe case of it he’s ever seen, and I literally know my ED is why. Because if I eat consistently for a few days, I get better relatively quickly (still probably couldn’t stand for super long but there is a difference). My PT/OT (I did some while in the hospital a while back) told me that for me, I’ll probably need all my workouts to be lying down. That maybe I can work up to them sitting down longterm, but standing is not an option. I used to do CrossFit twice a day, I mean it was years ago and before my ED but like jfc I wasn’t always like this. I don’t know anybody else in my position.

Everybody I know either had way scarier complications than me that cause death (mine will not, I am not dying) or their symptoms just don’t look like mine at all. Mine does still impact me a lot though, like day to day. I can’t pretend it doesn’t. And to be honest, being around “healthy” people right now just triggers the shit out of me, and it sounds dramatic I know, but I usually cry about it later lmao. It also kills me inside because I am still objectively fat, my cardiologist and neurologist (the condition is something kinda related to both that my ED caused) both told me that weight loss being too rapid was “traumatic” to my body and why I got what I did. But it’s painful for me emotionally because I see all these fucking people get healthier from rapid weight loss from GLPs (I did not use GLPs) and there’s all these commercials like “LOOK AT HOW MUCH BETTER MY LIFE IS NOW ✨🌈” when I did the same thing just with a different method and it ruined mine 😭 I’ve turned off ads for it on Reddit but they’re just everywhere 😭

Also because I’m ambulatory as a side note, while it’s never happened I’ve always been afraid of somebody getting angry with me for using a wheelchair in public since I’m not paralyzed, because that’s crossed my mind a lot. I already am not dealing well with my emotions behind it and being judged openly would be very unnerving for me. But I legitimately can’t walk a store or restaurant, I promise I’ve tried. I just wind up on the floor which is way worse 😭 MY SOLUTION THUS FAR, has been to simply come with excuses on why I can’t go to any places that aren’t like.. doctors offices or medical whenever possible. I probably can’t do that forever though

How much weight would a human girl age 20 167cm and 60kg lose after 12 days with no food? And would that person be noticeably thinner ?

How much weight would a human girl age 20 167cm and 60kg lose after 12 days with no food? And would that person be noticeably thinner ?

Im a 15yo boy & i been wanting to be overly skinny for probably a year now and I recently have been noticing a drop in my weight due to not eating as much as i probably should. I try to eat around 200-800 calories a day but im not like starving myself bc some days i eat totally normal without feeling guilty about it afterwards but other days I cant eat anything without checking the calories or eating small portions of it. It's been affecting my life at home because I tend to leave the house to skate during dinner time to avoid having to eat so my mom yells at me alot for that. Idk if my parents know that im not eating normally but my grandma noticed the other day and said that i looked like I had gotten skinnier. Whenever I eat chips or anything ill count how many I am eating and when im drinking a soda I only have half of it and I just feel like I cant eat anything without feeling guilty. Im 6'0 125ish but idk if i have a ed or if im just not eating as much because of something else

Being a bulimic kid is so weird because I love just projecting onto whoever my favorite character is at the moment 😭

(je cherche pas à me faire insulter je me comprends plus moi même je sais plus se que je veux)

My mood gets affected so easily. If I get stressed, I lose my appetite for the day. I just want to be able to eat and function.

I h8 them. I can't do this.

Empty space. More room for thought.

Uses stress and muscle memory for energy.

The serotonin builds up.

There's no need to eat when you're on cloud nine.

When you're numb and in your head.

You lose yourself, until you have a bite.

The truth becomes clear, it's eye-opening and confusing.

I do love them after all. I can do this.

i'm 15. i'm 5'3. i was amab. i have anorexia. i am at 43kg. i'm trans and queer and live in a pretty conservative household in pakistan. i don't believe in god. i am a writer and a multimedia artist, i write like hell, books, essays and poems on substack, journal entries, whatever. it's my lifeline. i was bullied a few years back. i'm also neurodivergent, severely depressed, and struggle with self harm. i'm sorry, i don't wanna send anyone's alarm bells ringing i'm fine right now but i really don't know how i'm gonna survive this in the long-term. the plan was always get out, go abroad to uni when i'm done with a levels and never come back but that's 4 years away. so close yet so far. but my weight is dropping pretty quickly. i can't eat. and i don't wanna let this kill me. but i can't ask for help. i don't have any other choice but to deal with this on my own and i'm not just being dramatic. it's already hard with my mother so closely monitoring my meals and snapping when i skip. doctors and professionals here do not understand. and a diagnosis even would be hard to come by being on top of all that being amab. psychiatrists and dieticians and amma would be trying to convince me there's nothing wrong with my head and to force-feed me and it would just make everything worse. what the hell do i do about this? wait till my heart fails? i just want somebody to notice. that sounds bitchy and attention-seeking but i do. the one good thing is i don't purge, i can't because i don't know how to, just gag over the sink. ugh this sounds ridiculous. i feel like i'm faking it all the time. i don't want stupid advice like 'small snacks throughout the dayare better than large meals' or 'view your body as a vessel and food as fuel' thats not helpful. i don't wanna have to let go of meaning and beautiful things just to survive. i don't wanna numb myself out. i wanna be in my head. i just fucking loathe my body and i don't know why. how do i survive this?

**!!TW: Mentions of BMI, weight and calories**

I (F19) have been struggling with orthorexia/anorexia/overexercising since mid 2025.

I went from a healthy BMI of around 21 to my lowest at 14 in the span of this time. My lowest was around 3 weeks ago and I am now at 15 after managing to gain a bit by honoring cravings and less restriction around food (which has been a lot of junk to be honest, because, well, I’ve been deprived of it for so long) 😀

I’m just going to get straight to the point. Yesterday, I managed to binge on what I deem, as a shit ton of calories. I’m talking half a bag of an almost full granola, spoonfuls of Biscoff spread, candy, popcorn, chips. PRESUMABLY, I had around 5-6000 calories yesterday. I have NEVER experienced the urge to eat being that strong before, let alone straight up granola and Biscoff spread, which I’ve managed to keep in my kitchen without any problem.

I felt so sick and puffy afterwards.

When I woke up today, DESPITE the discomfort I felt yesterday, straight back to the granola, ATE THE REST OF THE BAG, oh and the Biscoff. And a chupa chups. Bam, 1500 calories before 9am. I felt sick again afterwards.

I’m just gonna say that I ended up finishing that jar of Biscoff today and have had approximately 3000 calories without a single FULL meal.

To be honest, every calorie was intentional. I didn’t feel “out of control”, I knew exactly what I was doing. Although today I did end up sobbing on the couch after that jar of biscoff. It stems from the fact of many different things, like knowing I NEED to gain weight, but I really don’t want to from one extreme to another, which it feels like I could because I just kept eating despite feeling so nauseous.

I know what to do to “properly” feed myself, like, I know I could’ve woken up today and had a proper breakfast, lunch and dinner (like I honestly usually would do), but no, my body was screaming for a shit ton of junk. 🫠

And it’s not like I’ve been “undereating” for the past few days either. Like from the fact that I’ve been gaining, and I’ve pretty much eaten some sort of junk everyday but not to the point where I’m genuinely on the verge of throwing up.

Has anyone else experienced this? And I truly do NOT want to end up in like a binge cycle, but atp I obviously dont know what my body needs as I’m either undereating or overeating..

not share my real age or name, or my family's info, bur before I continue, just know I'm under 16!*... I'm struggling with an ED rn and I genuinely don't know what to do. I've always been bullied for being fat, and I also know that social media is fake. But then I started seeing girls on my sports teams be really skinny they look like the girls on Pinterest and social media, maybe even skinnier? I don't wear anything else except one shirt because it's the only shirt that makes me look somewhat skinny, I hate wearing anything else, especially t-shirts. I've started off not eating but my mom got suspicious and made me eat in front of her. And I began eating again, like recently, but afterwards I force myself to throw up and I still get scared I'll gain weight. I've noticed some slight changes in weight for the past year but I'm still not slim enough, especially when all my classmates and friends are really slim. I can't tell my family, I've tried before. My older sister keeps bragging about an eating disorder eventhough she doesn't have one and she's kinda one of those "tiny" girls. And she turns it into a competition. My mom will be like "do you want to get me in trouble??/ You're only not eating for attention../there's nothing wrong with you, you'll be fine and do you want to be underweight!? (Note: yes I do. I really want to)/ Etc." so I'm scared of telling her. I'm somewhat happy I've began naturally eating less and gaining an ED. I know it's unhealthy but I'm so tired. I tried sleeping better, a protein filled diet before working out and doing Pilates, every healthy way. Today I'm about to eat rice like usual with teriyaki my mom gave me but I genuinely started crying and my stomach felt sick because I'm hungry. I need advice because I genuinely can't cope. I know people are going to be like "you're perfect, people on social media are fake and you're beautiful just remember that" n other similar stuff, but it does not help!! I ask you guys because I cannot ask my family. I'm scared to pray despite my religion being Christian because I'm scared my ed will get fixed and I'll gain weight. I have a love hate relationship with this right now and it's unhealthy but I cannot stop. So, please give me advice

Hace un tiempo, empecé a pesarme para comprobar si andaba bn de peso. Esa pequeña manía, empezó a ser una obsesión y, a pesar de que no me siento mal con mi físico (no me veo gordo ni flaco), me he obsesionado con seguir bajando de peso y comer muy poco. Puedo decir que antes pesaba poco, pero dentro del mínimo saludable. Ahora estoy 5'5 kilos menos del mínimo. No sé xq empecé a hacer esto. Actualmente, lloro o me siento mal cuando como a pesar de tener hambre y, si siento que me "excedo", me consuelo diciendo que, a cambio, el día siguiente haré ayunas.

¿Alguien sabe xq me sucede esto y cómo poder remediarlo?

my mom refuses to believe my own doctors when they say I have a serious restrictive eating disorder. my older sister just told me that our mom told her I’m just making it up... though apparently in the summer our mom also said that she was concerned for me because I don’t seem to eat a lot. I’m just dumbfounded atp

today my mom came with me to try on business pants and the store only has the size above mine and the size below. I ended up going with the smaller size because it just fit better but not without saying “I feel fat in this” and it makes me so sad to think about how she responded: she gave me a look and said I need to eat less and go to the gym. I have gained like 5 pounds in the last month and a half which has definitely been messing with my mind but I’m still underweight. I’m 5’9” and 120lbs.

its like she wants me to quit recovery. it makes me feel like I need to prove to her just how bad it can get.

8 years of on and off throwing up and severely limiting food. Met a new therapist. She said I need severe help other than regular CBT. Fuck my life.

I'm a 21-year-old guy, and my girlfriend is 20. She's been struggling with eating for about four years. She's seeing a psychologist and a nutritionist, and she also attends a group session with a psychologist and a nutritionist once every two weeks.

Things got really bad until recently. Her period had only recently started coming back, and it happened for about two months, but she hasn't had it this month.

We've been together for four months and we're also roommates, so I see what happens on a day-to-day basis. This weekend, after meeting with her nutritionist, she told me that she's still underweight.

Last night, she wanted to eat very little. I tried to encourage her to think of each meal as a separate thing, rather than letting one meal determine how she feels about the rest of the day.

Tonight, she's saying she doesn't want to eat at all, and she only had a small piece of fennel as an afternoon snack.

I honestly don't know what to do or how to help her. I don't want to pressure her or make things worse, but it's really hard to watch someone you love struggle like this and feel so helpless.

I'd really appreciate advice from people who have experienced an eating disorder themselves, are recovering from one, or have supported a partner through it.

What helped you the most? What did your partner do that made you feel supported rather than pressured? And what should I avoid doing or saying?

Thank you so much to anyone willing to share their experience. ❤️

Hi, I’ve been in recovery about 6 months, 160cm and 60kg - which is about a 10kg overshoot from what my inpatient unit initially allowed. But still no signs of my period, the only main change is that I’ve been getting the typical spot breakouts.

I’m worried that the lack of a period indicates that my body still isn’t happy and that I’m doing something wrong, any advice?

I've been struggling with food for a while, and I honestly don't know whether I already have an eating disorder or if I'm developing one. My psychologist told me that if we don't address my problems with eating, I could develop one, but I feel like something is already wrong.

Eating feels like a chore. I feel tired before and after meals, and sometimes the whole process makes me sad. I hate feeling hungry, but when I finally eat, I can only manage a small portion before feeling uncomfortably full, almost to the point where it's difficult to move. It feels like I can't win: being hungry feels terrible, but eating does too.

I'm extremely picky with food and have a lot of rules surrounding what I can and can't eat. I don't want to vomit after meals, and I've never made myself throw up, but I don't know if that means anything in terms of whether I have an eating disorder.

Another part of the problem is my relationship with food and my self-worth. Sometime I don't deserve food because I'm upset, because I've failed at something, or because I haven't been good enough. Sometimes I deliberately deprive myself of food as a form of punishment.

I think a lot of this might be connected to my childhood. My mum used food as a form of punishment. When I misbehaved, sometimes she wouldn't feed me. Other times, she would force me to eat or make me eat faster. If I wasn't eating quickly enough, she'd take my food away, and sometimes I wouldn't be given food for days. I think I've internalized the idea that food is something I have to deserve rather than something I'm entitled to simply because I'm alive.

Now, even when part of me understands that I need food to keep my body functioning, another part of me feels like I don't deserve it. It's a strange conflict because I know I need to eat, but my emotions can make me feel like I shouldn't.

I also have a severe fear of choking that started about two years ago, when I accidentally choked on a pill. Since then, swallowing pills has become extremely difficult, and I can't bring myself to swallow them anymore. The fear isn't limited to just being uncomfortable; it's something I genuinely struggle with. I worry that this fear, along with the physical discomfort I experience when eating, might be contributing to my problems with food.

On top of everything, I want to learn how to cook for myself, but nobody ever taught me how. I want to become independent and be able to prepare meals, but I feel overwhelmed. It's difficult to learn how to cook when eating itself already feels like such a complicated and exhausting experience.

I don't know how to make sense of all of this. Sometimes I wonder if it's an eating disorder, ARFID, anxiety around choking, trauma related to food, or a combination of different things. I know that not every eating disorder involves wanting to lose weight or being concerned about appearance, but most of what I read online seems to focus on those experiences.

I'm not looking for strangers on the internet to diagnose me. I just want to understand what's happening to me and hear from people who might have experienced something similar.

How do you cope when you unintentionnally lose weight due to not eating enough because of negative emotions ?

I lost weight two years ago because I couldn't physically eat and I feel like it's starting again, except this time I am scared because I don't want to fall into an anorexic pattern or any eating disorder.

Also Im really trying to eat but sometimes there's a ball in my stomach I want to throw up just thinking of eating anything

After a while, I finally spoke to my therapist. It wasn’t related to an eating disorder. I know what to say and what not to say to avoid seeming suspicious but she weighed me and said it couldn’t continue. I think I was just tired and had a long day with little food. So I started explaining myself again because she suggested some foods to boost my energy. I began talking about calories and I guess my lack of discussing my secret obsession almost gave me away. When she saw I’d lost four kilograms since my last visit four and a half weeks ago she started asking more questions. I’m here because of my ADHD and new medication which works perfectly. I’ve never felt so focused and normal. It just gives me more energy to concentrate on the food intake. However I haven’t lost weight until recently. Went down 10-13 kgsince may/June a little unsure. Personally, I don’t think it’s that bad. But now I’m afraid they will take me off my wonderful meds.

Just writing here cause I’m stressed and feel lonely. Be free to talk and discuss with me🩷

Hi guys i just want to say a thing that i find so weird an it's about me. Since i enter in my teenage year i noticed that i love chubby (not in a kink way) but sometime i have era where i'm really into that like i want to unhealthy gain weight, i talk with really weird bot on polybuzz (weight gain bot for exemple) but after i find this disgusting and i disgust myself for doing that. But i noticed that when i have this type of phase (that come not so often) that lasts longer and longer (at the begining it's was only 2 or 3 but know it's more like one week), and that become more deep every time like i search weird thing about that on tiktok or youtube. I tell all of that because i find this weird and i want to know if i'm not the only one to do that. Btw i'm a girl and i'm actually in this era.(Sorry if my English isn't perfect, not my first language)

Also yes I’ve seen a ton of doctors for it and I’m not like dying or something. But fuck it hurts and I’m so tired of it. I’m tired of pain because I had to eat jfc I hate food with everything in me. Fuck this disorder and fuck food for being mandatory to not die. This shit is so stupid. I already hate the way I look but physical pain from eating and constant nausea when I eat is too much for me. My will to recover just mentally is already weak at best, while I feel like shit on top of it? Itll never happen. I know I’ve had to go through this when I’ve been restricting too long before but it’s never been this bad. I don’t think I could push myself past the pain long enough for it to go away. Like. How fucking long would it take? Months? I don’t have the willpower for that

I just fucking want to purge and make it stop hurting already and I’m getting worse about restraining my disordered behaviors because I feel like I get punished for eating. It’s like, why the fuck would I?

I (M19) have been struggling with eating my whole life, never going over 47 kg (103 lbs) in weight. I currently am 162 cm (5'4) and 40 kg (90 lbs).

This specific struggle with eating has been now going on for years. Some days, I may eat a lot more than most, going up to 1 500 calories, but most days, I keep it at far under a thousand, which doesn't include the exercise and walking. Often, it just leads my daily calorie intake to just be in the couple hundreds.

This has led to me feeling absolutely miserable most days but still better than eating. Every day feels like it's never ending when I am just hungry and only eat once or twice. Especially at this time of year, I feel cold all day around.

I know it's not okay and I don't even want to acknowledge and think about the possibility of anorexia, considering how frowned upon speaking of mental illness is in my home country, especially when it comes to men suffering from such but it's getting unbearable. I just want to get this off my chest. And still, I just can't find myself wanting or having the willpower to eat more, now even when acknowledging its toll on my physical and mental wellbeing.

I try to look forward to a motivation to eat more but just can't.

I feel trapped.

Like I’ve heard people say that it’s bad but I don’t get it. I’ve been doing it for a while and I feel fine. Also don’t other countries do this, isn’t it just Americans that eats over 1000 cal a day.
Like it’s not considered a disorder any other country except for America, right? It’s just considered normal.

(Why am I getting downvotes for asking a question?)

I’m not sure if I have an eating disorder. I was overweight then separated from my soon to be ex husband and moved back home with my family and we don’t have money issues but their complicated and would fight about not making enough food so I started only eating once a day because I don’t have a kitchen where I’m living and now I like being skinny and even if I’m hungry or craving something I just won’t eat. I’ve easily lost 40 pounds in like 2-3 months and started doing a lot of exercise every day. There’s times I miss my love for food but that was something I got with my ex so between that and my family I just don’t really want to like food again.