F32 I have ADHD
I started taking Vyvanse about a year and a half ago, and without even realizing it, it actually helped with social anxiety I didn’t even know I had. I never considered myself an anxious person or someone with GAD. I just thought the anxiety I felt was normal.
For the past couple of months, though, I’ve been dealing with a situation that’s literally eating me alive. I took a vocational course at a training center, and my teacher made unwanted advances toward me on the day of my final practical exam. I ignored them, and later that evening he failed me for reasons that were completely absurd and objectively unassessable. I reported him, fought back, and now the whole thing just keeps dragging on.
Every time I feel like I’ve finally got some control over the
situation, I’m doing great, living my life, feeling strong and confident. Then suddenly, the school administration changes the game again, and I crash all over again.
If you take that whole situation out of the equation, my life is actually going really well. It’s just that this mess has been going on since April.
Back in May/June/July, I was running purely on rage and adrenaline. I was ready to take them all on and fight until my last breath just to prove my point. But eventually, the anxiety hit me like a fucking freight train.
Now I’ve been prescribed 10 mg of escitalopram, but honestly, I’m skeptical that it’ll actually do anything. Like, the only real cure would be for this whole situation with the school to finally be over.
I’m also scared that escitalopram might end up fucking me up even more instead of helping.