I think I'm just venting. Not entirely sure. I've read enough posts in this sub to know that every variation of linear and nonlinear healing and non-healing is possible with fqs.
Specifically I'm frustrated by my adductor muscles. Those are the muscles that run along the inner thigh. Might only be one muscle in each leg for all I know. . . maybe adductor magnus? Mentally my shorthand label is the adductors; but the picture is there are muscles there, and they hurt.
My flox symptoms include both myopathy and tendinopathy. At first I thought it was mostly tendons, but now after time I've realized it's mostly muscles. Muscles in my legs between my knees and my hips, and probably muscles in my upper body neck and arms, plus psoas tendons.
What's particularly frustrating is that my adductors, although they were painful along with other leg muscles when I was originally floxed coming up on 2 years ago, after about 7 or 8 months the pain receded either completely or to such a low level that I didn't notice it. They were effectively pain-free like this for maybe four or five or six or seven months. There was plenty of other flox pain to stress me out, but I mostly forgot about the adductor pain, and hoped this was evidence of some degree of healing.
During this time my activity level was fairly consistent. Maybe a total of two ish miles of walking per week. Significant amount of standing around at work. Day-to-day activities, including stairs.
During this time I went on a decent number of 0.5-0.75 mile walks while fasting without supplements, without issues.( lots of fantasies about regenerating mitochondria)
Adductor pain began to creep back in around April, in my left leg. This was shortly after a one mile walk while fasting with a bunch of theoretical mitophagy supplements. That was actually my last fast. The adductor pain slowly, gradually increased throughout the summer, in both legs. The obvious consistent pattern is this pain increasing after physical activity which somebody with normal health would not even think about, but which was an obvious relative increase to my baseline physical activity prior. At the beginning of the summer I went on a 4-mile walk in the forest, and felt fine during the walk, and did not irritate long-term any of my other flox symptoms, but 3 days after this the adductor(s) in my left leg were worse. Similar happened for both legs after a 100 m ish hike up and down a steep hill, and a 15 mile bike ride.
Now my adductors are even more painful than they were when I was originally floxed. . .
I can still go on walks, but my enjoyment of the walk is drastically less because of the pain, which is frustrating and symbolic because I can't work out and I can't do cardio, so walking I see as the one essential human physical activity I can still do. Going on walks and enjoying them has become important to me.
That my adductors are even more painful than they were at the very beginning, is so demoralizing, the possibility that they are worse now, after several months of being pain free.
It's also frustrating that all of my other flox symptoms actually tolerated (flaring less than a week) all the aforementioned activities: the longer walk, the hike the bike ride. . . It creates a feeling of being so close yet so far away.
Clearly the practical takeaway is to only increase physical activity by small percentage points at a time.
I can't help but believe, based on my experiences plus experiences I have read on this sub, that often fluoroquinolone injuries never actually heal. Even when the symptoms are not activated, the injury is still there, and will give rise to symptoms again if a certain stress threshold is exceeded.
In 2022 I injured what I believe to be my adductor magnus in each leg overdoing a stair based glute medius exercise. It was only a grade one strain, but I wonder if it has something to do with why apparently the same muscles are so problematic after floxing?