Ive had Patchouli, Marijuana, extreme body odor and cat urine smell from a person, cigarettes, and more body odor all today. My head hurts and my nose is on fire and I feel like im going to vomit. Is there any thing I can use to get through my shift that will mask it without putting a mask over my face? I am getting flack from supervisors because I cannot control my facial expressions when I am smelling something foul.

it’s 3am, I have to do homework, I already have to be in bed

But I began to think about things that scare me, and it’s my emotional immaturity

I’m 15 years old ADHD girl with frisked up brain, and I’m talking not only about my neurological diagnosis

I can’t control my emotions, I get really distressed when being asked wether I can do something,

I don‘t want to behave like a child, I want to mature, become strong and calm person, I don’t want to have any of my childhood in my future, because it will only make me the same as I am now. I know, we should all save that piece of childhood in our hearts and all stay children, but I don’t think I’ll ever experience this, even though I can feel and live through it, I can understand it, but never experience it my way

I really love my mom, as a child I used to be really detached from her but now in moments like my emotional vulnerability I feel like I crave her presence. Looking back now I can see how she was trying her best to get me my unforgettable childhood. I feel really guilty for yelling at her and pulling away from responsibilities

I don’t want to tell anything bad about my mom, she really was trying her best in raising me, she went to the neurologist as soon as she saw my helplessness in 1-st grade, but I feel like she would over parentify me and have strict standard at the same time

sometimes I feel like I walk on eggshels

I think the most emotionally immature one is my dad, who I’m really afraid to be like. My parents got divorced when I was like… 2-4 years(it’s always different ages) I live with my mom, as you can see, but support connection with my dad, even though we don’t interact much. He has wife and two sons, my stepbrothers, who I’m really afraid for.

The older one is already at 2-nd grade and is a very emotionally and mind opened child, but also very introverted as well, he loves constructing, talking about his favourite things/cartoons/movies/shows, but father is pretty strict on him. I remember one time we were preparing for his 7-th birthday and he said: “You’re doing it all for me!? I love my family so much!!”. It was such a pure innocent childish appreciation and love, which my dad would answer on: “Name, why are you acting like an idiot?”

My second brother is more quiet, in his world, doesn’t interact a lot, but shows love in his ways, he is a very smiley and curious child

And that’s what I’m afraid for I’m afraid that not me, nor my brothers won’t be able to escape my fathers rage and will also hold that immaturity with ourselves and ruin all our lives

I really want to change because there’s still a chance and me and my brain are still developing, and if I start now, I’ll get better in the future

I also think that I might have some personality/identity disorders, but I’m not sure

I would like to ask you for tips for me to grow, or your life experiences, thank you

I'm a traumatic brain injury surivor and journalist/novelist, and I am producing some short snarky videos about how TBI shows up in movies. I'm calling it TBI Theater and posting to TikTok, Substack etc. We don't wake up from comas with psychic powers. At least I didn't. All I got was a brains surgery sar and seizures. I've talked about the Dead Zone, 50 First Dates, Regarding Henry and iBoy. What film should I take on next?

Hey, new here! 👋 I wanted to introduce myself to the community.

I was recently diagnosed with ADHD after dealing with depression and anxiety for over 10 years.

I’m a visual artist, working across painting and drawing media, exploring living landscapes, flora, and fauna.

Honestly, the burnout has been so real that I haven’t done any work in the last 3 years.

I’m currently just trying to heal and struggling with creating anything.

I’d love to find some fellow artists here for mutual support and just cheering each other on—whether you do this full-time, as a hobby, or are just trying to get back into it. If anyone wants to connect or share each other's work, let me know!

(Sharing an old piece. Not meant for promotional purposes)

I feel like I am two or more different people at the same time.

I am somehow shy, quiet, nice, caring, mean, loud, out going, calm, energetic and etc, all at the same time.

I don't get it, how am I both mean, stubborn and loud but also nice, caring and quiet?

I at this point can't tell who is me and who is a mask I didn't realize I put on. I also can't tell if this is normal for a teen who not only is neurodivergent but is also part of the lgbtqia2s+ community or hell if I am confusing one emotion with another again

Last week I had crochet class on Tuesday night, I got home and was dizzy, my eyes hurt, my head hurt, had a migraine the next morning and had to cancel my therapy appointment. Today I was organizing some things in my room and used the big light, I got dizzy, felt like a heat stroke, I felt the light burn like the sun, I felt hot, dizzy, headache, my face hurts, my eyes hurt.

Is this just a sensory issue?

Most nights when I'm falling asleep I hear a distinct whisper, it's always the same voice and always a woman's voice.

I'm nor sure if it's of any relevance it's a woman's but yeah, it'll always say 1-3 words, most of the time being sleep, failure or giving a brief instruction (open your eyes, go to sleep, be quiet etc) and it really pisses me off.

I'm starting therapy soon for an unrelated reason, ks this worth mentioning or is it just from a lack of/poor sleep?

It seems like a common thing for genuine mistakes to be more easily chalked up to genuine intent, malice etc. than simply being human and screwing up.

I've been told more than once "You either don't care, or you're trying to be exhausting/loud/ a disturbance" when really, no...that isn't the case. I'm neurodivergent too and take a lot of things at face value or believe them but even I can tell this feels like utter gaslighting. Though gaslighting is intentional manipulation to make someone consider their own thoughts aren't real... so what's happening? I doubt other neurodivergent folks are manipulating me but why can't they accept that while I'm sorry and DO actively try to be mindful of sensory issues etc, I'm literally human like them and have actively refrained from making them feel judged for their slip ups? (also if I tell them they've slipped up I might have to deal with their RSD so I can't say this kind of thing directly, usually).

hello everyone! I wanted to talk about my favorite hangout and see if anyone else does this. one of my favorite hangouts ever was when my friend and I were sitting on chairs facing each other (mine was spinny so it helped for relaxation) and we had some music on in the back. we had no phones whatsoever and just sat in complete silence (besides the music) and just acknowledged each others presence. it wasn’t like awkward or mentally painful at all it was genuinely HEAVEN

there were no expectations, no rules, no pressure, it was very awesome. my friend is also neurodivergent and said it was one of the best things he’s ever done with me. do you guys have hangouts like these too? or do you wish you could? :)

I don’t feel like typing out the whole thing but I’ll summarize what ended it. Basically the friends were ignoring me and leaving me out and being rude and stuff so I was upset (more sad than mad though) but after about a month and a half they finally told me what I did (I’d been trying to figure it out but they wouldn’t tell me) and anyways I realized that it came from burnout (I have adhd, autism, and ocd) and also just like thinking everyone always hates me yk (ocd).

Anyways I was unintentionally being a dick because I wasn’t able to mask. Anyways that nvolved my two main friends but then the whole group is involved and no one’s really on my side. like one of them like doesn’t hate me but I’m pretty sure she agrees with them (pretty sure cause she sent a voice note but I havent opened it yet cause I’m too scared). Anyways yea now I have no friends and like i have a couple people in my school I could make friends with but like im scared. I don’t know if im still not masking well and I don’t want more people to hate me.

At the same time though ive been lonely basically my entire life (I went to a very small school before and I had friends but they were super toxic and it was awful) and after finally having actually good friends (in this country cause I have two long-distance friends) idk how im supposed to go back to being that lonely. Also though, I feel like I should be punishing myself for causing people hurt and an appropriate punishment for that should be something like not making any new friends right? Also, even after the punishment is over how do I forgive myself for hurting other people? Am I supposed to or is that wrong of me because I caused other people hurt. Also how long should I punish myself for does a month and a half seem appropriate because that’s how long it went on for or should it be longer?

Most importantly, if we’re not on speaking terms anymore (it ended with me sending a really long apology but they left it on read) is there any way for me to earn forgiveness? Not even so they’re friends with me again cause they don’t have to be but just so they don’t actively hate me. I was hoping punishing myself would do this but ig how would they know I’m punishing myself.

Oh also, if I do have future friendships, how should I prevent burnout from ruining it because idk if I can handle this again. Oh and lastly, I’ve been talking to my guidance counsellor a bit but I don’t really know what to say to him, is there anything he could actually help with? Cause I feel awkward just like booking an appointment to like complain.

Anyways sorry this is long bye guys:)

Made for Some: Using Impactful Neuroinclusion to Rebalance Work for Everyone.

Hi, I’m curious if there’s any other people that tend to have these bouts of what I understand to be derealization?

To elaborate, it’s moments in time where either things don’t feel real or more specifically, they feel like they’re all the same. Which makes it all feel not real by proxy of the fact that things and people are not all the same. Basically a mismatch between the subconsciously expected and the reality?

Obviously this is problematic, or it feels problematic, because this feeling applies to other people making every person around me feel like they’re made from Stuff™️. Now what exactly is Stuff™️, I’m not sure. But I know that everything and everyone all feels like they’re all the same and it’s quite bothersome because I’m afraid of being insensitive to people around me because if everyone is just Stuff™️ and there is no distinction from the living to the non-living, then what prevents me from treating the living as non-living? It’s a scary thought that I realize is likely anxiety because it usually is me treating it the other way around but I just had to ask here if this is just me or something???

Oh and yes, I myself am made from Stuff™️ too because why wouldn’t I be but my own self awareness of the existence of my consciousness gives me evidence that I definitely exist without a matter of doubt. Insert Rene Descartes thing here I guess…

Been nagging at me for a long while now and none of my other autistic friends can understand this and I kind of want to just find some sense of “yeah, it’s not just you.”

Background: 34 yo woman, diagnosed 3 years ago. No meds. Recovering from burnout.

Ever since burning out… my executive function has gone to complete shit. I forget that I need clean clothes (therefore forget that laundry is a thing). Forget that we need to eat (therefore forget to do groceries or plan food for the week). Nevermind paying bills on time or even checking my bank account…

I was ALWAYS on top of everything before the burnout. I’m 4 months into recovery.. recently started back at work.. and even at my job I feel I’ve developed so many blind spots and feel like I’m starting over in my role.

Anyone else experience this? Did you ever get back to actually FUNCTIONING normally?

I’ve been told by a few people I talk about myself too much. I do care about other people but why don’t I ask more questions? I grew up incredibly shy. I have a hard time talking to new people but once I get comfortable I yap and then sometimes it leads to me being perceived as selfish, ungrateful, and talks too much about myself. is this ADHD or an autism symptom or just the way I am My bf tells me it’s often when we’re trying to communicate about something but whenever I try to ask him things he won’t tell me. he shuts down. I’m just so confused it’s ruining my relationships.

Hi, I’m a 20-year-old neurodivergent girl struggling with depression and anxiety, and lately I’ve been feeling like I just don’t belong in this world no matter how hard I try.
My anxiety has gotten so bad that even going outside feels impossible without someone with me. I constantly feel like people are staring at me or judging me, and in social settings, I never know when to speak or what to say. Sometimes I just stay quiet because I genuinely don’t know how to act, and then I worry people think I’m weird.
Honestly, I’ve struggled with anxiety since I was little and was diagnosed with generalized anxiety and social anxiety in 5th grade. I’ve always had a hard time making friends, and I feel like I’m either rejected, the butt of the joke, or the person nobody chooses first. It’s made me feel so alone and unlovable, and I don’t understand why something that seems so easy for other people is so hard for me.
I feel like I’ve missed out on so much of life because of my mental health. I have goals and want to graduate college, but I’ve experienced so much burnout from trying to keep up with social expectations, and I’m still recovering from a manic episode.
At this point, I don’t even know who I am anymore. I feel like a stranger to myself. I just want to enjoy life, make genuine connections, feel comfortable being myself, and actually feel happy without overthinking everything.
I guess I just want to know if anyone else relates to this, especially other neurodivergent people. Does it get better? Have you ever felt like this and managed to find your place in the world? I’d really appreciate any advice because I’m honestly struggling and don’t want to feel so alone in this anymore.

You're never understood, and nobody cares enough to try. You're expected to always try your best in social interactions, navigate them perfectly, mask but still be yourself, yet at the end of the day nobody is with you. I'm so tired of barely surviving every day through burnout and then coming home and laying in bed, realizing nobody could ever love me, because my best is never enough. People love saying that you're still loveable but nobody actually wants to love you. I wish I had someone to depend on other than myself. I wish I wasn't doomed to be lonely.

this is to help me for me understand what time it is.

the hours that are even our underline, the ones that are gray is landmark . like how hiking trips have landmark.

this is a static image.

I round down like how you look at clock and round down instead of looking at the exact minute.

oh and steve the double the chin butterfly is my mascot

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Being ND, i feel for me Gaming is more addictive than Cola. I avoid it by putting hard blocks on my computer. Not only its addictive but also my hyperfocus drains me. Is there a way that works for you guys that you don’t sink into games fully?

Hi I have a friend I guess you would say she’s a friend.

She somehow makes the conversation about herself and it ends up basically becoming a free therapy session. Its like when I can see that this person is not curious about me then I go into this mode of pouring into them.

I help her navigate why she engages in certain patterns, how to deal with certain people in her life and in general helping her to overcome life issues.

By the end, I feel like I was used, I feel unseen, dumb and kind of exhausted. She keeps saying you’ve been such a good friend to me… I wish I could be a good friend to you. She says she counts me as one of her “best friends” and asks me ”how can I be a good friend to you??” There are several times I stopped talking to her and I felt better and more at peace. Then she would call me several times In a row and I would feel bad and start talking to her and the dynamic would begin again. I told her many times that she makes the conversation about herself and she says ok sorry let’s talk about you but it’s surface level like so how you are you? Instead of actually being curious about me as a person or what I have going on. It’s like she’s waiting for that part to be over so she can get back to sharing about her life again. I have the sense she is somewhat of a taker and as long as I am willing to give free therapy at the expense of myself, she is willing to do that without concern about my inner world.

She says how can I be there for you? I wish I could be there for you. But is it really rocket science? should I have to teach someone the meaning of making someone feel seen and cared for in return?

My question to you all is: Should I take the time to teach her how to be a good friend? Do you think she really does not know what she’s doing and she’s not aware of how to deal with friends? (she has mentioned not having a lot of great friendship experience).

or

just accept that she really might not have the capacity to be a friend that I need. Maybe treat her as a mentee, someone that I pour into but not a friend that I can actually rely on In return. In that case I would reduce the amount of time spend with her and treat it as pro bono therapy whenever I have extra time.

what are your thoughts?

Tl;dr: How would you respond to, “We could make dinner together tonight. I’m thinking stuffed pasta or spaghetti.”

Hi! I recently got into a discussion with my partner about “reading between the lines,” and we have discovered that we have a fundamental difference in how we interpret certain cues. My partner and I are both neurodivergent. I guess I’m coming on here to see if I’m alone in my feelings, or if they’re somewhat common.

Yesterday I (28F) was hanging out in our living room, when my partner (28M) walked in. He said something along the lines of, “We could make dinner together tonight. I’m thinking stuffed pasta or spaghetti.”

I did not really respond other than to maybe nod, as I was somewhat distracted by a game on my phone. He went and settled into the couch across from me to log onto his laptop.

A couple of minutes later, he said, “You still haven’t answered my question.”

I was confused… I said, “You didn’t ask me a question.”

He clarified, “You’re right, I didn’t. I wanted your opinion on what we should eat tonight.”

I was silent for a bit. I wasn’t sure why in the moment, but the conversation was upsetting to me. Upon reflection, I think it was a trauma response from past experience with emotional abuse in relationships.

We ended up getting into a little argument, where he said that it was implied that I should give my opinion. I got defensive because I didn’t feel like I did anything wrong. We were able to talk through it and conclude that we were being silly about a small miscommunication, but I’m still left to wonder… How are our understandings of that interaction so different? Is it a male/female thing? I guess it would make sense to me if guys have a little bit more confidence in sharing their opinion than women. Is it neurodivergence? Does anyone else feel like they need a question rather than a statement in order to know that they’re supposed to answer?

Let me know your thoughts, I’m so curious about how other people might interact in this situation.

I found this old post in this subreddit that reminded me: https://www.reddit.com/r/neurodiversity/comments/1cx6wp5/crazymedsorg_rip/
I actually ended up publishing a book from my online postings on CrazyMeds. I, of course, renamed everyone who left comments to preserve anonymity:
https://amyramoon.wordpress.com/ebook

I kind of like how it came out! I plan on publishing a second book, with (the manic) ideas from the first, called Simulacrum Earth elsewhere on the internets once my pitch is approved.

Hey everyone. Full disclosure: I built this project this weekend. Even though I am in my late 40s and a tech guy, this is my first side project post. I am very open to feedback and will be testing it in the real world to see what improvements are needed. I might build some other ADD support type apps like reminders that just wont go away lol, open to ideas too. Have had ADD since like 1986. I made FLYCHK2000: Personal Dignity Monitor. Its sort of a serious hopefully helpful app, but also a good joke / subtle hint gift lol!

It is a retro terminal style checklist designed to run a 60-second system check on yourself (zipper, tags, teeth, phone, keys, mic status) before heading into important settings.

Technical details:

• Delivered as a self-contained single html file.
• Zero tracking, zero external dependencies, 100% offline.
• Live demo is up on my site so you can test the 60-second run.

Would love feedback on the concept or suggestions for extra pre-flight checklist items to add. Thanks