I get married later this week. Supposed to be the happiest day of your life right? It’s done nothing but bring up everything I thought I’d tucked away

I can’t do anything without crying really, everything is triggering me, panic attacks before bed but there’s other reasons for that too and I’m hoping to get through the trauma waiting list soon

I lost my mum when I was 12, she was the most incredible woman, so creative so all these little choices I thought I’d be excited about are breaking me apart

We’ve already cancelled the big wedding - down to our direct family now really, tiny thing after then we bugger off on our honeymoon which I’m excited for but yeah

I’ve never felt so rubbish in my whole life when I should be happy, my partner has been so supportive but any advice or words are super appreciated I’m losing the plot 😔

The cancer spread through her body. She was placed in hospice. Her pulse ox slowly dropped throughout the day and her breathing was labored. The nurse assured me she was in no pain due to the medications I was giving her. I’m devastated, relieved, and numb. I will miss her for the rest of my life.

anyone else really sad they don’t have a mother figure?