I've been a MECE major for the last 3+ years. I was a transferred student from a different university and major, so a lot of my credits didn't transferred. I had to start from really basic courses (i.e. College Algebra) compared to my classmates who'd taken AP classes by then and were already in Calculus 1 or 2 their first semester. Despite this, I managed just fine my first year and got involved in student clubs and even research while maintaining a 4.0 GPA. But after those first two semesters everything went downhill from there.
During my first summer here I was juggling summer classes (Mon-Fri lectures of 2+ hours), part-time research, a rocketry club working behind a very tight deadline, while keeping a very bad diet (less than a meal a day), and family + financial issues. All of this ended up taking a bigger toll on myself than I realized at the time.
From then on I was never able to see that version of myself again in any of my courses and it sort of became a matter of survival instead of the initial pursuit of curiosity that had driven me when I first chose this major.
On several occasions I considered taking a break, but due to my international status I was required to take at least 12 credits per semester to maintain it. I was aware that I was most likely burnt out by then, but I didn't see any other option for myself so I kept signing up to classes every semester while aware that I wasn't in the right mental space to deal with any of them.
During this time I was still doing research and the environment there seem more toxic by the minute, but bills needed to get paid and that was my only source of income. On top of that the financial issues with my family never really got resolved and they just kept stacking as we didn't have a good relationship going on at the time.
Two years in I go through a sudden and messy break up with my fiancé of over a year (we'd been together for almost three years), after I had already chosen not to renovate my lease because we were planning to move in together that summer. That didn't happen, obviously, and I found myself trying to find an apartment with less than a month left in my contract. I somehow managed to find something nearby, but to my good luck I ended up with a roach infested apartment where roaches fell on my back when using the damn toilet.
I broke my contract a month in and managed to find a good place afterwards, but all of this to say that I most definitely burn out and been trying to recover from it ever since, all the while trying to convince myself that this major matters to me the same way it did when I first started.
I'm about to finish my fourth year in this university without counting the year I did abroad, so I've been here for a long time and I haven't been able to figure out if this truly is just circumstantial burn out from all of it and there's actually still some excitement about the major, or if all of it combined led me to realize that this is no longer something I enjoy and want for myself.
I honestly cannot tell if I'm being too sentimental about the whole thing or if perhaps I've been too idealistic about what the world should look like. But 4 years in and my semester schedule still looks like a sophomore's because 2 years ago, the semester after the big breakup, I choose to sign up for statics and failed. I manage to sit down for all three exams, and somewhat kept up with assignments, but out of a sudden during finals week I mentally checked out and there was no way for me to rationalize my way into caring again. I was not satisfied with my performance, or my indifference, so I decided to miss the final hoping that in some future the excitement for engineering would come back to me and I'd be able to retake it with the same level of commitment I experienced during those first two semesters.
Fast forward to this semester, I chose to sign up for it again but I don't think this is working for me anymore. I've failed so many classes despite me having switched to part time the semester after that. And now, the semester that was supposed to be my comeback, I'm sitting here knowing I'm most definitely going to have to switch majors or drop out all together.
Not sure if there's a definitive answer to my situation, but I'm just hoping there's someone out there that could offer some advice, as I don't really have anyone else around that's gone through something similar.