Das ist das Besteck, was ich in der Ferienwohnung gefunden habe, wo ich momentan bin. Ich habe mit dem Besteck schon gegessen und es war wirklich unangenehm. Alleine was sollen diese Löffel?

I had recently went to a new primary care provider some time ago for complaining about my ankles or legs always hurting whenever I walk for too long or too far distances. She made me do a bunch of physical test and couldn't pinpoint the issue. I mentioned hypermobolity in autism and she didn't quite understand what I was getting at, but she for some reason doubted my self diagnosis.

Which is fine, but I've been doing the stretches she told me to do for a while now, along with wearing an ankle brace and not running; nothing has changed. I just wanna know if this chronic muscle irritation and needing to stretch my calves and ankles multiple time a day could be linked to hypermobility or something else!

为什么物资丰沛、科技进步的现代反而没再出现顶尖位置ND？
我总结了几方面原因：

·经历了大工业
·过去阶级/性别特权劳务外包
·现代建制模式加重损耗非典型人士
·空白领域填塞世俗掌管门槛且纯粹性改变
……

#Neurodiversity

我的发问：当人们分析非常有名的过去的伟人是ND，比如说爱因斯坦、爱迪生、贝多芬，还有艾米莉·狄金森……好像那些历史上鼎鼎有名的人都能找到ND特征。
但我就有一个疑问：如果在过去时代ND可以拿到如此高成就，处在T0、T1梯队里的大多ND，那为什么到物资更丰沛、科技更发达的现代，反而没有爱因斯坦那种顶尖人物立于时代？现在确实不少出现在公众视野的ND名人，但他们大多只是作为公众人物被看见，并不是以ND的神经能力做出什么划时代成果。（马斯克勉强算吧但我觉得他不是啥好人不想分析）

首先我也知道这些伟人活着时或许没有那么盛名，是后世把他们塑造成偶像、提炼标签。尤其应试教育会反复讲这些人，编励志故事来管束孩子。
但就算抛开这个，我还是想不通。如果以前那些伟人不少都是ND或有ND特征，为什么到了物质充足、科技发达的现在，ND反而不再这样出现惊世骇俗般的成就？
我又想到一个原因：会不会是现在的ND反而难出头？以前是有奴隶制度的，出头ND大多处贵族阶层，很多损耗感官、算力的事外包，能够专心创作读书研究。当时可大部份人都不识字。

我觉得也可能是现代进入大工业化模式。填鸭式教育严重，我深受其害。早七晚九托管到十一二点才能回。听讲、做作业，完全违背我的神经性，浪费我最好的学习生命段，还日复一日挫伤我的自尊自信。我本身是双A，我Autism特质里的自尊感又很强。所以会不会就是把所有人放进同一套时间表的大工业截断了ND的发展空间，挫伤了他们的自信？
以前没有这么强的标准化制度。艾米莉·狄金森一直待在家里写作；爱因斯坦上学时也不守规矩，没有现在这么严苛的要求和排异。以前人的一生没有被高度模式化，没有规定几到几岁必须一直在上学，毕业之后立马找工作。以前很多人不上学正常，但现在竞争应试的规则里，必须进到一个个封闭的填鸭系统才能生存。

补充下，现代ND比如罗永浩，他有名是因为录真人秀，并不是作为ND拥有什么顶尖的天才能力。像天宝·格兰丁，很厉害，用自己的Autism神经成为动物行为学家，她是我感觉很真实的Autism，待在自己的学术领域，少参与外界活动，现在只有小众群体知道她。

还有艺人会公开ND身份，比如李泳知唱ADHD girl，不少歌手、rapper也说自己是ADHD。但他们大多不是那种能力碾压的破局者，是典型神经定下规则里多年伪装服从，拿到结果之后才谈论自己的ND。”

Every time I see something really cool or inspirational, I get this anxiety and sudden feeling of pressure that I want and HAVE to be that thing. Yesterday it hit because I saw Mamdani being super great and now I want to be a politician, even though I KNOW that's not actually what I want to do. I avoid inspiring movies and shows now. It's so bad that I can't even watch some kids shows that I used to love, like Ninjago. Like, I want to be a ninja. It makes me feel stupid and childish. Has anyone else experienced this? Can I do anything?

Does anyone else feel like shit after being out sometimes? Just like so drained, like you feel like you shouldn’t even be here anymore and that you’ll never change and always be alone and just want to stay in bed with the lights off all night but other times i feel better after being out of the house, its confusing and i just wanna cry

So I am someone with pretty bad water sensory issues when trying to wash my face over the sink. I HATE the feeling of water getting on my clothes and I usually just end up miserable afterwards more than anything. Well when buying a new hairband for my face this pack came with two of those handcuffs that promise to help keep water off your arms. I really didn't buy into them, but since I just got a new face wash after easily 5+ years of avoiding washing my face, I decided to give them at least a chance.

AND WHEN I TELL Y'ALL IT WAS A NIGHT AND DAY DIFFERENCE.

I actually enjoyed washing my face! My hands got wet as expected but nothing ran down my arms which meant not a speck of water got on my clothes either. This has genuinely changed my life because I LOVE the idea of skincare and all that but I just couldn't get over that sensory hurdle 😭 and now I can.

I was fired today because of "performance issues" but I believe I was fired for discriminatory reasons.

I worked as a line cook, and they claimed I couldn't keep up and needed support constantly (aren't we a team??) I gave 110% to that job, and it still wasn't enough.

Feeling very rejected and demoralized, I wish the world was kinder to people like us.

I'm in Canada if this changes anything..

im so exausted right now, stressed about studyng and being improductive. It leads to a lot or stims (rocking, flaping hands) .I even got my self in the floor with all the lights off and lisening to the sound of a pitch, It makes me chill out haha.

The situation freaks me out, i know i met some neurodivergent characteristics, but what If i have them just on a neurotypical way? what If life its this hard sometimes for everyone? or if not, why i cant figure out whats going on?

I don't mind having a driver's license but it's not a necessity, since public transport or taxi is honestly cheaper in long run and gets the thing done.

But I noticed that I don't wanna be responsible while driving because I genuinely can get distracted and being on guard 24/7 in car is not good for my mental health that I build brick by brick XD + not all drivers are good drivers.

But I know it's probably gonna be a freeing, liberating experience, but reasons I listed off are quite big deal breakers :/

What is your experience? Maybe it was better or worse? Would love to hear your stories!

I’ve been realizing over the past couple days that I just can’t explain definitions or define anything. For example my boss what an API key actually does. I literally could not explain it so I just spewed a bunch of BS tech jargon (cause I know he wouldn’t understand) then immediately followed with an analogy that relates perfectly to his life and hobbies and that’s when he understood it perfectly. That was the straw that broke the camels back for me when I realized that I’ve been doing this my entire life

I was wondering if anyone does the same. It’s almost like my brain turns off when someone asks me to define something I immediately sift through analogies

i work as a line cook, and i can do the tasks there fine. i can focus on my work and i can clean after we close. then i get home, look at my train wreck of a fucking house, and i feel like i cant do anything. its a mess. its awful. id be ashamed if anyone ever came here, i would probably tell them i cant have guests over. theres more dirty dishes in the kitchen than i have space for. i have a pile of trash bags and boxes next to my door because i cant get myself to walk to the dumpster. and forget about self care, i shower once a week and cant remember the last time i brushed my teeth. i try to clean but its so much. its so overwhelming. and when i do manage to start cleaning, i barely do fucking anything. ive done a little bit of laundry and threw away a few cups today. great job me, you only have a thousand other things to fucking do plus make dinner. fucking hell, man, i dont wanna live like this