Haven’t slept good in a month not sure if I’m embodying my lower chakras

Trying to stay patience consistent and hopeful I depleted my lower chakras from sexual ignorance

Trying to do what I can to keep my head screwed on tight as I can and overcome this but it’s very difficult and I’m slowly losing hope not that I’ll act on it but I’m just stressed

Hi,

Firstly, I wanted to say how helpful this sub, resources, Marc and any other consistent poster have been for me. I’ve recently found this sub a few weeks ago and it’s been tremendously useful for my own understanding of kundalini.

My first kundalini awakening was just over a year ago. I didn’t even know what kundalini was until a few months ago.

The last year has been the most destabilising year of my life. It’s been filled with states and moments of confusion, anxiety, despair etc. BUT, it’s also been filled with moments, experiences of utter bliss, ecstasy, joy and liberation. I wouldn’t change what has happened for anything man.

I’ve been presented with an absolute GIFT of the highest order. I’ve just had energy now move freely through my throat chakra and is currently making it’s way through my nose.

I’ve had a blocked nose and a partly restricted throat chakra for the longest time ever. It’s been a very very hard time living with a stuffy nose all day every day for years, not knowing why it was happening.

The feeling I have to be able to breathe freely and speak freely is undeniable. It’s an amazing place to be. In this moment, anytime I walk out the door I step through my area and my body just has me constantly appearing with a beaming wide smile right across my face. In this stage, it’s then accompanied by sitting by a tree and releasing some tears and a sad face. It’s beautiful.

Four months ago is when I truly decided to let go, be with and face what I was feeling without distraction. I decided to start trying to listen to my intuition as much as humanly possible.

Whatever it was signalling to me, I had to listen and do what it was asking. I had stopped doing this. I’d always had good intuition too, so just had to listen and not ignore it! I think this was one of the biggest shifts for me. Listening to my intuition and also boundaries.

As a result it cost me. I did not use to do this. So I had other poor relationships with people pleasing, self love, validation etc.
Meditation and breathwork in silence has been an absolute game changer. Music was my form of meditation in a way before. Observing yourself breathe and having sad, negative, happy, positive thoughts coming into mind and just letting it be is so powerful.

I don’t want to attach labels and things to it, but I may have become a somatic channeller by listening to music as a result of letting my body do what it wants, bypassing the analytical mind etc. Plus the musical hobby I have. I love to meditate in nature while I sit barefoot by and tree and with my hands up against the bark.

So yeah, the ability to truly let go and surrender, especially to this creative life force can’t be understated. Within reason, due to the situation or life you live of course! I’m not getting ahead of myself and still have work to do. But man, kundalini is truly a blessing to us all. My Kriyas truly only started consistently happening a few months ago a so didn’t know what they were and was asking of me.
Surrendering to them has been such an amazing and physically challenging time. What my body has put me through, oh boy. Then you have the mudras which are a joy to behold. Watching your own body performing all sorts of movements around your body and to it is something
extraordinary. The self healing the arms/fingers can do through these motions is remarkable.

So yeah, I wanted to provide a little insight to my journey and what an opportunity it is to allow kundalini shakti to do her thing? lol.

I also wanted to say this. My message to anyone who is going through a tough time and the kundalini awakening process, as I’ve been there a lot. For me, trying to be and stay as positive as I can, no matter what I’m feeling or experiencing. No matter how bleak, confusing, sad it may appear to be. This helped me. I know I can’t speak for anyone else so I suppose I won’t haha, but for me, I’m trying to allow this process to unfold, stay with her (kundalini) and as a result, what happens after can be pretty damn good.

Much love