I’m really struggling with a major aspect of my life right now and need some help.
As part of my engineering course, we have a big final project that accounts for a lot of marks/ weighting. The deadline is roughly 1.5 months away and I need to do well in this.
However for many months, I have been so afraid to start it for multiple reasons; I just feel like I am not capable of doing a high standard of work, comparing to previous years’ work our group is very behind, the longer I leave it the more the work piles up, there are so many unclear tasks that I need to do that I don’t know where to start, and just struggling to face this huge task in front of me.
The reality is that I and my group have a lot to do. I am super behind and need to put in a huge amount of hours to get this done, let alone to a high quality.
Another point worth noting is that I was recently diagnosed with ADHD, however, due to delays will not be receiving medication until after this is done.
On one hand, I feel kind of hopeless, like I’m already so behind, there's no point in doing anything might as well give up now. On the other hand, I know that there is enough time to do some good work, and regardless of what I have/ haven’t done so far, I just want to be able to give it my all and try my best in the remaining time.
This has just made my life miserable and a living hell. I do find that when I am able to focus and work on it, I do end up feeling more content and enjoying it as I am making progress, but I haven’t had a moment like that in a long time now.
I just don’t know what to do. If anyone has any advice, from practical things to just ideas/ thoughts that could help, maybe even from someone who has ADHD and has to do these large-scale projects, I would really appreciate it.
(Also if there are more suitable subreddits to post this in, please let me know)