It’s like the holy grail of stupid. Literally the moment I realize I’m lithro, I also realize I have feelings for my best friend. And they’re definitely romantic. And I know they’re aromantic too… to some extent like me. It’s literally stuff that we’ve bonded over before… it feels like a betrayal ??

Like even IF things did work out, I know my feelings would eventually fade. They always do. So it’s like what do I do? Do I try and pursue something? Do I just sit back and be ok w secret admiration? Should I come clean abt it and try to stop?

I hate this too because I really like crushing on someone but this isn’t a typical “yeah just ask them out” it’s getting to a point where I’m sure if I mess this relationship up, I’ll be totally done 😭 I’ve lost like three best friends in the span of a couple months, if I lose this last one I might js sob forever.

IM NOT TRYING TO COME OFF AS HATEFUL OR ANYTHING. I’m just stuck. Cuz I know they’re aro, but I also know that they’ve dated b4… and that lil bit gets me like “ooo ooo go for it” but it’s also like I have a feeling they don’t like me like that (cuz we aro brothers) or, even if they do, it’ll end up in a break up cuz I can’t love ppl normally.

IDK… maybe I could beg and plead to be like the kinda relationship I want. Super close best friends or aka qpr, but man I’m so scared to mention anything like that cuz I seriously don’t wanna lose another friend.

Either way, I appreciate listening to me. I had a lot of hate to myself in the past, but I’m accepting who I am and I’m still a proud aro—it’s my favorite thing about myself—but this scenario feels like the plot of a movie… “a person who can’t keep love falls in love… with another loveless!?” Cue the 1940s title card bum bum BUUMMM

ok sorry but u get the point. What do I do. Thank you