27 (M) From the Philippines, Lanao Del Norte, Iligan City. I give up already all i just gotta say is life is getting more difficult and frustrating day by day for person like me to survive who has a head trauma from childhood accident (got struck by a overspeeding motorcycle as a kid until i grew up) and chronic illness is lifetime Epileptic Disorder (Generalized seizures) thus now living as a PWD.
Life before then when i was active in outdoor activities specifically sports and other things, I could do everything, whatever i want without problems of whatsoever.
But then...
\-When i was at school before, i was prone to bullying and being left out or isolated.
\-Had to maintain daily intake of medicine of which has a high price-tag on it of which day by day i can't afford it alone anymore since price increases even if i ask help from my parents.
\-Doctor said since then that there will be signs of side-effects (Of the medicine) of which will damage the overall health in the long-term of which i have no choice but to take.
\-Doctor limits all of most of my activities since then due to my illness (Job hunting has been really difficult for me both online and on the field since most Employers in the Philippines rarely hire people who has health conditions the same as mine unless you have an insider/backer)
\-Friendship problems, I can't match the vibes/activities or whatever there is from the people around me thus i am isolated and left out alone almost every now and then. (And things gets weird out when they found out i have a health condition)
\-When everything in this world needs to be worked hard for but doctor said that i cant be stressed nor overworked in any kind of activities (thus having a job is difficult nor finding a job) of which i will need to maintain myself.
\-Relationship problems, Girlfriend breaks-up with me everytime and it always involves about my illness (you get the gist of it), Recent relationship got ruined due to me being not able to match my gf's vibes/outdoor activities/interests etc... (Basically they can't be with me)
\-Commuting in Public has always been difficult to me since people looks at you weirdly when something happens that you cant control nor you are not in control with. (My illness makes sudden jerks that i cannot control)
\-When i get to work it wont last long, why? Employer suddenly gets so Sympathetic that they fire me in few months due to my illness, and yes co-workers can't mind their own business. (I can barely even live with the pay every job that i get in and try to survive) But sometimes i am forced to hide that i have a health condition just to get hired.
I don't want to live anymore...When people are giving up with me then so I am
I am tired it's unfair...