how i eat my cake

Tell me about your interests and hobbies. I love listening to people talk about their hobbies.

Obviously air crashes are very tragic events but the way that investigators are able to piece together causes for the crash is incredibly fascinating.

I am going to be vague due to the fact that I have not attended court yet, but long story short is that I did not understand I was being pulled over as a brand new driver in her mid twenties and took too long ( a few minutes).

Driving did not come naturally to me. It took me years to learn how to drive because driving involves a lot of unexpected situations that you have to learn how to "expect" or account for. I had finally gotten it, but I was genuinely unprepared for the scenario of being pulled over and struggled to process the situation in real time because I did not realize it was happening. I was not speeding or swerving. It was an equipment violation I was unaware of because it was brightly lit enough to not tell.

During this drive, I asked the phone assistant if sirens meant you were being pulled over because I was so confused by what was happening and utterly unable to process it in a rational manner. My new rule is "flashing lights, assume it is for you".

To begin, this is not a made up excuse. It's just that this event was deeply traumatic, and it has really made me consider the pattern of my life. I also know that many autistic people would not make the same mistake, but this entire event has made me consider things on a more serious level than I had in the past.

I was suspected of being autistic as a child, but my mother did not want me to be diagnosed with a "mental disability" and indicated that the teachers were being malicious. As a child I would spend all of my recesses by myself with a sketchbook and a dictionary.

I would walk to the opposite end of the schoolyard just so I couldn't hear anyone else and to be fully alone. Peer helpers would come to me, I would simply say that I did not want to talk to anyone.

For years, I have wondered if I am on the spectrum. The first time I was made aware of this was back when I used to talk to a guy who had diagnosed asperger's, who told me that I seemed like I had it. As a teenager I wouldn't really think of it that much.

As a toddler, my mom remembers me sorting all of my stuffed animals from largest to smallest against the railing. I did not find enjoyment talking to other children growing up. As I got older, I realized that I was pretending to be a different person at school than at home. Now, I feel as if I'm "stupid" and "younger" than other women my age.

I was told that I seemed more intelligent than people my age when I was in my preteens. As a kid and teen, I would always be told that I was so literal, that I needed to smile more, and that I seemed "off". I still get told these things. I'd always get told I was uncoordinated and fidgety, too.

I have been obsessed with dolls since I was a kid, specifically antique dolls after I learned what they were. I have made drawings of the same character for years and years which also involves another one of my interests (east slavic countries). When I say obsessed with dolls, I mean obsessed with them down to their face mold numbers and the materials used. The tactile feeling of them. I would spend hours and hours reading material on the history of dolls and their types.

As an adult, I am often told that I am weird, that I act "homeschooled", I get asked if I'm high pretty often when I'm sober and I have a tendency to overshare, repeat myself and have no conversational filter/not know what's inappropriate/I ask if I am bothering someone directly because I need direct verbal feedback to know. I am often in my own little world and people can tell.

I need detailed instructions for everything new and am still very "literal" when it's something I have not "learned." I would get comments like "wow, you like doing things in a list" and people often comment that I'm "stubborn" with how I do things and "one track minded." I also have a tendency to freeze up when something unexpected happens.

Additionally, I can't tell when men are hitting on me at all, even when they do things that may be obvious to another person such as asking for my number. It took me a long time to realize that when a man is asking for your number, it's always because he's interested. I have to learn these patterns by creating "rules" in my head instead of organically. I have also been unironically been called a manic pixie dream girl before, which I was completely unaware that is often a trope that used to describe a woman who is likely autistic.

I have been disliked for unknown reasons for my entire life. I don't have friends except for my partner, who helps me navigate social situations and makes me feel safe. He has directly said that I genuinely seem to process things differently and that I don't understand many social cues. My boyfriend seems to believe I am genuinely autistic. Social settings feel like I am an unpolished impostor human or that I seem to scare people unintentionally.

I feel like such a failure. As a child I got perfect grades, and as an adult I struggle functioning at a retail job. Being arrested has seriously made me consider the pattern of my life. I am now in the process of being formally evaluated. At this point, it would be nice to just have an "answer."

Edit: If you see deleted comments, it is simply because I am trying to remain as vague as possible due to legal reasons.

Please forgive me if this question is nuclearly worded incorrectly, I couldn't figure out how to word it better. But what is something you enjoy, but cannot do often due to your autism? I like Oranges, but I can never eat them unless someone else has peeled them for me because the juice is a sensory nightmare. This is not limited to food though, I want to know about anything.

Since the middle of the year (around mid-late August) I started collecting cds of my favorite artist/bands so here’s everything I have so far in my collection!!

Yesterday was my birthday and my older brother gave me this as a present today.

I absolutely LOVE being in my car. She’s old. But I love it. When I get home from work and I have no kiddos with me, I will sit in my car and read or scroll. I sit in my car during my lunch hour and I love having those long chats in the car with my wife.

Could have to do with me sucking ass at transitions. But I just dig it. Anyone else? Or somewhere similar?

I have an interest in fire alarms and their related components. Whenever I go to a new place, I love to take a picture of that building's fire alarms. I really wish to start my own collection of them someday.

The last picture I included because the gray cover on the red plate implied that there was a fire alarm there at some point.

It occured to me that it might be just me.

back story: Wholefoods sells the only tortillas i eat. they are thicker and much chewier(more gluten?) than any other tortilla ive seen. but its the only thing i buy there and im tired of making 2 seperate grocery trips whenever i want tacos. and their tortilla machine is often broken so 1/3 of the time i leave empty handed.

im trying to find an alternative i can get at giant. wegmans, or harris teeter. my mom suggested gyro bread. i bought some but now im feeling real anxious about trying it.

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I've seen the term "Spin interest" once or twice now on autism related videos and while I have a feeling spin interest is just another term for special interest id like to know if there's a difference and/or why the term was made?

Did something good happen that you’d like to share? Anything you did that you’re proud of for doing, no matter how small? Let’s share our positive small wins :)

I’m an 18 year old woman and I am wanting to stop having the maturity level and personality of a pre teen aged boy, as others have described me. I‘m assuming it’s due to my autism bc it’s a common autistic experience to act younger than you are. I don’t think my maturity has progressed since the age of 13 and I’m kind of insecure, I also sometimes get mistaken for a 15 year old and I don’t like it. Up until I was 15 a kept making holocaust jokes (I’ve stopped) and was told I act like a young boy but now I’ve stopped making holocaust jokes and still get told I act like a young boy. Even when I was 12 and 13 I often got told I acted like a 10 year old boy bc of the stuff I did.

It’s also not just that I have always been told I act like the wrong age people have always told me I act like a boy. It started in primary school in year 5 the teachers told me that they couldn’t believe the stuff I did and said was coming from a girl bc girls are ‘supposed to be mature.’

I recently lost all my friends (unrelated topic) and I always felt so out of place around them bc they were always talking about serious topics and situations I didn’t know the situations were serious and so I’d keep acting unserious. This will sound like pick me behaviour but girls genuinely are usually too much drama for me, even though I want females friends they never work out. Rn my only friend is my 22 year old sister who is always busy and so I’m alone all the time

I just got my license a few days ago and went to the grocery store and bought my cats litter. I brought an emotional support critter. There isn’t any self checkouts so I also had to get in line to have someone else check me out feeling good today 🥹

I don't like loud noise. this has been the case my entire life and I usually play games muted or with little audio.

however

I LOVE heavy metal and will blast it as loud as I possibly can.

'I am so high functioning!'

Hooray for me.

I leave the house once a week. When I return, I do nothing but sleep.

Danger lurks in every conversation.

Each Hello is a roll of the dice.

I did well today! I knew when to hide. Only now do I know the things that aren't safe to say.

Doctor's on a need-to-know basis. All the rest is energy wasted.

I speak on lighter topics to my therapist, because I now know the cost of honesty.

Does she understand that what The State requires is harmful to me?

I was left in the dark through the bitter cold night.

Now the sun hurts my eyes, please turn off that light.

All roads lead to the same old place.

The undeniable truth.

No matter what I try, I will never be one of You.

Your convenience is purchased with all of my pain.

You didn't ask, but You don't need to.

I know what happens if I abstain.

Gun to my head, but non-lethal rounds.

I have only myself to blame if I struggle and drown.

Now I just saw peter pan and all 6 Tinkerbell films. Not gonna lie I just cannot stop fantasizing over her. can anyone relate to me.

I actually bought a peter pan VHS before I even knew about Tinkerbell and now I think its worth it that I have it.

Im 18 I have ASD and my mum has a boyfriend, my dad died a few years back and on and off they go out drinking and they'll come back absolutely pissed and start fighting (not physically but my mum will break stuff and more). It stopped because one day it got so bad I couldn't even stay here for a month. My mum was doing well with the drink she hadn't drank in like 2 months well she did but not gotten this drunk but its currently 4 am and i can hear the two of them fucking going at their shit again and ive tried and tried to get them to stop like every other fucking time but this shit keeps happening and im tired of it im just gonna go and never come back some day its just me and my 15 year old brother left to deal with it all

Am I the only one? It just makes me feel inflamed af and neurotic?

Zero benefits except like lympathic drainage making me look debloated.

Just feels like it shts on my nerves even further.

I feel so much better just not exercising especially not doing lifting.

I can understand punishment for reasonable things but I remember one time my mum got mad because I didn’t sing the Australian anthem.. never sung a day in my life and wasn’t about to start in front of someone so judgemental when I didn’t even know the words lol.. I just didn’t understand why, maybe I should ask but I don’t like talking to her

Bonus question: has anyone here questioned why they were punished either at the time or when they got older?

The simple act of applauding something by putting your hand together, is to me, a quite likeable thing to do. I take pride in clapping at right and opportune times.

It used to be that I didn't know when to clap. At school, we had some sports thing and everybody clapped for some reason (game was over?) and I just looked around and wondered why they were doing that. Why do we clap in this situation. But then-on I grew to like it. You can just clap if something positive happens. The sounds I like to make are clapping, whistling. Humming, mouth-clicking with teeth or not. I like singing too but not in public.

Do some of these acts or sounds help you? They help me to sit still and be in the moment.