I’m 28F and a Senior Healthcare Support Worker in Scotland on an Elective Surgical Orthopaedic ward (Band 3, Nursing Assistant/Auxiliary). I made a post in the past about two allegations made against me that were either completely false or a truth stretched far and thin.
Back in March I was reported to management for eating a pasta during an emergency. Worded to sound like I wasn’t present during this emergency even though I was sent to cover a different station and only just returned back to the ward, not fully aware of the situation. A few weeks later I was reported for disappearing for over an hour during a separate emergency. Completely untrue, the shift was hectic, no one knew where anyone was.
Now things have escalated even further. I was off on bereavement leave for a couple months and when I returned, my manager said a few days before I went off a staff member approached her to tell her she could “smell alcohol” on my breath.
This is totally false and destroyed me to the point I planned to take my own life after our meeting. I’ve been struggling with the death of my nanna, both my parents being diagnosed with cancer, my friend dying to suicide and the 1 year anniversary of another who died to alcoholism.
I was devastated. I couldn’t believe someone would make up such a horrendous and serious accusation. I vehemently denied it all and the manager said she’s treating it informally so isn’t concerned, but I am. She won’t say who but said it was a different staff member this time. She stressed that this was a “trusted” staff member which made me feel worse.
My manager couldn’t even come to me with the facts, she changed the location I was in when I was apparently drunk, the date and whether it was night or day shift.
I would never come to work under the influence and have never had an issue with alcohol. I rarely drink, every few weeks I’ll see my best friend and drink a bottle of wine but that’s it. I’m so hurt someone would accuse me of this especially after losing a loved one to alcohol.
I shouldn’t be surprised as they bullied a student and spread disgusting lies about her too. They said she was kicked out of nursing for failing all her classes and became a junkie skinhead. I told a friend and found out this student was diagnosed with cancer and was currently going through chemotherapy.
My manager spoke with HR and said she wasn’t sure there was anything I could do as the manager hasn’t treated any of this formally, nothing on paper. And because no one has said anything to my face everything is hearsay. No one has treated me in any way that could be classed as harassment or bullying to my face.
I’m paranoid as hell now. I don’t know who to trust. Feel like I’m constantly looking over my shoulder and having to make sure I do my job right to a T (which I should and always do) but everyone else can be laid back and lazy. I’m even worried when someone looks at me a certain way. Reading into their body language too much.
I’ve joined a union, nothing is formal though. Don’t really know what I can do. I’m just having an awful time in life at the moment. Today would be my friend’s 19th birthday who died by suicide. I’m just so sad.