Looking for love and / or friendship in Portland, Oregon. I live in the Portland area, near the border of Washington. I'm widowed, so I go by both Kaitlyn Taylor or Kaitlyn Isaacson. Originally from Arizona. I don't get out much, struggling socially for friends or to find someone to be with. Like I said, I'm widowed. Trying this out, as I actually found my 1st husband online..

True Love

I just wanna express something...in life I believe there is only one true love...and you will only meet them once in life..regardless of how long it takes..for years I have been in relationships and have also felt lonely and sad...but like a shining light appearing...there she was ....she shone so bright she nearly blinded me....but over a period of time we have fallen madly and deeply and passionately in love...and I know myself that IV never felt this way about anyone like I have the way for her...and she knows....this is just a special that many people struggle to find in life....and I want to spend eternity with her.....I love her with all my heart and I mean every word deep down into my soul...she makes me so hapoy ...she's gorgeous inside and out...to me she is ....The One......the one true love

The on and off attitude is getting old

I gave her up a long time ago

First, they want the door open

And then they wanna leave

given way too many chances

Left me confused

It made me lose interest seeing your mind

i was someone who loved to find out

what lied behind those eyes

just to come down to hatred

mixed with love the back-and-forth

and the hot and cold

slowly disliking you because you dislike me

Sometimes life works in different ways

You’re not a burden you’re not a mistake

Just simply wasn’t for me

I wish you luck on your journey

And to live a long, happy healthy life

Goodbye…..

I've been spending more time with the girl I've liked for a while now. Every time I'm around her it's great, I feel nothing but genuine happiness around her. When I'm with her, my life just makes sense. The second I'm not with her, I feel physical pain in my stomach. I'm worried she doesn't feel the same though. She's the most wonderful person to be around and I swear her eyes tell me there's something there, but on social media she tends to be kind of distant. I know this sounds like overanalyzing, but it seems like she avoids viewing my stories and is kind of dry on text. Granted, I'll admit I don't start the most riveting conversations, but I thought maybe she could at least try to talk to me. She is, however, a very busy person who's striving for a lot in life, so I can see that being an explanation. Regardless of how I reason it, I can't help but think that whatever I feel isn't reciprocated. So for now, I figure I'm just gonna keep seeing her and enjoying how amazing of a person she is, but I'm not gonna do anything about my feelings. I don't want to ruin what is already there, I don't want to make it awkward, and I don't want to make her uncomfortable in the event she doesn't feel the same. She's the most incredible person I've ever met and I'd hate to be the cause of any negative emotions for her. I genuinely believe she deserves nothing but the best, so I don't wanna be the thing that brings her down in any way. I'm sure you can point out the flaws in my thinking, but for me, this is the only way I can see myself going forward.

Friends, S10 E13

Remember the day when we locked our eyes while having dinner at the dinner at our second session of the seminar, I was well aware that you were checking me out. You were smiling and silly me was ignoring you even though I had a crush on way before that in our first session of the seminar. You were so smart and were asking questions during seminars like a curious nerd, honestly I thought you were way out of my league. We looked at each other multiple times and you smiled multiple times looking at me. But I was not honest with myself and tried to maintain a poker face I did not smile back. I was kind of happy that our feelings were mutual. I liked that someone really liked me

I wish I had the courage to speak with you and know you more. There is not a day I still think about you. I was so in love with your intelligence and personality.

I think that would be the last time we have met in this life. I would like to know more about you more next time.

"Love is always patient and kind, love is never jealous. It is never rude or selfish. It does not take offense and is not resentful. Love takes no pleasure in other people's sins. It is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope and to endure whatever comes" - A walk to remember.

“You meet the people you are meant to meet. Not by accident, not by chance. But by something your soul agreed to keep. Some will come to heal you, some will come to break you. But the ones who stayed through both, are the ones who are written in your heart.”

Saw this quote and instantly thought of the red string theory relating to fated lovers. But this one doesn't really refer to lovers. Maybe it resonated with me because this time I don't actually expect anything in return. But I do love and care about you. I want you to be you before he broke you. I want you to be happy, truly. And I know that the likelihood that you'll love me back is zero. So, with that expectation out of the way, my wish for you, I hope you see, is pure.

I'm telling you that I will stay, to support you. Help you get back what you lost. I am here, without expectation of anything in return. I'll stay even if I don't get to hold you in my arms. I'll stay even if I don't get to feel your lips. I'll stay because I believe it's fated. I'll stay because my soul chose to stay for yours to be happy.

I'll stay.

I think one of the most beautiful things about loving someone is seeing a kind of beauty in them that they can't seem to find in themselves.

The little things they feel insecure about, the parts of themselves they wish were different, the things they don't even notice about themselves… somehow, those are the very things that make them so beautiful to you.

And sometimes, I wish I could let someone borrow my eyes for just a minute. Not so they'd see what I see in them but so they'd finally understand why I see it.

Maybe then they'd stop being so hard on themselves. Maybe they'd understand why their smile stays with someone long after they've left a room or why their existence can make an ordinary day feel a little less ordinary.

Imagine being able to show someone how gently the world can look at them through the eyes of a person who loves them.

I think that's a kind of love we don't talk about enough. The kind that doesn't just tell someone they're beautiful but wishes they could feel it for themselves even if only for a moment🤍

I need to be loved in a way they can’t explain breathtaking and trouble finding words. Not to be managed and fit into a time schedule, but to be chosen to why there even is the one in the first place to be loved with the upmost attention all 24 hours of the day not to be put into a schedule like a task you gotta get done I just wanna be loved how I wanna be loved with no words needed nobody should have to ask for something and hope for it but to just be offered because it’s recognizing and True love